I think I am suffering from depression, my head is heavy and I cannot study. I think it is cause I am gay,help

Question

I am a 20 old kenyan male uniersity student. I do commerce and in my first semester. I cannot study and now I think I have to drop out and commit suicide. Being queer is hard here. It should not disturb me but it is, I don't know why. I have tried to commit suicide before by drugging myself and putting a charcoal burner in my room(you die in your sleep) but the room was too big to die.We are poor and my only solution may be to study abroad. If someone knows a good way for suicide tell me if you cannot help.

Answer 1

First of all sweet, you have to change your whole outlook on this situation. You are young, you have the whole of your life in front of you, you are intelligent, you have so much to live for. Stop concentrating on all the bad things, and look forward to the good things that life has to offer once you get your qualifications. You will have great, good and bad relationships, you will have great, good and bad days, but the main thing is, you have plenty of them! Try to put yourself in the shoes of someone who has been told they only have six months to live. How precious would your life seem to them? Try to live each day as if you were dieing, rather than looking for reasons to want to die. Life is a wonderfull thing when you just know how to see it.

Answer 2

Friend, please know this... suicide is NOT the answer. Suicide will only hurt your friends and family, and will not solve your problems. The fact that you are posting this question here only reinforces the fact that you do not WANT to end it all... plus, if you survive through this and prove to yourself how strong a person you really are, it will only make you feel better about yourself.

That being said, I have no idea what life is like in Kenya, especially for a gay man. However, if you have the opportunity to study abroad, you should grab that chance with both hands. You need to see that there are places in this world where gay people live, normal, fulfilling lives. Also, you need to see that homosexuals are not sick, not abnormal, and not as scarce as you probably think they are.

Go to study in the USA, in San Francisco or maybe in Boston or New Haven. Or even in London. If you were contemplating taking your life, why not take the bigger chance and expand your horizons and see what the world has to offer. Meet people, talk to them... find that there are probably thousands of men who have felt as badly as you do, and hear how they have made it through the tough times.

Good luck to you... I would love to get a mesage from you to see if this advice halped!

(Also, visit http://www.gaykenya.com/ ... there may be some resources there who can help!)

Answer 3

You need to get some real help, not just ask a bunch of strangers online, some of whom will just be nasty about it.

Are you studying in Kenya? Because then I could understand that being gay is hard there. But if you're abroad, presumably in America, it should be much easier. So I don't know, need more details about that I guess.

And I am of the opinion that if you're going to committ suicide, you don't sit there talking about it with people online, you just do it. In fact, you don't really talk to anyone, you ask for help. Alright, you are doing that, but I'm sorry to say that I feel you're looking in the wrong places.

Please, do get some genuine help. At the age of 20, you've got your whole life ahead of you. It is NOT that hard to be gay, even if you are in the closet, or single. It's who you are. Just please try to accept that and be proud.

Answer 4

Killing yourself over being gay is ridiculous. Come to Europe or America. You have nothing to be ashamed off. Get out of that place. Come to where you will be able to love whoever you want. Think of all the great love and sex you will be missing if you kill yourself. Don't kill yourself. Life is good. You just need to change countries. Killing yourself is absoultely the total wrong thing to do. 20 years old is just starting life.

Answer 5

Homosexuality and depression go hand in hand. Seek a doctor to treat your depression, confide in a minister to help you get over these ill feelings.

Soon you'll be out of your funk and back on the right path for your life.

Always remember that you can change your life to be and do anything you chose to do if that's where you set your mind.

Answer 6

The room is too big to die. have you realy said that to yourself without realising that your not meant to die!
I have thought of killing myself alot before, never took action but i know now that problems must by solved while your alive ( while you can)
if your problem is to be gay, then figure out how did you reach here, there was a bigger issue you are missing here!
sometimes life seems too complix to live but after death we'll have to face what we missed.

Answer 7

why would you want to kill yourself for its not worth it.I mean yeah you get away from the pain and suffering but you dont know who your hurting the most like your family,friends and so on.If its bothering you that much try to seek help or talk to a friend or you can talk to me.All i can tell you is its not worth dying for just accept the fact your gay and try to move on.