Voting was rigged ,but I poured my heart and soul into that competion, how can I stop feeling hurt &BETRAYEd?

Question

the people that helped my rival win were acadamic members, I feel lost

Answer 1

Take a deep breath, get a good night sleep, then instead of accusing them of cheating, try and find out what were the flaws in your performance so you can fix them (ask other participants, coaches, observers - and the judges if they will tell you). When judging is subjective, you have to do what the judges are wanting to see.