I am feeling suicidal and sad and angry help me?

Question

This is confidental thanks I had a fite with my only peopel in my life my grandmother and my mom I havnt felt close with anyone I feel hurt and sad. a girl was using me at school and made it look like she was the victim. I was home trying to fix my comp. with my nana and i went busurc as i usally do unintentialnally . I cannnot remember i time i was happy my mom says its how you look at it . she has high blood pressure and i almost killled her a blood vessal poped thankfully it wasnt her heart it was her eye but it could have bin her heart i feel sick no one understands me I feel empty no one loves me now they do maybe just not or mad at me I always appolidgize they try to help me and i throw things I dont noe about all the hate in my heart is i called up my grandma and she really didnt accept it she told me she was thinking about all the things i have done to people i am crying right now by the way I always get in fights or destroy stuff with my family watching help please help

I feel like the next time i have a chance i will break the rules or the law to numb the pain

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Answer 1

Have you thought of getting some help? You can write here, but if you really want some help, you need to contact someone that can give you the help you need to understand what is going on. When you know you are doing things to people, and don't do anything to stop it, means that you want to do it, and blame it on an illness. Sorry not good enough, you need to do something to help yourself, because no one can do it for you. If you love at all you need to do this.

Answer 2

I understand some of what you are saying. I went through a horrible divorce and lost my 10 month old son. I went to my dad and my step mom threw me out saying my bad-lucky was depressing her. I kept myself away from everyone for 3.5 years and I got lucky and found a great girl and she unknowingly put things into perspective and I released a lot of my anger by just moving on. I know there is nothing worse than feeling alone and isolated. The first thing you need to do is learn how to control your temper. Maybe going to a shrink would be a great idea for you. Not to be mean but if you apologize to your mom and nana everytime you break something after a will it will come off as an empty apology. You should show your family that you are trying to fix you temper issues and be a better person. I bet your family isnt to concerned about themselves in all of this. They want whats best for you so I suggest that you find a good shrink and spend time sole searching to find where this anger comes form and deal with it. If its with a person you should confront them in a non-violent way and get your feelings out.

Answer 3

Warning, Christian answer:

I suggest that you stop taking anti-depressants medication if you are, unless it is herbal, and turn to God for help first. I also suggest you read what Job, the man mentioned in the Bible who went through intense pain and suffered the loss of all of his family. Even his friends turned against him and made long speeches against him. Despite that, he was rescued by God and is now known all over the world for his victory over Satan's attempt to completely turn him against God.

And here is my story:

Without God's love, you will always crave more and more and never be content.

Without a friend that gives you an honest answer when you want one, who gives you one out of love, you will always feel some misery. And if you only have friends that flatter you, you may be depressed knowing that they are doing so because they want to take advantage of you in some way rather than truly loving you, or loving you with a pure love, love which isn't self-seeking.

Also, you may have a poor diet which is causing a chemical imbalance or making you depressed due to its blandness, have past trauma that is still bothering you because you don't know how to deal with it or because it was very painful, are encountering unpleasant smells often (like perhaps from a new rug which smells bad), have bland surroundings (you may want to decorate your walls with posters), have unpleasant parents, don't have friends or ones that give you bad to no advice when you ask for the help or when it's obvious you need it, you may have a boring getting-no-where life, or you may feel as if you're not getting your way in general (which frustrates everyone who feels that way).

I had problems with depression and suicide due to my parents neglecting my education, including knowledge about right from wrong, and not having much interesting or helpful to do. I also got bullied at school for how I was dressed and appeared before I was 14 and of course, instead of the bullies being punished I was the one who got stuck in a miserable substitute for a "normal" public high school and had next to no friends while there (and still have about none). Soon after attending that school I was bullied by the police off an on a few times. Other miserable things happened including being repeatedly kicked out and being mistreated at nearly all the jobs I had by coworkers or bosses who harassed me out of them. But, God saved me and helped me beat my depression and allowed and helped me to accomplish some great things that I can take comfort in having accomplished no matter how miserable. I'm still depressed sometimes, but it's not as bad now since he's opened my eyes.

Check out the link in my profile if you are interested in spiritual help, which I found has been a lasting and permanent solution heading towards perfect peace. I hope you show the link to others.

Answer 4

See suicidal thoughts, anger management, and depression, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris in sections 5, 4, and 2. Your mother should reduce her salt intake to a minimum (there is a lot added to processed foods, anyway), replacing most of it with a potassium chloride (salt is sodium chloride) salt substitute, from the supermarket (eat more curries, chilli, and spicy food), and take 4 Omega 3 fish oil supplements, daily, replacing 2 of them with cod liver oil supplements, in the winter months.

Answer 5

Wow. Thats a bummer. i might experience quite unhappy, i might seek advice from my mom. yet some circumstances you in elementary terms ought to stick issues out. Definately no longer suicidal. Your mothers working plenty to grant you an excellent existence and in case you commited suicide, you dont know how terrible your mom might experience. communicate on your mom!

Answer 6

It sounds like you have anger issues. I used to feel like you. You have to make your own choices on how you want to feel. Ask yourself, how do I want to wake up and feel today. Tell yourself you want to be happy. It sounds to me like you let things get to you. You probably get stressed out real easy. You gotta take control of YOUR life. Only YOU can change YOU. Everyone else will follow. If you start being more mellow your family wont be so jumpy around you. You should tell them you love them and that you want to change your life but you don't know how. I bet you they will help you. I want to tell you suicide is a very selfish death. You will hurt your family horribly. I want you to know there are always better solutions. You are part of Gods plan. Do you want to mess that up?

Answer 7

I don't want to offend you and everyone has been in this place... it's called being a selfish teenager... your hormones and chemicals in your brain are all out of whack.. ...you would benefit from going to see a doctor and telling them all this... it could be as simple as a few hormone replacements or changing your diet... (some foods can make you go crazy just ask a A.D.H.D survivor).. good luck..

Answer 8

I was feeling like that once. I was thinking of commiting suicide. But if you have some friends they could cheer you up. Try ignoring this for a while and evetually you will get better. I really don't think you chould be feeling like that try seeing things that cheer you up! HOPE THIS HELPS. :)

Answer 9

I would feel that way to if i spelled the way you do

Answer 10

cheer up emo kid