Anti-Hero Complex...?

Question

I have always felt a great evil inside of me. not a demon or something like that, but my own self.

I've been watching Smallvile lately, and Lex reminds me of myself in a lot of ways.

Ever since I was little, I felt like I was destined to go down the wrong path.

Like something I can't change.

I understand evil, and bad, but yet when I watch movies I'm always rooting for the villains, even when I think what their doing is wrong.


when I was a Christian I feared I would someday be the anti-Christ.


I don't ponder on these thoughts daily, but every once in awhile They come up.

It doesn't feel like I'll be a petty criminal, or a mass murder either, but it feels something large scale, something everyone would see as bad.

What are your views on this?

What do you think it means?

Answer 1

To me, life is not pre-determined. We all have a free will and can choose our path as we wish and can deviate from that path whenever we wish.

Of course, we may suffer serious consequences because of our choices, but that is part of life's game. We need to accept the consequences of our actions, rather than accepting that our life's path cannot be changed.

You can choose today to strive toward positivity, rather than lamenting the perception that evil is in your future.

The future never comes. All that matters is what you do and what you think right here, right now.

Answer 2

Animal side, normal, you need to drive it towards a purpose. Mine was technically to figure out this world, because at any point I could give in to being evil and kill, rape and pilliage everyone I could. It was my ace in the whole. Strange thing thou, I, over time, found evil to be quite weak, easy, and a waste of my life. Stronger things are given to those that create.....

In otherwords, you more honest then most about the way your feel, this is actually pretty universal, as far as I've found. Even enought that two stranges like us could relate on it. Only difference I never had any dillisions about being the anti-christ with god, found that position to be to weak......