I'm insecure, paranoid, self-conscious and have the lowest self esteem for myself?

Question

I should be happy. I have a girlfriend, do well in school, and my family cares about me. My life is just horrible. I'm so negative about myself and I do not like anything about me. I don't believe in myself and I get so paranoid that my girlfriend doesn't like me anymore and I get insecure when she mentions her ex boyfriends and I absolutely hate my life. I don't know what to do. I'm too scared too talk to a councelour in person. I don't know what to do. I don't even want to be alive right now.

Answer 1

If you won't talk to some one. Start writing things down. That helps. If your scared to talk to a councelour. Talk to a friend or you could always talk to a councelour and just talk to them about the good things in your life. If you can't think of any then you have to find some. They are there. Believe me I'm in the same boat. If you want to die or commit suicide then tell your girlfriend at least. She'll be there for you. She'll want to make you promise to stay alive and that promise could save your life. It did for me. Just know your not alone and it will get better. Just trust yourself. The minute you doubt your confidence is the minute you head down hill. So don't even go there. You can do more for yourself. There is never going to be a time when you don't have a better option. Just trust yourself. Good luck.

Answer 2

You sound terribly depressed, and it doesn't seem like you have any real reason to be, does it? This is a classic example of clinical depression.

Please, do not commit suicide. I don't know how suicidal you are, but it's not the answer. I've been there and done that. You probably need to be on some sort of perscription anti-depressents. These medications can be recemmended be professional doctors who also specialize as councelours and psyciatrists. I have struggled with your situation and have battled depression as well. I know it is extremely tough to bear, but I'm still alive to this day and I think I'm making progress.

I would highly recemmend that you seek help from a psycologist and possibly start taking some anti-depressents or whatever your doctors prescribe for you. I visit a councelor every month and take medication for my condition. It's not a big deal and you have no reason to be ashamed because you feel the way you do. There are millions out there in this world who are just like you and they can all be helped, including you. You are not alone.

If you need somebody to talk to, feel free to IM me or send me an email. I'll give you all the advice I can.

Answer 3

It's normal to feel this way. Everyone judges their self harshly, but it shouldn't get in the way of your life. When you're with your friends that should accept you and you should feel that they do as well. You definitely need to dump that girl and find yourself a new because she obviously doesn't care, though it may be hard to hear. Find yourself a new girl! It seems that this is a bit more serious than just that. You sound like you're deep in depression and for that you do need to see someone. It doesn't have to be a counselor, but that would be the best choice. Don't you trust at least one of your friends to talk about this kind of stuff with? Ignore the negative feelings and write the positive of them and whenever you feel down look at them and read them softly to yourself. Say it like you mean. Eventually, you will start to believe it. When people see that you're happier they'll start to see the positive things that you most likely hide from them. Life is hard, but nothing will last forever. Although, if you are in depression it may seem like forever and it's even more serious than seeing a counselor. A doctor has medicine that can ease negative thoughts away and that is what you seem to need.

Answer 4

Blake, You are human, your just as good as anyone else. Everybody has times when they feel really bad. Life gets better. If you will look at the good things, it helps. you have a lot as you said, I say to live for. If your life is horrible you need to learn to meditate or if you believe in God seek him. I personally prefer to use this brain he gave to me. I can find a lot of answers in a good 5 minute meditation and it is lasting afterwords. Be careful with meds I have lost a sister and a husband over those meds, once your on them, your pretty much stuck.Society will insist you stay on them, Getting off of them is the "killer" I also remember when I was younger, I would run. Not away just get the adrenaline flowing. That worked til I had babies and couldn't get away.

Answer 5

First of all, I'll guess you are a teenager. Please understand that every teenagers go through a lot of hormonal turmoil in one way or another. So don't feel that you are the ONLY person going through these feelings. TIME will heal many of your dilemas and that is called: Maturing.
In order to feel better about yourself right now, I suggest you call some charity and offer your services,,or find out if a neighbor is in need of some help you could do--mow the lawn, carry packages, or sit with them and listen to their life stories. Thinking of others and doing something for them, will give you more confidence and some sort of magic will make YOU feel good inside.
You will become a person that is a joy to know!!!

Answer 6

dont be so down on yourself! i know how it feels, i have a awesome boyfriend who loves me very much i have a nice appartment a good job and really close friends but when i was younger i suffered from mental abuise from my dad. he would tell me things like im never going to be good at anything im not going to graduate with my friends and im going to be fat just like my grandma and it didnt hurt much then but now i feel the sideeffects of it. You do want to be alive because someone thinks that you have the right to be here. Maybe you should talk to your girlfriend and see how she feels about the way you treat yourself. you need to understand that your life is not as horrible as you think it is. if you want to talk to someone i am here message me or send me an e-mail and we can chat see if i can help you i may not be a councelor but i do know how your feeling

Answer 7

Well start thinking about the positive things about yourself.
If your a teen, its very common to feel like this. I did in all of middle school (except i didnt have a boyfriend)
Be cocky for a while and start thinking your all that even if you dont think you are. It may seem wrong, but start comparing yourself to others in a good way. For example, look at how high your grades are than someone elses. Another example, when your gf talks about her ex's think about how she's no longer with -them- and how shes with -you- (and shes with you for a reason that you probably dont know yet)

Basically, change things to make yourself happier :)

Answer 8

First and above all you are the only person that can change yourself..you are capable of doing this!!!..NEVER let others rule your self thoughts least of all the people you care the most for...YOU are as important and worthy as every other person on earth...STOP thinking your not...each human is a treasure and above all a gift to YOURSELF...remember that and you can achieve ALL...please know people care..I do or I would not have taken these few minutes to answer your question.

Answer 9

I suggest that you go see a counselor, because if you don't know what is making you feel down, then maybe a counselor might help you find out. And if you don't tell anybody about how you're feeling right now, then maybe all those negative feelings will get to you, and you might get hurt or dead! And don't worry about your gf, maybe she's still sad about breaking up with her bf, but if you start acting all protective of her and asking her questions, then she'll get mad and break up with you.

Answer 10

This is just me but I think when you said "should" you were tipping me off that you are living by somebody elses standards and not your own. When I do that I get real unhappy, and then when I back off for awhile and live by my own rules I start getting happy again. But this is not to mean that you are free to break the law or maybe even be rude to people, just figure out how to live your own life. Go inside, meditate, that is where your answers are.