help, i feel so ashamed...? and it just makes everything worse...:(?

Question

Help i don't know what to do?
i feel so sad alone and empty i think i might be depressed i seem to have the symptoms
but i'm so scared to tell anyone cuz people will think im dumb cuz alot of people have so many worse problems like we're learning about the holocaust in history and it just makes me feel worse about myself that im depressed and stuff when they really had a reason but that just makes me feel stupid and even more depressed...but i can't help the feelings...

is this a form of self harm? i seem to get almost constant urges to poke myself with needles

how do i tell someone...i can't...i've never been able to open up about anything even when i was happy...i'm just so used to keeping all my emotions inside and hiding them all the time from everyone...i don't know what to do...

Answer 1

Its a good idea to talk to someone about your feelings and try and identify the root cause of your depression. It sounds like you have feelings of inadequacy and insecurities to go with the depression. There is usually a root cause of these feelings, and a trained therapist might be able to help you resolve them. If you can't afford a therapist, then maybe try some very wise person who is willing to help. You are not stupid and what you are feeling is more common than you think. It is important to talk about it and try and resolve these feelings. Don't live a life feeling bad, there is so much more that life offers to feel bad. Love, Steve

Answer 2

Call a helpline right away and then as soon as you possibly can, talk to a doctor. If you don't think you will be able to talk about it when you get into the office, have it written down before your appointment so if you are too uncomfortable you can hand over the piece of paper. Another thing you could try is to say something when you make the appt. Since it would be over the phone (most likely) you might have an easier time saying something and then it will be written down so your doctor will be the one to start the conversation. I am so tired and was just about to fall asleep but I have to respond to you. There is so much I can tell you but I will have to write again when I am a little more awake. First, yes, there is a reasonably good chance you are depressed and poking may be the beginning of a self-harm behaviour, or it could be a couple of other things. Most importantly, clinical depression really has very little to do with being sad or disappointed with the way things are going in our lives. Clinical depression can affect people who have "everything going for them" because it is a chemical malfunction in the brain. (Many people like to use the term chemical imbalance but if you understand the science it is not necessarily an imbalance) I am sorry -- I must sleep but I promise I will write more tomorrow.

Answer 3

I was in your situation about 4 years ago. I was depressed, suicidal, and felt I could tell no one. Eventually I got up the nerve to tell my parents and with a combo of meds and therapy, I'm fine today. You really need to tell someone before you do something you regret. I found out that I'm bipolar and now my moods are under control. By the way, when I was a kid I pricked my fingers with needles all the time... It's painful. Don't do it. It's a temporary emotional pain relief and that's it. Please talk to someone.

Answer 4

Go to a counselor now!!!!
Call a crisis hot line now!!!

1-800-784-2433 or 1-800-273-8255

Answer 5

You cant do this to yourself life is too good just see a psychiatrist and everything will be fine. Goodluck!

Answer 6

Ugh...I am going through the same thing. I need advice too! Good luck though.

Answer 7

trust me, i went through the same thing. it was very hard from getting through it all. mine ended monthes ago but i still have to recover.