I'm sitting here this morning and I'm just feeling profoundly sad. I've got a lot of health issues facing me right now. Serious ones. I've been diagnosed with a precancerous condition of the uterus and the Dr wants to do a Hysterectomy. I've also been diagnosed with C.O. P. D. and I've had trouble breathing all year long: I cannot walk across the room w/o getting out of breath. I don't have a wheelchair or oxygen tank.... It makes going places and doing things really, really hard. I frequently find myself in a great deal of pain or unable to breath. Oh yeah, over the past year I gained another 75 lbs. My thyroid meds weren't working right..... And they recently found a brain tumor. I'm taking a meds for it now. It seems to be working so far. But I still might have to have surgery to get it out. Don't know if it's cancer or not.... I've also got a cyst (pilinidal) that was recently worked on. THe surgery didn't really work and I had a flare up over the past few days.
2007-12-08 23:48:38 · 6 answers · asked by Brenda 6 in Health ➔ Women's Health
I'm also having problems with my colon.... There appears to be some polyps inside and I've seen blood & tissue coming out again (happened this summer, too). I'm fearing colon cancer (one grandparent had it). I just don't know.... I'm scared. I worried. But I'm tired, too. It's just all too much to take at one time... I think.
Anyway, I feel more and more tired as time goes by. Especially when I don't seem to be getting any support from my immediate family. My daughter and her slacker boyfriend, especially. I'm just so tired of trying to hold everything together and trying to take care of everyone else's wants and needs.
I feel lost and all I can think about this morning, is this: Is it wrong for me to just give up and not fight for my life? I do not feel wanted, or loved, or apreciated. "My thunder has been stolen..." And a part of me just wants to go home....where ever that may be. I know that I'm babbling on and I'm sorry.. I just wish things were differant.
2007-12-09 00:03:10 · update #1
Not today.... But I will. Truthfully, I need to make myself lay down and try to get some rest. I'll only sleep for 2 to 3 hours before I'm up again. Prayer sounds like a good thing right now.... Laughter does too. I wish someone could make me laugh right now. I'd love to see the ridiculous of my situation, you know? I mean really, it gives new meaning to the phrase "when it rains, it pours" to me.
Thanks for responding.....
2007-12-09 00:09:40 · update #2
Thank you to all who have answered.....
2007-12-09 00:51:39 · update #3
Well.... I finally had a good cry. I guess I needed it. I do feel a little bit better. Especially with all of the positive vibs my YA friends are sending to me. I did another question and challenged people to get me laughing. It worked! After laughing for a few minutes I started to feel a better. I just wanted to pop in here and say thanks to all who listened to this big old cry baby! HUGS, Brenda
2007-12-09 01:44:54 · update #4
It seems life has given you a struggle.
Your profile said you studied writing, do that while fighting to preserve yourself, and quit worrying about all the others who are capable of doing for themselves.
A day of life is still a day,
For doing what you will.
A writer is your choice to be,
And you can do it still.
Your husband fought in Vietnam,
And paid an awful price.
You've cared for him for all these years,
That is some sacrifice.
It's now your turn to get some care,
And get your body well.
And come back here and let us know,
That you are doing swell.
not much, but I hope it will make you feel a little better.
I send to you all the love I can squeeze into this keyboard, in hopes that your family will support you in you time of need. Feel free to email me if you need a strong young shoulder to lean on and talk to. I don't know you, but I do care. My sister gave up, and I don't want to see anyone else do the same.
I really do wish these people would stop pushing their own cultish denominations at us all the time. JW is no better than any other, and according to my Bible, they have some really weird man made doctrines. Not God's word.
2007-12-09 00:25:50 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 3⤊ 0⤋
I see a lot of people respond positively to you. You take yourself away and there will be a lot of people that you will rob. You do have a lot of things going on but I'm telling you, I have issues too and I have basically told myself that one day it will be over. Be strong girl and know that you can do this too! Think positively and remember you have family here on Y!A.
2007-12-09 01:38:08 · answer #2 · answered by ShrunkenFro™ 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
all i can say to you right now Miss brenda is keep ur head up baby and bless you! u can talk to me about any type of craziness if you feel the need i will make u bust a gut for sure! Especially when u hear how similar our situations are! keep ur head up momma!
2007-12-09 00:40:14 · answer #3 · answered by Yanni 5 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Don't give up. Never give up on your life. Take care of yourself now and don't worry about others. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
2007-12-09 01:12:05 · answer #4 · answered by Turtle 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Don't give up... You should study the Bible with a Jehovah's Witness.
2007-12-09 00:04:26 · answer #5 · answered by jeremeae 2 · 0⤊ 2⤋
Do you pray? Because you need too....
2007-12-08 23:54:53 · answer #6 · answered by oldbabe 1 · 1⤊ 0⤋