If I was sexually abused by my mother and the police didn't believe me. And returned me home several times after running away. Then I ended up in prison for a few years for trying to murder her. Then I run into my prosecutor at a Church. How can I move forward when I've got this conviction to remind me that my mom sexually abused me? It wasn't anything physical. It was showing me porn, ripping off my clothes so she could force me into nude photos, saying that she owned my body and could look at it anytime she wanted because she gave birth to it, tapping my but sexually when I was an older teen. I was held in a juvy for 2 years where I was beaten up verbally by the staff everyday for trying to kill her.
2007-11-07 06:35:47 · 9 answers · asked by openupfresh 1 in Politics & Government ➔ Law & Ethics
I like you very much for writing this. Let's clarify a couple of things first: 1) Your mother was a wacko, but she's not you and you are not her. 2) Running into the prosecutor is not a reminder of what your mom did, but of what you did and of course it's never a good feeling. 3) Please don't say she wasn't physical, as you wrote plenty of evidence to the contrary.
You seem to harbor a great deal of vindictiveness towards your mother. You did your time for what you've done, but you feel she hasn't paid for what she's done and that in fact, others sided with her instead of protecting you. Honestly I can't ever judge or blame you about the way you feel. But aside from your tremendous pain and fear inside, this vindictiveness is also eating you up. Find someone reliable to talk with, someone who will take you as you are, meaning the good the bad and the ugly. Take time to sort things out and regain yourself. Work on your own self. Keep your chin up no matter what. You've gone a long way already and you have all my support. All the blessings and take care, kid.
2007-11-07 07:06:28 · answer #1 · answered by Tom 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I can't imagine the pain you suffered under such a horrible childhood. Based on your user ID and the fact you're attending church, it sounds like you're ready for a fresh start.
The basis of Christian faith is forgiveness, which is a power you posses to give or withold.
Holding on to anger and resentment over the past clouds your present and future, whereas forgiveness frees you from the past and allows you to move forward with your life.
Forgiveness isn't about forgetting or excusing the actions of others for the wrongs committed against you, it about cleansing your heart of the past so that you can focus on the here & now.
I recommend joining a recovery support group for abused kids, and consider how you can leverage what happened to you to make a difference in another person's life.
Your experience lends a lot of credibility to young people who are afraid to expose an abusive family member.
2007-11-07 06:55:29 · answer #2 · answered by foolhardly 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
First of all...I am so sorry that you had to go through this.
If I were in your shoes I would move far away. I would start a new life somewhere else to get away from everything else. I would join a church that I liked after looking around and just start fresh.
At this point there is no sense in seeking revenge. It is in the past. What she did was wrong but that is with her and God now. Only time can heal the pain. God is always there for you. He can make good even out of this terrible event. You can have a normal life though. You can have a family of your own and make sure what happened to you never happens to them.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
2007-11-07 06:44:01 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
You truly need to get some help. If you have health insurance, use the books & find a good abuse councelor. You need to get past this, & there are good people out there who can help you do that. I didn't have it as bad as you, but I had a pretty rotten childhood too. Abused by 2 people, sexully & physically & verbally. I got help & can live with it now. Get help, it will help you.
2007-11-07 06:44:06 · answer #4 · answered by fairly smart 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
your Mother is a real sick person
and needs help-you will never forget what happen to you. but you will learn to live with
all this horror and it will make you a better person and some day wen you have your children don't let her near them=
and don't let the presence of the prosecutor be a dent in your life with God
2007-11-07 07:10:58 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
How about you just get over it?
George Chuvalo lost his son to suicide and kept on, he lost a second son to suicide and kept on, his wife took a bottle of pills and laid down and died on the 2nd sons bed two days after he died and he kept on, he lost a third son to drugs and suicide and kept on, his 4th son went to jail for drugs and he kept on, his daughter disowned him and he kept on.
Roy Orbison lost his wife in a motorcycle accident and kept on, a few years later while talking to a promotor about his new home being fireproof it burned and his two sons died, he kept on.
Muhammed Ali was stripped of his title for three years and he kept on.
We know of several people who have lost several children to their own spouse and kept on.
Look at the father of Jessica of Jessica's Law. His daughter was stolen held and raped repeatedly before being buried alive and he kept on.
Now tell me again why mommy taking pictures amd patting your butt has your panties in such an uproar as to ruin your and other peoples lives.
While I see yor point in the larger scheme of things what do you think these other people had that you don't?
2007-11-07 06:56:08 · answer #6 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 3⤋
You need to seek counseling. God Bless.
2007-11-07 06:39:51 · answer #7 · answered by Belle 1 · 1⤊ 0⤋
wow. thats really sad. im not shur how to help you. but I hope you get the help you need!!!.
2007-11-07 06:39:27 · answer #8 · answered by Tiffany 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
How can you recover? Get some help. Please. The sooner the better.
2007-11-07 06:45:36 · answer #9 · answered by ItsJustMe 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋