I want to kill myself?

Question

I'm 16 years old, I am a sophomore in High School
I have no idea what to become after high school, I don't want to be stuck in a boring job I hate. I don't want to live the way I am in a **** hole.

I've always wanted to be an Actor, but you need to be extremely hot to be in the business, all I every worry about everyday is counting calories and on occasions, I would purge because I feel to ugly.

I've always wanted to be in the entertainment business, and what other options do I have? Mc Donalds?
I don't even have enough money for college, I don't even know what I want to be, I can't do anything.


If I try to commit suicide and fail at it again, then this time I will be in the hospital for life, since this would be my 4th time trying to do so.


I have friends, but not the ones I want.
I feel so alone...lonely.

Answer 1

Sophmore year is tough. I'm a junior right now and I remember going through depression on and off. Things change though, and you can never predict the future. You could end up being an amazing actor, or things could change and you will want to be a doctor. You could cure diseases and save lives. Just because things aren't going well right now doesnt mean they cant later. If you work hard and never give up, you will be able to do anything. Nothing will get better until you try to make it better but suicide is not making it better. "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" --- once you die, there is no taking it back.

Answer 2

Being your age is tough and I would not want to do it again. Just because you don't know what you want to do right now does not mean you will never know what to do. I suggest getting some prefessional help if suicide is your answer to everything. Being in the medical field I know that if you try again you will not be in the hospital forever but just putting your life on hold. I if you don;t have the friends you would like to have then maybe you need to find different friends and be the friend that you want to have. Get involved in church youth group and get some good friends that way if anything at least they are praying for you. The only sure thing give your life to Christ and let him lead you, you will then find your purpose. being that he created you for him and he loves you more then you will ever know. I used to be in the same place as you when I was your age, I tried suicide and got even more depressed when I didn't suceed and I had the same want to as you, being in the entertainment industry but it was to demanding and I couldn't handle the rejection. So to make a long story short, when I was in HS people thought that by the time I was 20 I would be dead or in jail somwhere. I gave my life to Christ around your age and my life changed. I am here to tell you that there is hope. God loves you and if you didn't suceed in killing yourself then it is obvious that he has a great plan for you, you just have to know him to find out what that is. No money for college, nor did I, I got grants and student loans you have no idea how much money is available if you do the research and are serious. I am a RN now, A missionary and a youth pastor.
this will only last as long as you want it to, you have a choice to make.
Good luck and God bless you

If I could add, be cautious of the mormons, they always look for people in distress to make their cult look appealing

Answer 3

It's not all about looks in the entertainment business some people really do have great talent. The best thing you can do for yourself right now is concentrate on making good grades. If your grades are good you can get scholarships and grants to go to school wherever you like. You also can get student loans but be very careful with those and remember you have to pay those back. You are very young and have plenty of time to decide what you want to do. People go to college and change their major a million times because it's hard to decide. So for right now just do the best you can in school and look into colleges. Talk to your councillors and tell them your concerns. The internet also is a humongous gateway to information about schools and scholarships and even different occupations. So do your research and stop freaking out. I promise you are just as capable of being successful as anyone else. You have to work hard for it though. Good Luck

Answer 4

If you are considering suicide stop what you are doing and call the suicide hot line in your area NOW!

Life isn’t fair and never will be. That is a fact everyone need to accept. You seem to have a lot of negative thinking going on and had better change that. There is a lot of help out there. Ask for it. You might require more than you are going to get on this site.

Do you think Danny Devito is hot? He was told he would never make it as an actor because he is so short. He over came his short comings (pun intended).

I never feel lonely since I always have myself and seek out things that I can enjoy doing without others.

You don’t like your friends then find other friends. I’m not saying that is easy but can be done. Then you really know what kind of friends you want?

I never get depressed because I don’t’ think depressing thoughts. I don’t awfulize things. Life is hard. Well that’s tough! I am just tougher than life. I don’t like having all the medical problems I have but I accept them since I have no other good choice. I have lost everything I had because of them but I will not let that get me down. I can’t do the things I want to do. Well that’s tough I will do something else. My doctor thinks there is something abnormal about me since I don’t let these things get me down. She’s right. I am mentally healthy unlike the “normal” that would get depressed. I don’t take my doctor to serious. She told me she is on antidepressants. Everyone is taking them according to her. Do I or does she require help?

Good Luck and make that call.

Answer 5

duuuude its okay! just take a deep breath and address your problems one at a time

1- you want to commit suicide. thats the easy way out of a tough situation. i know, you're like 'easy? pshaw!' but its like just quitting. life gets tough!

2-you think you have to be 'hot' to be an actor. if all movies had only beautiful people, they wouldnt be real. plus, actors purge all the time and that just gets in tabloids... they dont look anybetter or act better either.

3-other options do not only include mcdonalds. dude, just try. get out there and get a job. at least finish high school, then try to 'climb the ladder'... just try to get out of fast food service, that leads nowhere.

4- theres always scholarships. my sister went to france for a year to study for college and didnt pay a dime. just work hard at school.

i know all of this sounds phony, but its not, and it works. if you need a stranger who wont judje, contact me at [e-mail]. just keep your head up...


p to the s, ask your doctor about fluoxetine (prozac)... you may have a seritonin insufficiency.

Answer 6

You may think that if you kill yourself ppl won't care but trying to do that affects more ppl than you know. You are only 16 and if you end your life now..you or anyone else will never know what you could of become. You have a life ahead of you and you may think your not good enough and you won't be unless you try and become who you wont' to become. you don't need to change who you are to become something. Look on TV everyone on there is not perfect.

Answer 7

Wow, I'm 17 and feel the exact same way. I've tried suicide but it got me nowhere. A lot of times I want to sleep and never wake up. I am trying to stick in there and be strong but it's really hard to do when you feel like no one cares. We will both have to hang in there and hope things get better.

Answer 8

So it sounds like no one has ever told you that this is normal. Not the killing yourself part, the part about not having any idea what you want to do with your life. That's what college and growing up is for. Relax and just enjoy some hobbies right now.

Many, MANY adults still don't know what the want to be when they grow up.

Answer 9

first off, concentrate on doing good in high school. if you do good enough, you can get free scholarships to just about any college you choose. then, get some real friends; you already know you have friends you don't want. please don't commit suicide, life is a ***** to all of us, best to roll with the punches.

remember, there should be more than one option of what you want in life, cause you can't do **** in death.

Answer 10

First of all, take a deeeeepppp breath.

Now, find a hobby! You can be whatever you want to be if you try hard enough!

Or, you can get a pet! Like a dog, or a cat.

Think of something worth living for, or get it, and quickly.

how do you think killing yourself is going to help you??? think of your family, your friends, everything that you can possibly be grateful for, and redeem yourself, even down to your favorite foods! I know this sounds cheesy, but for me i love popcorn. if i killed myself (which i am NOT going to do) i would never get to taste popcorn again.

You'll never be able to taste, touch, feel, smell, love, experience anything ever again.

Appreciate life for what it is- a privelage.

You can even join the army if you want. Join a volunteer program, just discover your passion!!!

Please don't kill yourself, for it helps nobody, including yourself, please, for the sake of everyone that loves you, even if you dont realize it, DO NOT kill yourself.

Bless you...