What does this sound like to anyone who knows some psychology?

Question

I had OCD symptoms since young and abused Marijuana and LSD as a teen. This first appeared after a bad LSD experience when I freaked out after thinking I had fried my brain while coming down. I tripped after a severe emotional trauma. I am not even sure if drugs did it, though. I always feel a little anxious and depressed. Not severe though. I also feel like I am the only entity in the universe, like God, and everyone and everything is just part of my imagination, even the people I love. I am not sure if I am real or just some fragment of existence. It's like being in some Hell where you are stuck in a fishbowl and nothing else in the universe exists except you and your mind. I also am afraid of death as a pure nothingness. I just can't fathom it. My mind just feels like a kaliedescope of thoughts, colors and images without a spirit. Everything seems devoid of life. Like a cartoonish unreality.
As crazy as this sounds, I behave perfectly normal and think rationally.

Answer 1

Call 911

Answer 2

Aside from abstaing from further drug use, I'd recommend seeking help. As far as the degree of your illness, I'd say you think too much. In regards to YOU being the only entity in the universe, that is as far fetched as they come. Drugs are no way to deal with any problem. In a spiritual sense, marijuana has good points as well as bad. LSD has many rumors surounding it...Such as a drug addicts favorite, that Psychologists say it is healthy as well as helpful to broaden your mindset. IT"S MADE FROM RAT POISON! In conclusion, your statements prove that you do NOT think rationally and I'd venture to bet that your behavior is anything but normal.

Answer 3

It sounds to me like you are stressed out, lonely, and afraid. I don't think any of this is from past LSD or MJ use. I don't think it's all that abnormal either. The best thing you can do is talk to other people about it (friends and family) and you will see that a lot of us go through these same feelings every now and then. :)

Answer 4

Control theory implies an active role, or responsibility towards ones behavior
all behavior is made up of three components: what we do, what we think, and what we feel. all behavior is an attempt to satisfy powerful forces within ourselves. regardless of our circumstances, all we do, think, and feel is always or best attempt at the time to satisfy the forces within us.
Sometimes this behavior may be ineffective or even destructive. For example, psychosomatic Illness, drug addiction, and other radical behaviors as an individuals struggling to gain control of their lives in the best way they know how. Conversely, why some people give up when feeling they have lost control. This ineffective behavior may persists even when other options later become available.
Others may choose depressing or anxieting, or perhaps the act of headaching or phobicking may make more sense to them. feelings are better expressed as verbs. Adjectives such as depressed and anxious or nouns such as headache or phobia suggest a passive role. express the importance of this sort of language. By using the right language carefully we may emphasis our control over everyday situations.
By accept misery is a choice, you will find better choices to replace it. We almost always have choices, and the better the choice, the more we will be in control of our lives. This includes choices of not only how to act but how we feel as well. How we feel is not controlled by others or events, unless we choose to allow it to. we sometimes feel we've lost control of their lives or we feel we're in a hopeless situation. Even in these situations, most people maintain that we can choose to feel miserable or we can learn to make better choices that are available to us. Even for those of us who may not be in such a desperate situation, taking control of our lives is more likely when understanding control theory. By putting control theory to work in our lives, we will spend our energy attacking the problem rather than blaming it. take the time to figure out flexible and creative behaviors that may be more effective in our lives.

Answer 5

The kaleidoscope of thoughts, colours and images is not uncommon with people who have your background. If you feel bothered by the way you feel and think you need to/want to change something, go see a professional about it.

We´re no hocus-pocus people and you don´t have to be a freak to go see someone, whoever you go see will take you seriously (unless you´re kidding). What you need (and seem to lack) is the famous thread to weave through your life and it sounds as if you could need somebody to help you find it, hopefully by yourself. :)

Answer 6

If you do seek out a psychologist, he'll probably give you some insight - but it'll be nothing he hasn't heard before.

Answer 7

See a psychiatrist tomorrow. You are very, very ill. See this website: www.nami.org and they can find a dr for you and help you find a way to pay for it, and you can talk to others about your illness. It's a great resource.

TOMORROW
TX Mom

Answer 8

you might want to get a psych eval before you hurt someone. such delusional thoughts are dangerous and you can't control them by yourself. just two things that involve delusions are bipolar disorder and schizophrenia