2007-10-06 21:16:42 · 14 answers · asked by Anonymous in Entertainment & Music ➔ Polls & Surveys
That I am 45 years old and I have made SO many mistakes that cannot be undone. My very first true love that I met at 22- we were involved for 8 years-he didn't believe in the concept of commitment and we drifted into friends. He was so kind though. Ironically, he never cheated on me, even though he didn't believe in marriage. He was the most trustworthy, honest person I've ever been involved with. And I abused that trust. He knows me better than anyone. Unfortunately, I got involved with drugs ( I am a recovering addict ) and he couldn't take it anymore and I don't blame him. He doesn't want anything to do with me anymore and it makes me so sad inside. I last saw him in 2004, when he came by to return a book I had let him borrow. I cried when I saw him then because I could smell the soap he always used and it brought up a huge wave of emotions inside of me. ( I know that sounds silly, but the particular scent of someone we have loved is forever remembered) We never saw one another again. I've tried so hard to make amends via email, but he wants nothing to do with me. I never became what I truly wanted to be in life, a librarian. (although I have worked and managed many bookstores in my life) I feel so alone. I feel like I've blown it forever.
2007-10-07 18:46:07 · answer #1 · answered by PURR GIRL TORI 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I practice Buddhist tactics to avoid letting something very deep in my core from eating me.
Meditation is one.
For if I let these problems I may not understand or have an easily at hand an answer to them, they will, as a series of little piranha maws, eat my entrails!
2007-10-07 22:09:50 · answer #2 · answered by skydancerwi 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
What's eating me?
I'll tell you.
I have like avolition, I can't seem to accomplish even day to day goals.
I see life passing me by and people getting things and I feel left behind but with all this potential inside and yet I feel paralyzed by my mind and guilty for making excuses but still paralyzed.
And I'm with a man who is in love with his rock band and fans and could leave me any time (he already did once but came back) but we've been together for a few years so I'm attached...and being jobless doesn't help.
I have so many beautiful dreams in my head but karma, mental illness, me, ?, having trouble realizing them
2007-10-07 04:53:23 · answer #3 · answered by Lil Blousou 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Uncertainty
2007-10-07 04:28:16 · answer #4 · answered by LORD Z 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
well right now ma and ma lyf so not looking beautiful. mafacial hair is growing bad style need it diong cant cause of ramadhan but will def get it done dis friday from ma mamz mate aubty shabana xx
2007-10-07 08:55:50 · answer #5 · answered by Asian Barbie <3* 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Hopelessness.
2007-10-08 01:07:46 · answer #6 · answered by Bunny Boiler 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Deep-seated resentment against specific humans!!!
2007-10-07 04:19:30 · answer #7 · answered by tercentenary98 6 · 1⤊ 1⤋
My past and all the people I've hurt. Even those I've hurt online.
2007-10-07 15:32:36 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
the fact that I messed up and can't do anything to fix it...just need to wait on God...and I have no patience!
2007-10-07 04:18:53 · answer #9 · answered by ♥Mizz Al-Abbady♥ 5 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Damn the Man
2007-10-07 15:34:31 · answer #10 · answered by Kate v.7.0 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋