I finally took the strength to come clean & tell my boyfriend the truth about my past after a year of lies & hidden fact.
I'l be visiting him in 2weeks (we live in different countries) i wanted to wait till i got there to tell him everything but he was so looking forward to me coming & i didn't want to make it extra hard for him then it already is.
I hate myself for delaying of telling him & lying about my past, because what is ment to be the past i have now brought into the relationship.
I feel he has some hatred & things towards me but he keeps saying no, but after all that i have put him through how can he not i sure do.
He is the best thing in my life right now & i was scared of losing him, losing us & hurting him but i guess thats exactly what i have done ten times over.
Despite everything he still loves me so much, still wants me to come see him & wants a future with me
I love him so so much & i really want to show him once i get there as actions speak louder than words.
2007-09-19 21:35:52 · 2 answers · asked by Anonymous in Family & Relationships ➔ Marriage & Divorce
He believes i do not love him & never have.
He says he's staying with me & loves me so much but he wants me to take back all the gifts i have brought for him as he's not ready for that yet.
He loves the San Fransico 49ers so much so i got him tickets to their game in November he knew that i was getting him a gift but did not know what.
I really want him to accept it.
Our relationship was so good before but i felt he needed to know & it was his right to know & my conscience was killing me.
I'm really scared that our relationship will never be the same again but i am willing to fighting & to work dam hard to show & prove to him that we can.
I have never lied to anyone in my life 7 i just can't stop asking myself why & how i could do this to him, it was so stupid of me to lie put our relationship in jepody because i was scared to hurt him & lose him.
Now he's always going to protray me as a liar & always have to think not even twice but so many times to know if i saying the turth.
2007-09-19 21:39:06 · update #1
i love him so much & don't want to leave him but he deserves so much better, he's a beautiful guy, caring, loving, compassionate & everything a girl can want & ask for no has ever love me more.
But he just deserves better.
2007-09-19 21:43:49 · update #2
I agree. He deserves better.
2007-09-19 21:48:16 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
If he is willing to stay with you now, eventually he will forgive you. It just takes time for you to prove yourself to him. Let that be a lesson to you, however. Do not lie because it will come back to bite you in the butt!!
2007-09-20 04:44:04 · answer #2 · answered by PEGGY S 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋