do people from different countries have different perspectives for some things?

Question

it’s very boring, but please read through the whole thing
im a girl, going to be 18 this month
i come up with ways to embarrass myself, which i don't want to happen
a few years ago, my grandma who i lived with for a long time, asked me if i did anything she didn't know about
i told her no, not thinking about masturbation when she asked
if i was thinking about it and said no, then is that lying
cultures differ from countries to countries, but now im wondering because im korean, if i lied and if i should tell her now
i asked on yahoo about things related to this and now im depressed that because im korean if the answers that relieved me will change and if i have to ask all again saying that im korea to relieve myself
i think i came up with this idea of wondering if the answers will change because of the racism
my thoughts are getting complicated and depressing me more
my ocd is to do with guilt rather than the common rituals the ocd'ers do
i try to embarrass myself and have repetitive thoughts
before and after my early teens, i masturbated with bananas, objects, and rolled napkins and saw porn pics and videos on the internet
im masturbating and watching porn again recently
should i tell my grandma about my porn watching?
i lived with my grandparents for a long time, and they certainly sacrificed their opportunities to raise me to the best they can, so do i need to tell my grandma now about these?
do i have anxiety disorder, too? if i wasn't living with my parents i wouldn't be so keen on theses stuff as much as i am now
my thoughts are getting complicated and depressing me more
my ocd is to do with guilt rather than the common rituals the ocd'ers do
i try to embarrass myself and have repetitive thoughts
i have repetitive thoughts most of the times about my guiltiness and what im proud of
does obsessive compulsive disorder impair judgements because i feel guilty and i can’t judge if it’s ok or i did wrong
if i think that i did something wrong, then i can’t do anything well to my full potential and i lose self-esteem and confidence
do you think i should forget all about the guilt?
now im wondering if Koreans have a different view, and if it’s wrong not to tell or do these stuff
i got freaked out when i noticed if the answers i received on yahoo are from a different view because we have different cultures
most of the times, answers from yahoo relieved me a lot, it’s a feeling of going back to the starting point
do you think my judgements are impaired because of my mental condition?
Could you guys tell me if you have read the whole thing or not, too?

Answer 1

Your question and words phrasing is revealing your state of mind.

No doubt each culture and each country has their own uniqueness on various subjects - however if deeply studied, it can be observed that the essence will be much similar

In your state, as far as I try to understand, you are very good sweet girl getting confused about the repeated activity which you are doing. Your inner voice is warning about your activity but still you are involving secretly.

Its not your fault, because you had not understand the importance of pure life and since you have not got the answer for the question 'why should I stop doing such things' .... you are continuing this ....

Just for a moment be silent, sit calmly and comfortably while reading this msg. ..... take a deep breath and leave .... repeat twice and visualise that you are exhaling all the negativity and inhaling divine power .... Now talk to your own inner heart ... and analyise your own self .... you will find that the more you are involved into mastrubation the more you are getting confused or guilt .... that means your inner voice which is your best friend is giving the msg. that not to involve in such negative things .... so slowly try to adopt measures to gradually reduce this activity ...

Make your mind busy in various other responsibilites ... do physical exercise till sweat come out .... do some social work .... avoid bad films ... be in the company of elders .... do not make bad friends ....

Slowly you will see that your minds starts floating as if a free bird flying towards its goal ...

All the best ...

Answer 2

Right. I'm not Korean, I have read everything you had to say and since you said you would wish to know other ethnicity people's opinions I can tell you this. There's Absolutely Nothing Wrong with masturbating. It's actually of your health benefit. And probably you do not have any mental condition rather than a mild anxiety and panic.

Now porn and videos on the Internet, I guess you're just a curious young woman who's experimenting, we've all been through that, no harm done. I don't think you should tell anyone as these sort of things are private and it's not of anybodies business but yours.

Definitely forget about the guilt, you are NOT guilty of committing any sin. Try and calm yourself down, your thoughts are not complicated, you just worry too much. I reassure you there is NOTHING to worry about, you are completely and undoubtedly normal and there are thousand out there just like you. But remember, they're not you, you are unique, learn to respect and appreciate yourself. Take it from somebody who's older, maybe a bit wiser and somebody who's been through a lot much worse than what you're going through at the moment.

Try saying a prayer and mean it. You will be heard.

Answer 3

Yes I read it all, you should take it easy and keep it quite as it is. All the teenagers go through this and its not a wrong thing in this time and age. Time will come when you will laugh about this.