Hi, this is so bad?

Question

So, the last day before Thanksgiving Break was Tuesday, November 20. On Friday, November 16, I left for a wedding (just me and my mom)--and did not return until the night of Monday, November 19. Today is December 7, and things are ah just so bad. I remember being concentrated and focus towards school right before leaving for the wedding but, somehow that changed afterwards. It was a family wedding, and I didn't know anyone there. I haven't met these people before, even though they were family. My cousins were my mom's cousin's nieces and nephews. I talked to them, but there wasn't much to say...just questions like how many siblings you have, you know. Fast-forward to the wedding when people were dancing:

I remember wondering how they are having fun, enjoying themselves. I dunno anymore. I mean its like when you look out at the world and finally realize what you see, it's hard because--how can my soul rest, how can I enjoy, how can I anything, you know?
I’m 17 and in high school, and this sucks. I know this might be surprising coming from a 17 year old, but do take in mind that I am an old soul + an experience this summer made me matured a lot. This combined with the nature of my personality, which is calm and reserved, makes it difficult to know what to say anymore even with my own mother. She’s is somewhat worried, which is not something that I want, because I’ve seemed non-responsive towards her lately. But I don’t know what to do. I need someone to help me, but I don’t know who.

I’m seeing the sudden lack of motivation that has been continuing for the last week or two. It’s not that I am lazy, but nothing is driving me anymore. I try to make myself do my homework, but I’m not fully there or concentrated…merely doing my homework, if I can get myself to half focus on it, as if I am a robot or something. It feels like detachment from myself or something, I dunno. My focus has seemed to just disappear. There is a parable about a donkey that fell in a well, and farmers were shoving dirt at him…because he was old and useless, so why get him out. The donkey he kept climbing and climbing as dirt is being shoved at him, and before long he was up and over the well—and then he ran off.

I’m not exactly sure why I thought of this parable. I know that you might not understand everything I’ve said so far, but I sure could use some guidance.

Ah, I laugh'd at myself. Suddenly my problem has seem to disappear, or rather things are becoming more clear. All of your answers has helped me see things in retrospect. I think there was a bit of self-denial or thinking too much, trying to analyze what is occuring internally--which is quite difficult to do when you don't know why or where it stemed from exactly. Ah, tis the curse of the thinkers. Quite humorous if you think about it.

Answer 1

One of the first things I think of when I read this is don't push yourself to grow up too fast because when you are all grown up you will want to be young again. (maybe this doesn't apply to you as much as it does me:) I'm a only a few years older but I can understand your feelings.
Find the Gap:
There is a place in between thought.(also reached through meditation) Just relax your worries and frustrations about not being focused and it will all come back to you with time think about a peaceful place and focus on that and nothing else for a few moments. Take some time for yourself to do something you enjoy. Old souls are blessed with wisdom but we can be stubborn to ourselves. Hope this helps;)
P.S. Don"t ever give up things will pull through. Your a tough cookie this is just one of life's challenges. Keep writing your thoughts and being expressive (keep a journal) That is my sanity when I'm feeling alone or even when I'm not.

Answer 2

Here's some guidance:

1. Go to school. In the course of the day you will notice that you have a class called "English" or "language arts," or something of that order.

2. Pay CAREFUL ATTENTION. You may have to go several days in a row.

3. At some point the teacher may give some sort of instruction on how to construct a story or narrative. There will be wild and interesting lessons on such subjects as "sentence construction," "topic sentences," "how to write a paragraph," and "cohesive writing."

4. Go home and PRACTICE what you have learned.

5. Come back to Yahoo! Canada Answers and construct a question with a story that people can understand.

It will be fun and educational.

Good luck!

Answer 3

You are describing a textbook case of seasonal effective disorder.

Seasonal affective disorder, also known as winter depression, is an affective, or mood, disorder. Most SAD sufferers experience normal mental health throughout most of the year, but experience depressive symptoms in the winter or summer. The condition in the summer is often referred to as Reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder.

Google it and you will get a lot of info.

I get it too, so I know how awful it can make you feel.

Love and blessings Don

Answer 4

It seems you are in a bad situation. I believe you must look for someone whom you could confide your problem. This is really a big problem on your part. You must learn to focus again and concentrate on your studies. Talk to God and ask for Divine Intervention. Ask His Holy Spirit to enter your good soul. There is a lot in stored for you.However, it is still best for you to talk to your Mom. Mom knows best for their children. Am sure she will listen intently as long as you must just to be true to yourself. Good luck!

Thanks for asking. Have a great day!

Answer 5

Snap out of it. You're 17, this is normal! You seem very composed otherwise. Find something you enjoy. Try yoga. Don't veer off your path in life. Stay in school and study hard. Good luck.

Answer 6

Its almost the end of the year , its probably just burn-out from a long tiring year that is affecting your concentration, etc, the best advise is to speak to your mum and tell her how you are feeling , tell her what you wrote here, you can also speak to your scool counsellor or spiritual leader , they will be able to advise you...
All the best..

Answer 7

Tiffany

you are a brilliant girl. can your questions be short in future. it is just a suggestion of a friend.

Answer 8

Letting-go is always much easier than hanging on..
When ALL is let-go we are free to just BE!
Peace and Blessings.....

Answer 9

you have me totaly confused..wtf are you smoking...