suicidal??

Question

i dont want to live anymore. ive felt this way for a long time now. things have gotten better and then they went right back to how they were before.no matter how much i try to make my life better, some how, something out of nowhere comes and ruins everything ive worked hard for. im not pretty. and as much as people say its the inside that counts, you and me both kno thats not true. i realize that i cant handle life itself. but i dont want to cause problems for my family, if they have to pay for the funeral...and everything else.i just want to leave. i hate this world today. i dont feel the need to be here any longer. what should i do???

you act like it will make one difference whether i choose to live or die. i dont want to hurt my family, and i understand that i am depressed, but i am wasting my life. i used to have a good relationship with God. i used to pray to him almost everyday, until i realized i had to make a change on my own. i made that change, and now i am right back where i started. i used to blame everything on God, but i dont do that anymore. i just think that one happy moment in my life was not worth all that pain, and i dont plan on going through that again.

as much as i would like therary i dont think my mom would give two shits and we cant afford it anyway.

i dont know how but i dont feel the same way i felt five minutes ago. i am pretty sure this feeling will come back but i will try to to take a different appraoch and use the help you have given me.

thank you so much. to everyone. you tried to help me even if i would not be alive to give you 10 points. lol. but seriously, thank you, i have stopped crying and actually in a good mood. idk how. i guess it was your prayers or something thank you so much.

i really wish i could give all you best answer. you have shared your personal thoughts, and thats what really helps. i will try to get help.

Answer 1

Please reconsider. I have lost two family members due to suicide and it is devestating for the survivors. They never recover. Please speak to someone. Call a suicide hotline, see a dr. for medication. Tell someone what you are thinking and let them help you. With some help, you can have a better life.

Answer 2

I recommend you not look for answers from a bunch of Yahoos. There is no easy answer. You suffer from depression so if you get some medical treatment it could help. But even then its no promise made. Try to think of the things you do love in the world. The world is not a bad place, though people tent to make it look that way. Get out into nature where there is still beauty. Avoid the social element for while and get back to the natural state of life and maybe you'll see some things worth fighting for still. I'm sure you know people out there love you. Its the fact that you don't have the one special someone that loves you that's hurting you the most. The dating game is tough especially as superficial as the world has become lately. I cant talk you off a ledge, but It would be great if you come down and see if tomorrow looks a little better.

Answer 3

If it is a matter of what other people think then they are the ones with the problem. I used to feel the same way and I don't think you have a problem that you will not be able to work through. I know things may seem hard now life is full of ups and downs. You just need to find your personal joy in your life and you can't let others bring you down. Hold your head up join a supportive church group and learn to have fun. If things seem horrible occupy your time with good, fun, and supportive people. It really does not matter what you look like just how you carry yourself. Keep all those negative things out of your heart and even the bad circumstances will not seem so bad after all. Why give into the world why not try to conquer it instead. If you need a cheering section I'll cheer for you. Battle on girl the fight is never over and if you stop you'll never know what you missed. Never give up or give in fight if you have to. We need more good people like you in the world.

Answer 4

First, tell someone close to you how you feel. Either a family member or a friend. This will give you some support and help release the pain you have inside. Then, seek therapy or counseling to help you deal with these feelings. You will never know just how good your life could be if you kill yourself now. I know things will get better for you and when you look back on this moment you will be very glad you didn't kill yourself.

I can tell that some part of you wants to live very badly. That is why you asked for help. There is a voice inside you that won't let you let go of your life. Keep listening to it. It is the strongest part of you.

Answer 5

I'm glad your feeling better. There's a lot of us who care out here. We don't have to know you, we care! As for looks go too many say it and don't mean it, others actually live it. I've been told by friends for years (especially guys) that I'm great, just because they've seen me dating guys they think aren't good looking, I've even trashed a few girlfriends for being so shallow as to ask me why i would date someone they don't think is worth my time and i never once missed them. Listen, looks are exactly that, they don't last forever, they can be lost in a second, and it ain't so good knowing the only thing their intrested in is your looks, half the time they don't even care to know who you are, what you got to say, your just a challenge, a bet, a bragging point. I only wish we could spend a few months in each others shoes, god would we be pleased with ourselves and our lives. Don't get caught up in the looks trap. I always noticed that people who do, can't handle any change in age, their constantly checking, living in fear, it becomes their only asset and without it their lost. I was homely growing up (ugly duckling thing) and i always looked at it this way, there's always someone better, there's always someone worse. When i got good looking, i thought people were making fun of me, cause i looked the same to myself. But women are the first to let you know, they can be petty. Women are the first to not want you around, especially their men. At work you'll be the last invited to their homes, barbiques and such. Women are very distrusting they seem to think every other women is after their man. Believe me no matter what the problem, we've all got them and being pretty is no different.

Answer 6

First simple answer to deter your thoughts, if in fact you are contemplating that course of life. If you do so you will have run out of all the beautiful people in this life who genuinely delight in seeing you but cannot say so. You will have run out of options to remedy the situation and on a course of reliving the fact that you will never have a chance to improve your condition that will delight many.

The therapeutics remedy for your condition is right here at your favorite Yahoo site. There are an unlimited number of individuals and computer programs that can satisfy your new found purpose for living a fulfilling life.

I am not pleased that this is the way I got to be able to grasp your thought but I for one am glad and thrilled that you have laid out those thoughts online instead of someone else doing so from an obituary page.

Now that you are sufficiently full of a renewed reason to live so I can see that puppy dog mug of yours, here goes the killing part that will leave no lingering trace and you will depart and no one will ever find a body.

Find yourself in the vicinity of a group of crocodiles or alligator which ever you prefer. A layer to a group of lions, or find a place in the earth that the lava is spewing out at the hottest temperature that will singe your whole body and then get a running start, jump as high as you can and dive right in. The flames would have been thankful for the fuel.

Well I would think that should put a ray of determination in you by now if not make it your life’s duty to find me and not god. I will try to stop you it will however give you the thought to carry out the action simply to send you to a hell that does not exist. Still either way, you are safer here than in environments that restrict and does not grant you self fulfillment. Say goodbye to that old you and put on a renewed purpose, that of your own. !~CHANT~A~SEALLAH~!

Answer 7

Look twords a better tomorrow.

Im one strange looking fellow, Ive seen my fair share of ****, and im only 20 yet im over 30k in debt.
Yet I know that life is a wonderfull gift and I must push on through the hard times.
It's the bad times that make the good times feel so much better.
Also you have to realize life is like a wave there are ups and there are downs so just hang in there.
Oh and im not just talking bullshit I almost tried to kill myself when I was in the 9th grade. I just thought about how much time there was left in my life and how much things could change, and while things arent anywhere near where I had planned I know things will eventually get better.

Answer 8

I know the feeling. I believe that there is a purpose to life. It is worth living. People do love you. Its so easy to get depressed when you look at todays television and compare yourself to it. Heck! it depressed the hell out of me. I have found strength in reading about history to get a clear picture of where we are today as a member of humanity. If you want to die then do so with honor! Let your life count for something. give yourself over to a cause that you can live with passion. life is full of setbacks. expect them. You can never succeed if you never fail. Dont give up! The only way to know pleasure is to know pain. Life gives us both. Be patient it will come around again. Good Luck! You can accomplish your dreams. Make it so!

Answer 9

It sounds like you are severely depressed. See someone ASAP. There are a lot of people out there who are taking anti-depressants with great results. It may be a chemical imbalance that is causing your suicidal thoughts. I myself have thought about suicide more than once but it is so final. I don't know if you are religious but seek out a local minister. They have heard it all and can likely refer you to someone to help. Life can be extremely trying at times. Don't be afraid to ask for help. A year from now things may be totally different in your life and you will be glad you are still alive. With suicide there are many more victims than just yourself. I hope you get the help you need. God Bless!

Answer 10

This is a natural way to feel...believe me, I've been there. Someone described suicide to me as a long term solution to a temporary problem...and that helped a bunch.
I felt useless, I had shitty luck and I wanted (and indeed tried) to end it all on one occasion...but I am so glad I failed, because I had a revelation on my hospital bed.

When you feel useless...try finding a use for yourself. You can be fulfilled in many ways...a sport, a hobby...or helping other people. Volunteering your time, as I did, to drug users and the homeless truly showed me what I had to be thankful for...and gave me the will to live on.
You accept defeat if you kill yourself...it takes guts to stand up to the **** you face and come out smiling. DO NOT let **** get you down...keep smiling and you WILL come out the other side.
God loves you. Look to him for guidance.
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Answer 11

You've taken the first step. you've realized that you have a problem, and you told someone. That is a step that many people never get to. Next, what you need to do is get that help. Call a psychologist, a suicide hot line, anyone! Also, NEVER keep your troubles inside. VENT. Talk to people, see their opinions, and tell them that you are having problems, suicidal thoughts. They need to know, and will be glad you told them.

Good luck, and remember, Hell has no exit.

You're in my prayers. God bless you.