Anti-Hero Complex?

Question

I have always felt a great evil inside of me. not a demon or something like that, but my own self.

I've been watching Smallvile lately, and Lex reminds me of myself in a lot of ways.

Ever since I was little, I felt like I was destined to go down the wrong path.

Like something I can't change.

I understand evil, and bad, but yet when I watch movies I'm always rooting for the villains, even when I think what their doing is wrong.


when I was a Christian I feared I would someday be the anti-Christ.


I don't ponder on these thoughts daily, but every once in awhile They come up.

It doesn't feel like I'll be a petty criminal, or a mass murder either, but it feels something large scale, something everyone would see as bad.

What are your views on this?

What do you think it means?

Answer 1

It means that you have the choice as this is what always remains in your power.

We all can make the decision which door we want to open.
So can you. You can open the door and walk the path which brings you and others pain, or you can decide to open the door which has love, light, joy courage, etc. written on it and walk the path of a strong man. So it is up to you to decide. That what you feel inside yourself can also be used for good things. Just remember that. It is you who has the last say in this all and not that what you feel as a part of you

Answer 2

Your mind is working properly, but you do not understand the operations.

When you learn how to make pies, you learn a recipe, a procedure that, if followed, will result in a baked pie. As you grow in expertize, you learn what to do when conditions are not ideal, when the fruit is a little overripe, when the oven says one temperature but bakes in another, and so on. That type of marginal knowledge is not important in baking pies as much as the original recipe, still it will save the day every now and then.

This marginal knowledge is important in some fields. In medicine, it is said you can learn how to operate an appendicitis in ten minutes, but it takes ten years to learn what to do if something goes bad, and how to prevent it.

The same thing happens in life. I have a friend who is a good driver, yet he has accidents. The problem is that since he naturally drives properly, he cannot see himself as a drunk driver, or visualize how one of them acts. He does not take precautions others take.

I am a better person today than ten years ago. I improve a little every day. I am wiser today in ways I did not anticipate back then. The same thing happens in the others side of the road, but it is not a mirror. I understand what should happen, the procedures. I do not understand what can go wrong. There was a day when I hoped to learn those matters, but I learned the list is infinite for all purposes. We cannot go thru life preventing everything. Such effort is not merely "expensive." The only way to avoid all risk is not to play, which is not a realistic option.

My guess is that you are going thru some similar process, and will find a similar result. You are not crazy, or the evil. You are growing up, soaking experience.

Answer 3

that's somewhat like while an alcoholic realizes after years of denial, "Oh sh*t! i could desire to have a situation with booze." many human beings w/ delinquent tendencies (Bundy, Dawmer) knew early on that there grew to become into some thing incorrect w/ the way they wer thinking. If this could be a real question becuz of dark thots that u could b having, then get counseling b4 u finally end up w/ a team o our bodies in yer returned backyard.

Answer 4

did u hv a troubled childhood..?? may b bcoz of dat u r feeling like this... im no phycologist... but jus saing mi opinion.... well u mite feel better u talk to some professional if its bothering u much...or simpli talk to smbdi close ,who wud understand u ...abt all things dat ever troubled u till nw thru out ur life....or simpli write it in a paper n then read it aloud.... may b u may find the reason 4 this kinda feeling....
then u can meditate..... it helps.....
i believe its nothng more significant than anithing that meets ur eyes... i mean...like i dnt thnk its ur destiny or future premonition or smthng bad lik dat.... its jus a feeling... may b a reminder of some past u forgot.... dats it....

believe in god... believe in righteuosness... nothng bad will happen... may god bless u ... :)

Answer 5

It is a gift. A gift of sin.

In Genesis, the Word declared man as sinful and implanted sense of sex and sexual organs. Underneath we did repect to God. Then we considered that we are sinful. As we also got the spirit of God, we are good.

To solve that we should continues our development to extend our goodness and ignore God. Then our goodness would conquer our darkness naturally.

Answer 6

Just a psychological thing. As long as you're aware of it, you'll see it if it's about to happen, and therefore be empowered to stop it. If you don't WANT to stop it, you'll be needing some therapy.