Suicidal THoughts????>>>>> i dont want to BUT they are there!?

Question

I deffinately want to live... but in the back of my head these thoughts pop up when im stressed,,,,

Is it normal for everyone to have these thoughts present at times?

My BF knows I feel this way... He said he was worried.....So i know I need to figure this out!

I OD'd on sleeping pills the other night and was forced to vomit them back up.... it wasnt as an act of suicide.... but I do tend to take things to the extreme!>..

Answer 1

Without God's love, you will always crave more and more and never be content.

Without a friend that gives you an honest answer when you want one, who gives you one out of love, you will always feel some misery. And if you only have friends that flatter you, you may be depressed knowing that they are doing so because they want to take advantage of you in some way rather than truly loving you, or loving you with a pure love, love which isn't self-seeking.

Also, you may have a poor diet which is causing a chemical imbalance or making you depressed due to its blandness, have past trauma that is still bothering you because you don't know how to deal with it or because it was very painful, are encountering unpleasant smells often (like perhaps from a new rug which smells bad), have bland surroundings (you may want to decorate your walls with posters), have unpleasant parents, don't have friends or ones that give you bad to no advice when you ask for the help or when it's obvious you need it, you may have a boring getting-no-where life, or you may feel as if you're not getting your way in general (which frustrates everyone who feels that way).

I had problems with depression and suicide due to my parents neglecting my education, including knowledge about right from wrong, and not having much interesting or helpful to do. I also got bullied at school for how I was dressed and appeared before I was 14 and of course, instead of the bullies being punished I was the one who got stuck in a miserable substitute for a "normal" public high school and had next to no friends while there (and still have about none). Soon after attending that school I was bullied by the police off an on a few times. Other miserable things happened including being repeatedly kicked out and being mistreated at nearly all the jobs I had by coworkers or bosses who harassed me out of them. But, God saved me and helped me beat my depression and allowed and helped me to accomplish some great things that I can take comfort in having accomplished no matter how miserable. I'm still depressed sometimes, but it's not as bad now since he's opened my eyes.

Check out the link in my profile if you are interested in spiritual help, which I found has been a lasting and permanent solution heading towards perfect peace. I hope you show the link to others.

Answer 2

You need to take ur life easy. I know things can be stressing, and you will always have your ups and downs. I'm pretty sure anyone, even the richest person with the most perfect life, has had thoughts of suicide when they're feeling down. But every day is a new start, every morning gives you a clean sheet to fill your life with, so don't get discouraged. Whatever you do, don't let the suicidal thoughts get any further, and don't take sleeping pills, unprescribed medication, or anything that could lead to extreme actions that can seem like attempted suicides. Take counseling or talk to someone you trust. Write in a journal every day to get all your feelings out, and just take some time each day to rest and relax your mind =]

Answer 3

You need to see a psychiatrist to get medical prescription and a psychotherapist for weekly discussions. I was once like that about 2 years ago. I had lost over 20 lbs in less than a month which really isn't good. I saw a psychotherapist who would sit and listen to you and give you important advice. She also referred me to a psychiatrist for some medication to help me get through the day...and believe me....it helped make those bad thoughts go away. The pschiatrist will ask you a series of questions to determine how severe your depression is and if medication is even needed.
Wish you well and good luck.

Answer 4

Probably every one has thoughts such as these at one time or another, but as long as they are only fleeting and not over taking your every thought process. It is good that you talk about these feelings with you boyfriend, as you are less likely to act upon these feelings when they are out in the open and being discussed. i have been touched personally by suicide, but by no means am i an authority on the subject, so if you are worried go and get professional help.

Answer 5

Have you thought about going to a therapist? If you have trouble figuring out why you have suicide thoughts you should consider it. I therapist can help you deal with your stress that's causing these thoughts.

Answer 6

You need Jesus! I get very depressed at times and when I read the bible, God uses the perfect words to guide me into peace and joy. I think a lot of people feel this way. God is the answer you are looking for.

Answer 7

Have you ever seen Stranger than Fiction? there was this one part where the author said something like,
"have ou ever thought about jumping off a building?" and the other person said
"no" she answered back (something like)
"oh really? i don't believe you, everone thinks about jumping off a building at one point or another!"

i agree, i think it is normal, as lng as you take no action in it.

Answer 8

Are you taking anti-depressants? Cuz if you are, you should ask your doctor to take you off of them. Anti-depressants help depression but for some reason encourage suicidal tendencies.

Answer 9

It sounds like a psychotherapist/counselor would be helpful in addressing what you are feeling.