When you get pulled over and have drank a full pint but the pullover is for tags and the cops compuuer r down?

Question

should I consider that a blessing and quit drinking?

Why is hard stuff like Vodka so addicting? I mean I can quit other stuff like smoking and weed, but this alcohol crap is kicking my ***.

Is it as simple as breaking the daily routine? why is this so hard. I hate AA - it makes me feel out of control and stupid.

I can't even say anonymity witout messing up

This has to be my message to wake up - I have a baby boy, I want to be there for him

Answer 1

Then do consider this a "wake up call." You're lucky. And you're right, it could have been worse. You could've went to jail. You could've lost your license. You could've been faced with fines that you can't afford to pay. You could end up riding the bus. Worst case scenario, you could've been in an accident. You could've got yourself hurt or killed, or hurt or killed someone else. No one ever really thinks this can happen to them...esp. the alcoholic in denial. It's part of the disease. A few years ago, a good friend of mine was driving (under the influence) and arguing with his girlfriend. He didn't see a man crossing the street in front of him. He ran over that man and killed him. He went to jail for a long time because of it. His girlfriend left him. She was pregnant, too. And every night since he has nightmares about the accident. He's a deeply feeling man, someone who feels such tremendous remorse, and yet there's nothing he can do to bring that person back to life. He has to live with this forever.

Alcoholism will destroy your physical health. I have two friends who are adversely (and permanently) afflicted because of alcohol. One suffered a stomach hemorrage due to long term alcohol abuse. He had to have surgery- twice, and nearly died. Now he's got to take medication every day for the rest of his life just so he can digest bland foods (forget spicy or sweet)...one more drink and he may die. And he's only 23. Another friend of mine is 43, and after years of alcohol abuse she developed Wernicke's and Korsakoff's syndrome. She's sober now, and has been for five years, but she can't hardly read or speak. The alcohol abuse has damaged her brain to the point where she will never be normal again....she was once very intelligent and could communicate well....now she's trying to go to school and struggling to comprehend even things that are on a 5th grade level.

Last summer my teenage daughter left a party with four of her friends. They'd all been drinking. Three of them got into a car with someone who also had been drinking. I thank God every day that my daughter was not with them. They never made it home. They died in a head-on collision. So did the people (and a baby) in the car that they hit.

Don't let alcohol destroy your life. You have the power to reach out for help. AA isn't your only option. There are others. Do it for yourself, do it for your family. You DO want to be there for your son.