I FEEL VERY SUICIDAL RIGHT NOW, i just want some love and support please, i have nowhere else to turn now?

Question

first of all i am not a wimp. im just down because i have just lost my grandma and i dont have support from anybody. i feel i look terrible. do you think i look terrible? anyway thats not even important

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people on here have said some really horrible things to me. why do you want to vent your hatred onto me when i did you no wrong? i love playing music (guitar and vocals) and i need to be able to do that but this is just bringing me down. i was recently rejected by a girl so that has also contributed to my depression. i tried praying to jesus. please i wish anyone out there can just show they care. i need your support

Answer 1

omg!...im soo sorry,i can imagine how you feel right now,im really close to my grandma too...also,i know what youre dealin with on fb...thats happened to me too,and what i like to do is just ignore all networking websites for a while...just calm down,get a hobby,draw...and breathh...just remember,you can survive this depression and youre gonna be stronger than ever afterwards,and youre gonna prove everyone wrong and work even harder for your dreams to come true to prove them wrong and make your grandma proud....no,you dont look bad,but its not all about looks,even if it might seem like it..i think you should focus more on your confidence and your personality/attitude just believe in yourself,and youll make it farther than the eye can see....i care!!...dont do it!!

Answer 2

The loss of a close family member is devastating to us all, no matter our age. Don't think you're any different. Try to talk to a family member or a counsellor or teacher from school - someone you respect. You'll learn that you aren't alone.

You look like a handsome boy, and I'm sure you will grow up to be a handsome young man. That being said, you might want to avoid getting involved with a girl anytime soon; they can complicate a guy's life at the best of times, believe me!!! Wait until your head is on straight before taking that on. A girl likes quiet self-confidence, and you need some serious confidence-building. All that will take time - more time than you think. Ignore the bullies and the taunters; because they are insecure little wimps inside they need to have power over someone else in order to overcome their own insecurities. The worst thing you can do to get back at them is to deny them what they need the most - your attention. Be friendly and positive, kind and supportive to others and you'll find friends you thought you never had.

Play your music - with friends whenever possible. Pray when you feel the need. But don't EVER give up.

Answer 3

I wish i could be with you right now, but this will have to do. You probably won't want to read a long passage, so i'll keep this short. I want to suggest that you might want to try thinking about this: it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you that you feel this way, just that you are suffering more than you can right this moment handle. I hope there are times you can think back on which were good and that you can draw strength from them to get through what's going on right now, and that you believe there is something to look forward to. All you have to do is hang on and things will get better and you will be happy again.

People do get past this. Most people who have said the kind of things you have just told us get to a point where it gets better for them, and you have already read this far, so you have got pretty far already. You need to be alive to feel better. If you died, you wouldn't feel better, so it isn't an answer for you.

Here is an email address you could use:

[e-mail]

I'm happy you've got this far.

A lot of people want to help. If there's a phonebook near you, there may be a number you can get help on. You need to hear someone's voice and have a proper conversation, and people do want to hear from you right now. They know you are there and are in a lot of pain.

You don't look terrible.
The horrible things people say on here - they've never met you, they don't know you and they are just words on a screen. I'm sorry about the girl and your grandma. It doesn't mean there won't be happy times with other people in the future, maybe just around the corner, tomorrow or today.

Everyone is worthy of love, including you.

It's great that you've got this far. I think it would help if you picked up the 'phone and called someone right now.

Answer 4

What would your grandmother say to you right now? She is watching you and has no way of communicating with you to tell you how sad she is that you are feeling her death is a reason to kill yourself. Your grandmother loves you very much and didnt say to you "when I die I want you to come with me." She lived a long life and wants the same for you.

Think of all the things she said to you about being strong, not letting others get you down and to do your best and be the best you can be. She would want you to have a good life and make her proud.

As for the people saying mean things, they dont know, you they dont care about you, they arent thinking of you as the person you are, or whether you are a good person or a bad person - they arent thinking about YOU at all.

You are just an anonymous name on the internet. What they say cannot diminish you or take away from you the person you are - This is THEIR problem, not yours.

You are a handsome young man. Change your settings to private on facebook until they find another victim and leave you alone.

These are deeply troubled people and as long as you play along with them they will continue to torment you.

You are so young, you will have dozens of loves and "broken hearts" because this is what life is all about - life isnt easy for anyone. DONT let others have such a big influence on how you feel about yourself.

Answer 5

If you want to feel bad about yourself that is your choice, but do not let other people make you feel that way. It is not their place. Eleanor Roosevelt once said that, "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." That statement is very true. No one can. The fact that you feel bad about yourself lets others know what your weaknesses are. If you start to focus on the good things in your life you will be more happy. I know that losing a loved one is hard because I just recently lost my mother, who was also my best friend. There have been plenty of situations that I have been in that I felt I needed her advice since she passed. But I had to learn to grow on my own. That is what you need to do. Don't let anyone tell you who you need to be because that is something that you have to find out on your own. Oh, and by the way... I think that you are very cute. So what... One stupid girl didn't like you. Oh, well. There are plenty of girls who would want to be with you. If you think that I have all of this knowledge because I am old or something, guess again. I am 18. I hope my advice helped you.

Answer 6

Im not saying this just because of what you typed and cause your on the edge...but you are very attractive and that girl that rejected you must be crazy.

Death is a natural thing and soon or later sorry to tell you but everyone is going to go. Keep your grandmother in your prayers and one day she'll respond to it. Im sure shes watching down on you now. And just think about it...shes in a much better place and not suffering.

Don't do anything to yourself...think about it...would you grandmother want you too? I highly doubt it.

Keep up the music i wish i knew how to play any instrument. I tired before didn't go to well. I would like to think im a good singer...but I have my bad days ahaha. Maybe you can post a personal song on here and i'll be more then glad to listen to it.

PLEASE don't do anything to yourself. You seem like a cool guy. And im sure there is that perfect girl for you and you two will find eachother soon or later.

Answer 7

Hey Dave,

They say that courage is not bravery, but rather doing the right thing when you are terrified. By that standard, your pretty courageous in posting here and opening up. Give yourself some credit for that.

Also, I am sorry you feel so down for the things that happened, especially the loss of your grandmother.

Dave Im kinda older, and this is a lesson that I truly believe. People follow those who lead. Those who lead are not the smarter, but are rather not afraid to be wrong and face the consequences of making a decision.

Maybe the girl that rejected you sensed some self questioning that you have in you and didnt want any part of it. I doubt its cause of your looks.

But in all honesty, you cannot allow the things that happen around you to cause you to question who YOU are. Things are going to happen that will depress you and break your stride, no question. But you have to know who you are, and not be afraid to bare it in front of people.

By consequence, alot of people are going to reject you, and hey, thats fine. Those are not the kinds of people you even want to know. If they reject you on something shallow and dont even get to know you, thats a hell of a qualifier that they arent worth your time.

But once they see you dont give a f*ck what they think, and laugh at them laughing at you, they will wonder if they judged you wrong. People live for confidence, because they have none of their own, they latch onto it in other people. If you are confident and unafraid to be wrong, or a fool, then others will follow you. Then when the ones that judged you wrong come back around to you, laugh back at em.

Just ride it out Dave, its gonna get better.

[e-mail] if you need to talk. Take care bud. And keep your head up.

Answer 8

Hey Dave. If you want to off yourself, go ahead, but no-one here would ever find out, and the only people that would know are your family and RL friends. Would probably make them feel a bit crap, which is kind of horrible towards them.
I dont think praying to jesus is gonna help you, think logically, dont start believing in that bs. Realistically, you have some talents and things to offer, just focus on those, and things will eventually turn around. You'll be pretty happy with yourself that you did and will look back on it later with some relief.

GL, HF :D

Answer 9

First of all, this is probably not the best place to look for support. There are a fair number of twits and wiseguys who might say anything just for the fun of it.

It is not unusual to feel down when you lose a loved one. Rejection also hurts. You are young, and have your whole life in front of you. I am assuming you have a problem discussing your depression with your parents. You might find them surprisingly understanding, they have lost loved ones, too. You mentioned prayer, your pastor or rabbi may bean understanding resource. Other than that, you may have a counselor at school that you can talk to. Grieving is a well-defined process, you can get through it.

Answer 10

Dave,

Everyone goes through periods of life that may seem that you can't turn to anyone. We all have had our share of pain. I personally have never lost a family member so I can't really offer anything then my condolences. You have to ask yourself something though. If you only find bad things going on then why don't you try looking for good. We all have a control in our life and somethings just don't turn out the way we want. Tomorrow, wake up and realize that there are people out there that do care. Take your life and live. Best of luck and God bless.

Answer 11

It's going to be OK. But you have to be careful about who you ask for support. You need to go to people you trust. Even though you might not be a member of a church, get out the yellow pages and find a church. Go talk to the minister there. He will help you through this crisis. You don't even have to be of the same faith.

Just remember the good things about your grandma and what she taught you. Honor her by continuing what you learned from her. She loved you, and I believe she knows you are very sad. She would not want you to give up on life. You have so much to give. So many people would miss you if you were gone.