I am really depressed..only 21 but I feel like there is no purpose to life Alone!?

Question

i feel like i am perpetually alone...i am and i have nobody and no trust to get anybody.what should I do?

these feelings have just crept up on me..like a moment of clarity: nothing will ever be enough. I feel like a kid lost in New York City. I cannot find myself, my soul. I am all but gone. Its like something is missing, something huge. something I need to survive but's gone 4ever and ever.

i am in college but the work is just monotonous and horrifying not because of the intellect involved, but because it just seems like a clown laughing in my face...

I don't think i need "therapy" what is the point of making a truce with God or whomever to bulls**t on this earth until I die in freak accident or whatever modem death will use to steal me from this planet.

ACTUALLY i do know something. Everyone I love is dead. my parents cared so much about me they were drug addicts and died. now look at me. everyone is a villain in my mind

alright I am done complaining for now

Answer 1

Type O Negative has a song that has the lyric "Everyone I love is dead". It might be kool to listen to. Although, it will only make you feel like someone understands rather than feel better. Stay away from TV. Too many commercials try to be funny and celebrities tend to be fake. Nothing is real anymore. Not even this post. The only thing to do: invent your own reality. Look what it did for Bill Gates.

Answer 2

Its Really sad Yuu Are Feeling This Way =[
Maybe You Should Go And See Your Doctor!
You Could Also Ring The Samaritans Who Offer A Total Confidential,Extremely Understanding And Helpful Service.
Your Only 21, You Still Have Your Whole Life Ahead Of You,Maybe You Just need Some Help To Get You Back On Track And Enjoying It Again!!
I Hope You Cheer Up Soon xx

Answer 3

Look, there is no reason to feel this way, I know at times life seems like it SUCKS, but you have to realize that right around the corner something good awaits you. You have family that really do love you even though it may not seem that way! You are important and special to more people than you know! I have SOOOO been there, I was ready to give up on it all, I had no job, had 2 kids to support, just got my car taken, was homeless and I couldnt do it anymore. I had officially hit ROCK BOTTOM! Then I realized that "It could be worse"...remember, you think you have it bad, imagine what the people in Indonesia and Peru are going thru. Some lost homes, some lost family....It could be worse. But things always work out for the best. I have hope for you, things will begin to look up, if it did for me it can for you. I now have my OWN house, a great job and am going to school!
You ever need to talk DONT hesitate to e-mail me.

Answer 4

Two years ago this November i suffered a heart attack at the age of 52. 100% blockage to my left anterior desending artery. Normally a fatal situation. I remember looking up as i lay in the back of the ambulance, into the sky and remembering a bible verse that said Life is like a vapor, here for a short time then gone. I could'nt belive at 52 my life was over and where did the time go? What should you do? I can honestly say that Life and Death are in the power of the tongue. And they that love it shall eat the fruit there of. You will never be alone if you receive Christ Jesus into your heart and into your life. In my moment of near death, i called on Jesus to not let me die and here i am today. I'm not preaching to you just telling you like it is. Do a Google Search and type in "The Wreck that saved Jack Warrens Life" My story my help you to see life is a Gift From God. Use it Wisely.

Answer 5

I feel very similar but also have not figured out a "right answer" to this yet. I fell into drugs, and it numbed me, and gave me a real reason to miserable everyday. THAT WAS NOT THE ANSWER (at least I don't think so, Ive been clean almost a year now, and sometimes want to go back, because I feel I almost enjoy being miserable, or at least having a real reason to be).
I too am searching for an answer like you. My resources are slim, so I have yet to be able to try out any of these ideas but here are some I thought of:
-Finding some kind of religon to give me a sense of purpose, being or fulfillment...
-Being around people who are happy (of course im a cancer and i reflect from those around me as i am ruled by the moon)
-Getting a job or volunteering somewhere that makes me feel purposeful
-Stop listening to depressing music (that brings me down alot but Im like addicted to it!)
-I wish I had the opportunity to speak with someone who has the ability to help me see the bigger pictures (as I am a very detail-oriented person)
-maybe that someone could help me try out a some medications (although in general im against that, but at this point I am willing to try anything)

I hope this helps! I am 23 and I feel the same way. Since Ive gotten clean I feel extra-isolated because I have had to stop talking to the majority of the people Ive hung around with for the last few years.
SMILE! At least you are not the only one that feels this way and theres someon out there who may not have the answers but took the time to share this with you!

Answer 6

Wow, have i been there in my twenties! I am at a point several years later and feel that way now and then. Everyone does once in a while. But....I would not change the wonderful life I have experienced in the years in between! Nothing bad lasts forever! Pull yourself together, make plans to do anything just by yourself, and don't rely on anyone else for anything. People will come to you eventually. Just remember, happiness starts with you and you need to find something to do that makes you happy.

Answer 7

me2 u need medication i just suffered a "break" becuase its all too much coiming back slowly with medication and possibty therapy ur not alone even if u think u are the world is full of caring helpful people many who have also suffered too.
U can find them online as well as off. Feel free to contact me and or any of the other nice souls who have and will reply to ur post

Answer 8

i feel this might be normal for 21 yrs. of age. the teen yrs are "gone" and now you must meet the world "head on"! its scaryyyy. i know i have been there myself~~but my life has been an on going living hell ! ~ i have been trying to figure out WHY i am even here and want to live...when i didnt want to live, i always was "handed" devastating news about ME....the last BIG one was I found out i had lung cancer. many times i wanted to die NOW and i mean NOW ! then along a answer would come ! if i was meant to die NOW, i would of taken care of it long ago. but fact is, i want to live and hopefully a LONG time yet....i will help fight in this battle to help others stay alive too. Think about involving yourself in "saving" someone elses life !!! it would be very gratifying ! and be proud of yourself ! when to start???? ~~~~~~~after you read my message ! we all need little angels to guide us...maybe i am yours ! best wishes to you , Jude

Answer 9

sad because i have nth to say..wish i could help tho.well youre not alone here i can say but obviously why you should care how other ppl feel,you need to do smth about you, right..im in college too,and what is sad i think i wont pull it off to my second year-it is because,contrary to yours,it lacks of intellectual side at mines..too meaningless being in there.oh well..anyways youre losing yourself obviously too,probably cuz you need smth REAL now,material(im not saying god is not real,only that you cant touch god with your hands-only with your heart)..i find it hard trusting other ppl too-i mean why on earth anyone should care about me at all?im too hard to take and i always hurt the ones i love most..my parents are divorced,and my mother is an addict also,and now the only person i care about and would give my life for has left away too leaving me alone(woo what a tragedy:/..she'll come back i know,but still)..
anyways you seem such an angry girl lol..relax abit and try stop stressing out(look whos talking lmfffao) it should help abit..wont solve your problems/depression but will overcome them for awhile..here,listen to some music ..lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWvEXChflEE

Answer 10

You are not alone...mostly everyone at one point in his life has felt this way. It just happens.

What you can do is stop over analyzing everything. You're only 21, you have your whole life ahead of you. Take it one day at a time...and be grateful for what you have.

I don't know about you or others, but I found my meaning in my faith in Christ. That gave my life meaning. I didn't get all that I hoped or wished for in this life...only what I needed to live a purposeful life.