Numb
I feel that I don't matter
that I'm just here
not a wife, a partner, a friend
not a lover, a lady who was once called "Dear"
I feel alone
no hope, joy, laughter or praise
just questions with no answers
walking dead as in a daze
I feel useless yet obligated to the needs of others
taking on the mistakes they made
holding the resentments of fear and anger against myself
watching my life and soul diminish in the ocean and fade
I feel hopeless in this mirror
reflection of failure looks back at me
anticipation, anxiety, anger and confusion is all I can see
I feel angry because I am confused
and confused because I am angry
I am Numb
2007-10-28 20:16:21 · 5 answers · asked by Anonymous in Arts & Humanities ➔ Poetry
Sister
Take that pain and anger
and change it into faith
For that is what will keep you going
Not the sadness that you take
Ignore that numbing feeling
For reconginizing it will make you fall
and then when you suddenly lose it,
You'll realize that you truly lost it all.
Don't lose that spirit that God has given you for so long.
For when the time has come
You'll be singing a different song.
The Lord gives you nothing
That he knows of which you cannot deal
This emotion that you are feeling
Is something that we all eventually feel.
What separates you from the others who have fallen victim to this pain
Is that for you, everyday is different
Not everything can be the same
You heart is still be beating
And your tears... lonely they still fall
Which leads me to believe, Anjel
That you aren't numb at all.
2007-10-29 02:02:28 · answer #1 · answered by jmalin04 3 · 3⤊ 2⤋
Your are indifferent, not numb. Life is not an exciting adventure for you. This is actually a great opportunity for you. Instead of being angry, start by appreciated and being grateful for what you do have.
Next look into your future to what you want in life. Start in that direction. When anger is focused inward, even the most beautiful events will not be witnessed. Let go of your anger and get back on the saddle of life. Find a friend to talk, a spouse maybe to reason with but focusing where you are, will not get you to the promised land. Change what you are doing, because it is not serving you.
2007-10-28 20:26:24 · answer #2 · answered by tacos53 2 · 2⤊ 0⤋
I once wrote a poem titled numb as well :) But my interpretation was slightly different. It is something without hope, joy, laughter, love, anger, anxiety or confusion. It's just numb.. can't feel a thing.
Some people call it indiferrence; a stage and one of the symptoms of depression. Since the writer can still feel anger, I think she's not too deep in the black hole yet, sister :)
2007-10-28 20:45:28 · answer #3 · answered by HazelNut 2 · 2⤊ 0⤋
yes i have
you mattered enough to Him that He died for you
If you want the power over this demon that is attacking you, your going to have to stop what you are doing and START PRAISING THE LORD there is so much Power in praise.
Put you on some Holy Ghost touching the heart praise music.Dance! Clap your hands to the Lord! Lift them up to Him! Tell Him that you belong to Him, shout it out!Make everyone in the house think you are Nuts.Go nuts for God? wouldn't that be kind of silly? the devil will say.Tell that liar to go back to his pit, that you would rather go nuts for God than allow a snake like him to drive you nuts.Now get to lifting them hands up that hang down, you have a voice, use it and start praising the Lord RIGHT NOW !!!!
You done went and did it sister, I am praising Him for both of us right now, I just can,t help it.If we don't say something the stones are going to start shouting His name.Are you going to let a lava rock out there in the gas grill do your talking? NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!
2007-10-29 02:25:25 · answer #4 · answered by don_steele54 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Yes, but only temporarily then I focus on something that makes me happy and forget about it.
Are you feeling this way now?
2007-10-28 20:25:12 · answer #5 · answered by Evelyn 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋