I am not right? Depressed? Feeling suicidal! PLEASE READ?

Question

For the last 4 weeks, I have been depressed and feeling suicidal. I cannot talk to my school counselor because she will call my parents. I cannot tell my friends because they will tell the counselor. I am thinking about carbon monoxide poisoning myself... I just have been getting terrible grades, my teachers hate and yell at me, my parents don't care they are always sleeping. They are upstairs sleeping like at 11 in the morning while I am downstairs on the computer. My life is falling apart. I do not know what to do, I have already brought a knife to school, but I just could not slice my neck, it would hurt. I do NOT want to live anymore and I am getting horrible F's in all subjects and am falling behind and I am being talked about behind my back... I am fat and ugly... I do not know what to do except carbon monoxide poisoning myself... What am I going to do?

I am 12 years old...

Answer 1

me and you have alot in coomon
except for the grade parts,
im 12 too.
And at random times i feel the same
way,
but i know that gods gonna make everything bad go away,
soon.
and im just hoping till that day to get judge,
i want to live my life
presice.
i know theres more to come
whether its happines or depression,
because look at it this way,
when ur 40
u look past ur life,
and think ur life is quite interesting,
not just an ordinary life.
i get like that at times,
but i cut my rist,
but i dont do it much
because thats just a destruction to my life,
if u want help u can come to me
u dont need to go any wwere
i promise ill help u in anything.
email me at
[e-mail]
here on yahoo,
or on myspace if u have one
at
[e-mail].
ill be more than glad to help,
im already helping others.
my names denisse.
so dont be shy just do it. :]
ill be here for you.

Answer 2

What happened 4 weeks ago? Please e-mail me and let me know.

What will your parents do if they find out?

Are they neglecting you?

Honey, I know you don't feel good, and right now it seems the least painful thing to do would be to depart, but if you see a dr., it's not very hard AT ALL to make you feel a lot better.

Don't worry about the grades--they are just a symptom of people with depression. Suicidal symptoms, ideations (planning it), feeling people around you hate you or don't care about you, talk behind your back. I bet you've lost all pleasure in the things you used to do for fun--you just don't care anymore. It's all classic symptoms of depression.

You need to see a dr., Kit Kat, as soon as possible. Choose someone you feel would be least judgmental, maybe someone who would keep their mouth shut about it. Or, if you feel your suicide is imminent, call 911. They know how to help you.

What is going on: you've reached puberty, and your hormones are going crazy. You've probably got too much progesterone (sad guy) in your system and not too much in the way of happy (estrogen) chemicals. You need a pill to help get these guys back in balance.

Your life is young and tender. You haven't even started living. See the doctor so that you can have a long, happy living life.

TX Mom

Answer 3

I know how you feel, honey...
I've been suicidal twice in my life, once when I was in grade 6 and skipped two months of school....when everybody found out... my mom was scary mad, people talked behind my back, and I was failing many subjects. I had absolutely no idea what to do because it was too much for me to handle, so I went to the medicine drawer and grabbed the first thing I saw and swallowed 7 pills... I later found out those were stomach pills ( come on, I was in 6th grade, how should I know how to properly kill myself)...nothing happened to me, and I was very glad afterwards because things started slowly changing for the better...
I am in grade 11 now and I've been depressed on and off during this school year. Having a friend to talk to helps a lot!
Me and my friend had a crying party together a few days ago,
and it helped a lot...we just sat together and cried... Perhaps you should call the kids help phone? I haven't tried that yet, but someone told me they are pretty good....it's confidential and free!!!

If you want, I could talk to you by email, or on msn, because your situation sounds hard and perhaps I could help you? But please, please don't commit suicide....please!!!

Answer 4

Instead of being on yahoo answers, go and study. I'm not trying to sound mean, but seriously, you have to be the one to change your life. Don't feel bad if your overweight. You can always lose that, especially if you are young. Go walk everyday and of course eat right, and for your parents, there isn't much you can do if you have bad ones. Just try to focus on you. Also, your teachers probably "hate" you because you are getting F's in their class. Show some interest in their class, and they mgiht start liking you. I think you should find a hobby you'll like, because doing something you like will really bring up your self-esteem. It'll also make you less focused on your appearance. I suggest doing something active. If you don't like working with people, you can be active by yourself. Buy a dance tape or something, and learn to dance, or whatever you want.

Answer 5

DO NOT I repeat DO NOT kill youself. I dont know much about you but killing yourself should never be an option. Life gets tough and it may seem like ending ur life is the only way but trust me its not. The only way is to tell someone how u feel. ur parents do care and they love you. If u tell them how u feel u will c they do care for u and get u the help u deserve. And I dont know what or how religious u are but believe me God cares and loves u and will always be there for u. I dont want u to think ur ugly and fat everyone is beautful in their own way that may sound sappy but its true. There are so many diff options then killing urself and u by asking for help tho its on the comp is a start and means u still want to live. Plz talk to someone people love u and will be upset if u were gone
god bless

Answer 6

You have a serious issue and you need to talk to some one soon!!!!!! you are too young to feel like this. One more thing I know it does not seem like it but your parents do love you. You are a young person and at one point in time every young person feels like they are hated by their parents and this is normal just because thing do not go our way we cant help to feel this way, also there are always going to be haters no matter how old we are that are. People only talk behind our backs because they are jelous of us and are not big enough to say it to our faces. so do not stress the small things life is too short. as for the school issue it sounds like you are having trouble concentrating because of all the things going on in your mind and life right now, you should not have to have this put off on you like i said you are too young. just dont worry about other people and concentrate on school and getting your self better and go see your dr you can tell them that you do not want your parents to know what is going on and if you are old enough they do not have to tell your parents, they can percribe you with anti-depressants these will help you with how you are feeling, but you should sit your parents down and tell them how you feel and tell them that you need them to be there for you right now,

Answer 7

Every statement that you put after I am is a negative one. Try telling yourself for the next month I am beautiful, I am getting, happier everyday, I am going to do something constructive about my life and change it. I am going to go talk to my doctor about this and remind the doctor of their vow of confidentiality. I am going to help myself and my situation. Help crisis line, social worker, but your doctor has sworn an oath of confidentiality, start there. I know that when you feel this way you cannot see the purpose for yourself, but I will remind you we are all connected in this world, and your life does make a difference. It take a little bit, but get the help, and change your self talk, if they treat you bad, don't say it but just tell yourself I am worthy and screw you, I'll show just what I'm made of in just a little while. Let their comments roll right off you. Others like to put people down just for a sense of their own superiority, and control their own insufficiencies, fears or lack of their own self worth. Falsely convincing themselves they are better. Don't worry cause they will fall flat on their own face, and be made to pay the price, and then they won't be worth your time anyway.Love yourself, and others, and your life.

Answer 8

Go to the hospital RIGHT NOW and they will help you to see the right person. It is soooo sad how you cannot talk to anyone and your upbringing doesn't sound too great. You sound young. What might work is ring lifeline and you can talk to them. They are there 24/7. That's if your in Australia.
Please don't think the way you are, things will get better as life is the way you make it. Really hope you sort your life out as there is heaps of things you do not want to miss out on. Like your own family when you settle down.

Answer 9

Heres a better idea ,,, Anything ,,
just teasing , but seriously try going to the store and buying a project , you dont need grades for that , go to a hobby store , buy a project that looks good and spend a little time making something for your mom for christmas , it don't have to look good or even be good it's hand made BY you and has a deep value money cant buy , again Grades ain't gona help ya here, it takes you to make this no one else can do it , because if someone else made it , lets say Tom ,.. it would have been toms FINGERS that did it ,.{ you } have to do it . your fingers

Answer 10

My only thing to say is.. DON'T DO IT. Are you SERIOUS. Your SO selfish... You think that this will ease your pain.. What about your friends.. Huh? What about your parents... Huh? You think.. Oh they won't miss me... Yes they will... Think of how much you change and touched their lives.

You think your fat and ugly... MORE than liekly that's not true.... More than likely... YOU JUST NEED A MAKEOVER.


All i have to say is - STUDY... You said that you just sit on the computer... Hey I have A.D.D and I still sufer thru and study...

And this isn't right... but... If your old enough ( or ALMOST) just drop out of shcool.... Even if you in like... 7th grade... Still wait... You can move out get a job ( not a very great 1 beucase you droppped out thought) But, then you don't have to deal with your parents OR your grade...

But trust me.. We all think of suicide... But you know what? Don't listen to it.... We all have to have those though moments in our life... Don't think that your the ONLY one going thru this... And if your going to be a puussy and give up.. Well. Hey. Just think of all the goods things that could happen if you WAIT..

Don't do it. <3