And I swallowed what they taught. It was rigid time of blind faith and doctrine. From an early age I knew I was different somehow, but I couldn't put it into words. I followed what was expected of me, and performed for the admiring crowd. That is until I couldn't do it anymore and had to follow my heart. I did so with trepidation caused from years of indoctrination, yet as I stepped forward into life I never abandoned my faith. I couldn't and can't. What I don't understand is why my faith has abandoned me? Rather, why has the teachers of doctrine made me an example when I live an examplory life?
I sincerely believe that G-d put me here not to test me, but rather to test others on how well they treat their fellow man.
Any mature thoughts would be appreciated. Thank you for your time.
Oh, and the cause of the conundrum is that I'm gay and in a 20+ year relationship that will last until death.
2007-12-09 14:58:49 · 8 answers · asked by Anonymous in Society & Culture ➔ Cultures & Groups ➔ Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender
Your faith has not abandoned you, and the words of others should not cause you to abandon your faith.
Although some will say that their own interpretations and beliefs are the one and only path to follow, it is not the words of others that should guide you. The words of others should only reinforce your existing beliefs and not cause you to question your faith. If the words of others are not helpful, they should not be words to live by.
Sola fide
2007-12-09 15:22:19 · answer #1 · answered by χριστοφορος ▽ 7 · 3⤊ 0⤋
All the churches and all the religions ; doesn't matter which one tried to control their sheep's and they succeed really well until the 80 s. But for the last 28 yrs they lost many feather People now understand that they had been abused by the power of churches in the name of God Your faith never abandoned you . You are just expressing your faith in a different way and i am sure its O K with God Between you and me who do you think will meet us when we will cross over / Nobody else than God And I am sure He will have a Very different view for us than our churches I wishe you Peace and love
2007-12-09 23:27:59 · answer #2 · answered by lala 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
It's really hard when we're brought up in faith to accept that our faith community isn't there for us once we've moved on and matured - whether that includes a move away from the faith (as it has for me) or becoming more of oneself (as it sounds like you've done). That feeling of abandonment is literally awesome, in its original, and negative context.
I myself feel abandoned by my faith, because my questions could not be answered by those to whom I looked. I'd been raised Christian fundamentalist and thought I would be that way until my death, at one point. The problem is, that there are so many questions which cannot be answered merely by looking to the Bible for answers - such as: what about gay people - doesn't god love them too? I know that the gay people I've known are among the most beautiful people I've known - how could god not love them? How could any faith I wanted to be a part of not accept and love them as I do? That this question, among others, could not be answered in a satisfactory way led me to abandon all faith and accept that humankind is my god - not that I worship every person I meet, but rather that I accept that every person I meet may have something to offer me which is related to divinity.
2007-12-09 23:09:52 · answer #3 · answered by chick2lit 5 · 4⤊ 1⤋
Brother, religious guilt is a heavy burden to carry. You cannot allow the words or priests or rabbis to sway the path your heart demands you take. Just cast the chains away or demand God talk to you face-to-face. Otherwise, just love and live and let your heart lead you, and listen to nothing else, especially voices of the past. You are a good guy. I trust your heart more than any priest or rabbi, just from having read your words.
2007-12-09 23:05:42 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 1⤋
I'm not sure what Jewish denomination you are, but Reform, Reconstructionist, and many Conservative synagogues welcome gay people. At my (Reform) synagogue, the song leader is a lesbian, and the rabbi has officiated at many gay marriages. If you are still interested in Judaism at this point in your life, try looking for a welcoming synagogue - there are a lot out there!
2007-12-10 00:05:54 · answer #5 · answered by ThumbPrints 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
There's a very good documentary out there titled "Trembling before G-d" about homosexual orthodox Jews trying to reconcile both parts of themselves; keep your eye out for it.
2007-12-09 23:09:15 · answer #6 · answered by wildheavenfarm 3 · 3⤊ 1⤋
The only thing God is going to judge you on is how much you love and believe in him.
2007-12-09 23:04:28 · answer #7 · answered by gabriel l 6 · 2⤊ 1⤋
sorry I am not jew.. so I dont understand about jewish conception of homosexuality.. but I know the Christian Bible told us we have to love our enemies.. and to love our brothers and sisters... you have to put your faith in God even they dont accept you..remember the real homosexuals dont exist in the Bible.. they are not talking about love.. homosexuality represents to love a person from your gender..
2007-12-09 23:03:09 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 2⤋