I need a conclusion to the third stanza.....help? Any suggestions?

Question

It is hard for me to see the disillusion of your heart.

Though my trials are neverending,

I am planted at the start.

Delving deeper in the depths..of a slowly maddened heart,

With all hopes of your repenting,

I am planted at the start.


Reminiscent of a time when your love was with devotion...

Now it is clear to any human that your heart lacks mere emotion.

Silly dreams of happy endings,

All the while I am pretending...

Insanely lying to myself,

Hoping that our bond is mending.


Standing by your sickened fits,

While the bile burns in my throat,

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Answer 1

Concluding lines:

I don't know what to feel
My heart is dead, my mind confused
Dear I don't know what to do
I feel sad for many reasons:
Money, lust, hatred; can't handle it all.

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