I shouldn't even be thinking about suicide?

Question

I shouldn't even be thinking about suicide?
i feel that anything i do won't have a good result if i don't pray for the extraordinary blasphemous thoughts that i had before
there no meaning, intent or plan behind my thoughts, it's just out of my control
are the people with mental illness infested with devils and is that why they're sad?
this is one of my biggest obstacles in life, so i should fight it off to find myself again
i feel that one day i might think that religion is killing me even though im a christian
whenever i feel guilty and uncomfortable, does that mean the devils are near me?
am i right and what should i do?
i had tons of points that i wanted to mention, which i all analyzed in my head, but it was gone when i clicked the back button
i have been having too much guilt all the time and i can't leave myself alone with it and i just had a really big fight with my grandma who i live with and i told her about suicide and that she looked like devil and she was very upset
11 minutes ago - 3 days left to answer.
Additional Details
9 minutes ago

i was going to tell her about my ocd, but there's a close doctor that she and i know
she might tell him that i have it, which i don't want it to be transferred because i admire and like him, and he also thinks that im good at everything and im so smart, basically he likes me a lot, but i don't want to ruin that
9 minutes ago

i think it's time for me to live a free life without guilt and i feel that i have to pray, but i don't want to and i don't want to commit suicide
7 minutes ago

i really had a hard time with guilt about other things
6 minutes ago

i make up reasons of why i don't have to pray or be guilty but when i forget those points, it's like being unable to get access to an addiction
6 minutes ago

i make up reasons of why i don't have to pray or be guilty but when i forget those points, it's like being unable to get access to an addiction
4 minutes ago

i cried when we had a fight
4 minutes ago

i cried when we had a fight
4 minutes ago

i even cried when we had a fight and i usually don't cry
4 minutes ago

i even cried when we had a fight and i usually don't cry
1 minute ago

i feel too overwhelmed or don't know what to do sometimes and i want to excel in everything, but i have too much weight on myself

this is out of question but im planning to sleep at 5 and jump rope at 2 or 3 to lose weight while forcing myself on something to get my stress out

the main thing that's on my mind right now is that i believe that i need to pray, so i can do thing properly

the main thing that's on my mind right now is that i believe that i need to pray, so i can do thing properly, which i haven't yet

Answer 1

hey veggie,
you are a natural poet, a little tortured for sure, but all the great ones are. Check out some of the online poetry sites, I reckon you could find your niche. It would be a good outlet for all that creative energy in your mind.

good luck

Answer 2

It's a stressful time of year - when society's expectations of a dream holiday make normal life seem less than it is. Try journaling. Try mediation - the rosary is a great way to calm yourself and connect spiritually. Write down a list of good things that you have done. Write down a list of the things you accomplished today - even if it's only getting the mail.

They say within a couple weeks of a psychology class half the class has self-diagnosed themselves with a dozen disorders. It may not be as bad as you think, but try to break down your big goals into little more manageable steps.

Get some sunlight, take a multivitamin, and stretch. And do something nice for your grandma, like the dishes or dusting even if it isn't your turn.

Answer 3

well it seems you believe that we humans are the ones who make our own future right? If so, that's great. Always keep in mind that it's never too late to change, to correct our mistakes or even to compensate them.

There's a line that goes like:
"We humans tend to let our past destroy our present. We should learn to accept the fact that things happen and all we can do is live with it and move on. Life always has countless beautiful things to offer. Each of us have a lot of potentials. We must use it and strive to discover those offerings and thus be able to embrace them."


Personally I always used to think I'm useless. I always whine, I always blame the world, the people around me. I sometimes wished I wasn't born. I've been through a lot of hell in this life. But eventually, right now, I can just breathe with looking back all I've been through. I was fortunate. Those things are what made me this strong. I keep in mind that if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be like this. Don't put yourself down too much. As said in that line, things happen. They're instruments that help shape you up. You may be fortunate for having them. Someday, you might just end up whispering that to yourself...

Answer 4

1. you need sleep, it is the body's way of healing.
2. no matter how bad you feel, how much pressure you are under, how many doubts you have about yourself and where you need to be - there is no rock bottom that you can't survive. you need to sit quietly with yourself and think about what you have power over and what you do, accept what can't be changed and ask for grace for those that can. I'm not a religious person but you need to believe that you are here for a reason and everything will become clearer and less painful once you are out of the fog you are in. hang in there, life - no matter how confusing and painful - is all we have and don't you dare throw that away. as for help, from friends, telephone lines, stuffed toys, whoever... what you need to do is talk, vent, yell, and live. all the best.

Answer 5

I'm a christian to

Why do you see the devil all the time?

and why do you feel so guilty

If youv sinned repent an ask for forgivness
God understands

If you feel confused and lost talk to someone
At your church talk to your reverend or minister

Tell them how you feel

Theyl give you the support you need

If that doesnt help add me

[e-mail]

im always here to talk
And id be happy to listen and pray for you

Answer 6

baby u sound depressed...ive thought about suicide...that thought usually comes when things arent going my way or something bad happens to me or when i feel sick or when i feel as if the future holds nothing for me.....BUT, i realize how weak and foolish i am. i need to stay strong and realize that there are many ways in which i can find happiness or at least feel happy. you too, im assuming! try not to think negative thoughts darling. flush all those thoughts down the toilet before you go to sleep......there will be better days! love ya~

Answer 7

It sounds like you have some serious problems. I recommend that you see a doctor immediately. If you are thinking about harming yourself, go to a hospital.

Answer 8

Most people that suffer from mental illness. It was brought on by trauma. I don't think they are infested with devils as you ask.

Answer 9

your obstacles are nothing compared to billions of people who have other problems...
some of their problems...

- they are too ugly (they look like monkeys...)
-no money ( they dont have resources)
- they dont know how to use computers (he!he!he!)
- they have sick parents
- they have cancers
-they dont have teeth
-they have too many pimples on their faces
- they dont know how to read and write
- they have no house
- they live in the streets

hey...learn to count your blessings

besides, do you want to die an ugly death

i like to die like a sleeping beauty...with a smile in my face:)

Cheer up!

Answer 10

I know exactly how you feel. Just keep telling people how you feel, and don't give up. crying is healthy, fighting is not