the other night my mom went through a withdraw of alcohol. now i learned she is going to go to a rehabilitation center in florida(we live in michigan) for 6 weeks. me and my family can not have any contact with her, and shes going to be gone for christmas. i know i should be happy for my mother that she is treating her alcoholism, but i can't help but to blame God. i really don;t think i can live without my mother for a month. i've even tried to write poetry.(i write when i'm depressed to get my feelings out) . and i wrote a poem that would normally help me with my struggles with God, but now i just feel bitterness towards it. how can i even trust God anymore? its really hard to know hes real. what do you think about this?
by the way heres the poem i wrote.:
(please don't laugh at the corny-ness; i know its stupid)
When dreams are reaped
When few survivors stand tall
When love doesn’t last
When all you can do is fall
When depression is encouraged
When people fail to learn
When your candle fades away
When suicide is what you yearn
When faith is never returned
When hell seems to near
When you receive what you didn’t deserve
When unconditional love is what you fear
When anger has turned to regret
When solitude is your main goal.
When your Heaven becomes a knife
When your heart is weakened, destroying the soul
When everything seems like life has turned against you.
When you can’t control your thoughts.
When it gets harder and harder to breath.
When you find it is you, you have fought.
When God becomes your scapegoat
When hate knows you better than yourself
When you think you can control the addiction
When this pain is nothing you’ve ever felt
When you want to be content
When you can’t do it on your own
When your hate is being questioned
When you’re tired of being alone.
When this happens to you.
God will always see you through.
When you realize you’re trapped in this darkened pit
Your lantern will be lit.
2007-12-20 12:49:05 · 3 answers · asked by Anonymous in Social Science ➔ Psychology
ro j- i actually pray a lot.
2007-12-20 14:29:58 · update #1
Please realize that the greatest gift your mother can give to herself and to her family is her sobriety. She's been living in hell (figuratively speaking) with alcoholism. You may have seen some of it's effects yourself, but trust me, there's more to it than the outside eye can see. She has a difficult journey ahead of her, and she needs your support, your love and your encouragement. It would be hard for her to stay at the rehab center if she knew you were depressed and hurting because she's not at home with you. Truthfully, she already knows this, and I'm sure it's tearing her apart. She's got an opportunity now to take out a new lease on life...a chance to rid herself of the chains (the alcoholism) that have bound her. I know it's hard for you to be without her for a month, but a month is a short time compared to the rest of your lives. Have a smile handy for her. Keep your chin up. She loves you and she's doing what she needs to do right now. Alcoholism has robbed her of her ability to love herself. She has a chance now to learn to love herself again. And the more she can accomplish in that regard, the more she can be a loving, giving mother to you. So her absence now is a gift to you both. You will get through this! While she's away, I strongly suggest that you attend some Al-Anon meetings in your local area. (Check the phone book for listings.) This group of people knows what you're going through, and they can be a valuable source of support. You don't have to go through this alone. God is with you, and with your mother...trust His wisdom. Perhaps this Christmas you and your mother are getting the very best Christmas present of all...a chance at a brand new life. Here is a link to information about Al-Anon and how to locate meetings near you:
http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/english.html
*peace be with you*
2007-12-20 13:01:54 · answer #1 · answered by It's Ms. Fusion if you're Nasty! 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hey sweetheart, I know how you must be feeling. Sometimes crap happens and it's easy to blame God, because there's no one here we can blame. But I want you to think about something. I read the Bible, and it says that God works all things for the good of those who love Him. I'm absolutely positive you want your mom to get better, and get away from her addiction. I know it sucks to have her far away from you for 6 weeks, but God can use that and maybe transform your mother into someone who doesn't need to depend on alcohol. I can't see the future, but I trust God knows what's best and He has a plan for your future, and your moms, and I'm convinced that will be together.
Have you tried talking to God? I know it seems sillly, but why not tell Him how you feel? He knows anyway, He knows you're mad at Him, so tell Him. He can take it, and at least that way, you're still talking to Him. But pray for this too, k? You may not be able to see the end of the tunnel yet, but one day you'll look back and see where God had His hand. Trust me, I've been there. It does happen.
2007-12-20 15:21:44 · answer #2 · answered by Chrissy D 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
who ever faces difficulties in life and then dare to blame God, the person is someone who don't understand the true meaning of living in this world.
When God tests us with difficulties, it's mean God still take care and love us. God wants us to work hard, overcome problems with patient heart. God helps will come if we patient and always good thinking.
by the way, how many time do you pray (asking God to help you)?
2007-12-20 13:27:31 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 1⤋
listen ur mother made the choice to drink not god so u have to blame her ......i know u love her n forgive her she made a mistake..but do want to spend this 1 christmas witout her or lots more because if she dont go she could die from many ays ,,, dont be angry be thankful god showed her u and what it meant to have u near her so that she wld get help and u will always have ur mother,,
2007-12-20 13:01:20 · answer #4 · answered by Psychologist In The House 6 · 2⤊ 0⤋