Can you help me process this long story?

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Ok so here's the story and question....

I was with my girlfriend almost 5 years....we loved each other very much....we did have some fights and arguments.
I wasn't perfect, I did say mean things sometimes or do things but I have OCD and Borderline Personality Disorder.
Not all of it, but most of it was caused by my problems, I have been getting help and working on myself for the last
year and a half and been getting better. I regularly go to my therapist and psychiatrist and take my meds as prescribed.
I have gotten better. She left me 3 months ago because she said she didn't like the way I treated her. She is the type
that wants a "fairytale" relationship. Everyone has told her including her parents that she won't get that with anyone.
She also expects no fights or arguments. Well anyways she told me for the first two months after she left...that she
still wanted to be with me, she loves me, misses me, wants to know I'm serious about us, etc. Then two weeks after
that go by and she doesn't say much to me....well I texted her a lot but it was because when I tried to give her space
before by not texting as much, she would text me and say why are you ignoring me or I don't think you're serious about
this...and then when I did she didn't want me to text or wouldn't text me back most of the time.

So after those two weeks,
all of a sudden one night when I was texting, she sends me pictures of her and this girl kissing and laying next to each
other in bed. I was baffled and shocked....she said that is her new girlfriend and that she is happy. Well we went through
her getting the rest of her stuff. Then when I texted her after that she was saying all this nasty stuff to me (laughing at me,
saying mean and hurtful things, letting her friends and gf laugh at me, etc.) She met this girl through the internet on her
cell phone through this text messaging service, texted her (not knowing her at all before) for two months and then met
her in person finally for the first time 3 wks-1 month ago. So within 3 weeks of her still saying the stuff she did with me,
about loving me, wanting to know I'm for real, worried if I wanted it over.....she then said after those 3 weeks that she has
moved on, that she is happy, and she loves this girl.

After almost 5 years....she tells me this sh** and then moves on
in 3 weeks??? Do you think this is for real??? What do you think??? Please interpret it for me. So then I was texting her
to get clear answers and how sick is it that her new girlfriend is so timid that she let me ex control her and have her text
me to answer for her, which weren't answers to what I asked. So then my ex also sent pictures of this ring that her gf
supposedly got her (which come to find out, my ex paid for herself, lol) and tells me they are getting married soon. So
she got mad finally because I kept texting her (which I know is wrong but I wanted answers) and finally got so pis*** that
she didn't even want to be my friend. Which I don't understand why she would have wanted to when the break up wasn't
mutual and she knows I still wanted to be with her and loved her

My ex does have Bipolar and she is exhibiting signs
of a "manic" episode. She has been drinking a lot, hanging out with the wrong kind of people, not paying bills and spending money like wildfire (which is something she complained about me is paying the bills late), doing things on a whim
out of the ordinary (she bought plane tickets to go to NM just because she talked to someone and they reminded her
how much she liked it there) and then she said she has to postpone it now and that she also said she wanted to move
there in a letter she wrote me a week before she met her new gf, which the letter also said, I am having an affair with
NM, so to answer your question I am seeing NM, then a week later that??? Sorry this is long but I wanted to explain
the whole situation and ask that you please give me some kind of insight or help. Could this be her Bipolar, has she
flipped or is she just selfish??? Thank you for your answers/help. (Yes, we are both girls)

Oh yeah and I was also nice enough to do whatever my ex asked even after she left, including sending a medicine I take, which is a same one she was taking for her Bipolar and sending it to her and me going without. And that is how I get repayed. She has now stopped taking her meds, and has not gotten any help for herself.

Why I am asking and trying to understand is cuz it's killing me inside and I am confused. I still love her with all my heart and don't know what to think or do

From what I found out she is still blowing money like crazy and drinking all the time. And I just got a job and I love her so much that I am going to pay off all her bills for her but she doesn't know that. She is currently not taking her meds. Now I just found out that she is moving in with a girl that she was hanging out with last time she did this to me....she said last time when she came back that she couldn't stand this girl and wanted nothing to do with her. Even told her off at work and told people about her and now she's moving in with her!!!!

I just texted her and told her I was gonna pay off her bills and that I care about her and hope she will go get help and get on some meds. She is with the wrong people and acting complete opposite. Her friends are influencing her, and she is letting her friends do a lot of the talking for her.

When I kept texting her the other day....she made sure to rub it in my face and keep saying she is happy and that we will not be together because she is with this new girl and she treats her the way she wants to be treated and that's why. And one more thing that doesn't make sense to me.....she says to me,,,,,stop texting me or I will change my number and you will never talk to me again but before that she says she wants nothing to do with me and before that she says you blew it,,,,,at a chance at being friends....Ahhh she is so confusing...its like split personalities.

Could this be Narcissistic personality disorder?? I think she exhibits a lot, it not all, of the signs of it. Other than what I have said here. She values her friends more than anything even though she doesn't consciously realize it.

Answer 1

Well she's moved on ,, and is going to let you blow your money on her if you want too . but I strongly urge you to , ( even though you still love her ) keep her out of your life from this day on , just trow them 5 years away ! and don't ruin the next 5 , and although you weren't perfect when all the fighting was going on , neather was she , you were willing to change - she wasn't , she found someone else who will fight with her just the same as you did , She is un willing to fix her self , even if you could get her back { which you probably can't ,} {{ and you shouldn't }} she will only waist your young years , and you'll be old and looking , once she's finaly finshed ruining your life.... be rid of her.. throw those 5 years away ! throw em away !!! its trash , out of here ,gone , bad memories, if it was a photograph the smile on her face would look fake, cheesey

Answer 2

Tough situation. It's hard when you still care for someone who has gone on- and she has. She must still care, a little, or she wouldn't be speaking to you. I don't mean she wants to be with you, I don't think that's true, but there's enough caring you 2 could be friends. I don't know you ought to pay her bills, but it's your choice. I wouldn't do it again, though. I would send her one more message, saying that you still care very much and wish her well and that when she needs a friend, you'll be there. Then wait- it could be a long time or a short one, for her to get to where she wants to contact you. Then BE her friend. As for love, I know it hurts and it's really sad, but you should move on. She has her own set of problems which will only make yours worse if you can't break free. For your own peace and happiness, you need someone a bit more stable. Peace be on you.

Answer 3

I will let you know there may be not anything to inturrpt. Stop texting STOP. She is a nut case STOP. Even even though you assert that you're on monitor of your medicinal drugs and cure NO you're now not. Cut free, Do Not Pay Her Bills>>>>>>>>>>>>>> You are Ranting and Raving Your MedS Need to Be Looked At Now. You are in a CRISIS. She is long gone. Let her pass. You are unwell and also you MUST name your therapist, NOW We don't seem to be ready to supply aid AND you're now not making any experience. YOUR sickness is APPERENT on your lengthy tirade. Get Help and MORE Help Call your Crisis Line. This lady is long gone. Your Meds don't seem to be running. YOU and I each understand the mess you Wrote IS A CRY FOR HELP. I am irritated with you. I will probably be HAPPY for those who decide on up the DAMN PHONE and make contact with the CRISIS HOTLINE>>>>TODAY

Answer 4

This is crazy, let her go because she has crossed the line. This relationship has crossed the line!! Good Luck

Answer 5

Condense this and try again. It's way to long to bother with on YA.