sh*t life & suicide?

Question

ever since grade 5 my life has got soo F8cking bad. i have 0 friends, abnormally shy have anxious tension..evryones against me and i do think somebody has gossiped about my reputation and flaws in school b/c there are students i barely know who already know im antisocial & alone!! i cant stand this anguish and i'm gonna commit suicide if thats my only hope. i thought my life in high school would get better but it did NOT! theres anxiety every damn day and i know there's no reason for me to exist. i dont care who'd grief my death(no one).. the only person who liked me (if still does) is a gr 12 guy..im gr 10.. i get small pleasure of his presence (dont know him well never date) but he'll be gone next year so id think of leaving school go for lottery instead of career (no one hires such shy people). i'll never attract someone, unless he still does, after hes gone no one would give a sh*t. i wont like anyone else since he actually liked me as an ugly girl...any other guy likes HOT bitches

Answer 1

*Hugs* I'm so sorry that you are feeling so sullen. I can certainly relate to the depression, the trouble fitting in during elementary (grade) school, middle and high school as well as having some social anxiety which you may have as well. Please do Not give up! Life really does get better after high school :)

One can be more independent after graduation even at the local community college or state university. Please remember that people will do and say things to make the next person feel inferior due to the bully's own insecurities. I really don't think of someone shy as 'antisocial' ;) When I think of someone antisocial, it's someone that is sociopathic or without a conscience, and I know that that is not you. You are in a deep depression and when someone is feeling so sad and gloomy, it's tough to see the positive things in life even such as being able to help others and making a difference in someone else's life. I had great difficulty 'blending in' or fitting in while in high school, but I still reached out to students that seemed even less fortunate than myself.

Please do talk with your parents or guidance counselor or school nurse about how bad you are feeling. There is so much help available for those that are dealing with a depression, social anxiety and any other issues. When you start to feel better, perhaps you can look into joining in on an afterschool activity such as the community service club or theatre workshop or such.

For a helpline if feeling like ending your life: 1-800-SUICIDE

Answer 2

I am like exactly the same as you, don't commit suicide though. Things will get better after HS. The best revenge is living well, so work hard and be successfu. You will eventually become less shy, as I have now that I am a freshman in College and when you return to your class reunion rub your success in everyones faces. That is what I am planning on doing. When you are more successful than everyone else you don't have to worry about what they think of you. People are jerks, they are ignorant and immature.

Answer 3

You sound like my sister, word for word. After her bf dumped her, she became a Nurse through the Jr. Coll program ,makes good money.
here is some advice, find a book " How to Win Friends and Influence People" by Dale Carnegie. written 1981. It will give you a new perspective. You sound like an introspective sort of person and probably very intelligent.

Answer 4

Just realize that your not the only one going through this..
There are 100s of kids going through the same thing you are.
I know i used to be one of the bullies who would talk about people behind there back.. it made me feel good about myself...
BUT, one day i had to do a project with a girl i thought was nerdy & weird...but after getting know her we had everything in common & shes like one of my best friends now!
I'm so thankful that I changed my ways about seeing people..even though making fun of them felt good... Being nice to them.. felt 10times better! but if other ppl can't realize that.. just move on with your life and know that your the better person..okay?

Answer 5

Like 144289 said after high school , those who had nothing but krap to deal with threw out their sad school years , life gets better , For those who had it great in high school , will be forced to feel some of what you had to go threw in their later years , you'll be going Ha ha {like nelson munts} , have a good night,, Later

Answer 6

The way you project yourself is a major part of why other people like you.
And the way you talk about yourself there would kinda make me stay away from you as well.

Think about how that works, then consciously make a change to the way you think and act. I guarantee it will make a difference.

Answer 7

My high school years were the worse years of my life, so don't feel alone. Once I left my classmates, everything turned for the better, of course at that time it couldn't get worst. It will get better for you later

Answer 8

It just might be that some of it shows in your writing, you need to speak better, and make a better impression, no one will like some one that talks as you are writing, try making your self a better person, and get away from self pitty, you can only be liked if you are shown to be a better speaking person, speak and act to others as you would "really" like to to be treated. No one will like some one that acts and talks as you are. One is judged by how they speak and act. Good luck.

Answer 9

Don't know you, but know this..........regardless of how you look on the outside, it's not as important as the beauty within. You say you are shy, but have the guts to declare what you have said, and even more so, you look for help.

To me, you are a strong person............with some problems perhaps as we all do, but on the other hand, with a world of options laying open for you in the present and in the future.

Don't do anything stupid.......you are not stupid. Believe in yourself, love yourself and before you know it, other's will look up to you. Be brave, but above all, be smart and look inside of you to wake up the beauty in your life.

Answer 10

dont commit suicide. you're still young and you have a lot to look forward to. popularity isnt that important