My life was great but now my life is over as far as i can see?

Question

There i was great at almost everything i did, intelligent, physically fit, mentally fit and just loving life, then i moved to england and got made fun of for being scottish eversince i was 9 i hated it now im 15 and all i can see i my future is crap i am hardly fit anymore i get angry so easily i have had professional help and i cant get rid of my anger i hold it back until the night wen i look at my self half naked thinking what a disgrace i curl up into a ball angry with myself scream into a pillow cry and tense everything in my body trying to force the anger out........ i used to hit my mum after my parents split up and now ive moved on and realised just how pathetic and stupid i was my brothers are scared of me i cant stop fighting with my dad my mum is still scared of me even tho i know i can control myself away from my family my anger burns away inside me and i hate myself i feel like i wanna commit suicide but the only thing stopping me is my cowardness, im too scared pleas help

Answer 1

the fact that you're too scared to do it is a good thing that means that u do still care about your life. i felt the same way all through high school. i went to college and met people who are just like me. just try to discover yourself. stop thinking about what other ppl think of you and worry about what u want for yourself. how u think u can make yourself a better person. and you need to apologize to your family. don't be afraid to admit when you are wrong. the whole answer to this problem is being true to yourself really.

Answer 2

Well, you're 15 so, you're very young. When your 16 you could move to a different school for A-levels so, problems of fitting in should be resolved with a new enviornment and more mature/open-minded people. Or if you go straight into work then, again, people should be nicer. And you can escape the people who annoy you.

As far as physical/mental fitness go. You're 15. Those are not things that are lost, never to be reclaimed again. If you work at it you can regain this and subsequently get back your self-esteem.

And for your family, just spend time with them and tell them what you've said on he. You've realised you were wrong and you're sorry for what you've done. Work towards fixing your relationship. Try to do things you'd all enjoy. Cinema etc.

Answer 3

You're going through a tough age and living in a foreign country certainly isn't helping. You might want to see a therapist, I think that it's free in the U.K., they can probably help you with your anger issues. Make amends with your family and apologise for your past behaviour and try to get a fresh start with them. Suicide is NOT the answer. I know that at this time in your life this is going to sound like crap advice, but hang in. Life gets exponentially better with time. I know that it's hard to believe that now, but it's true. I had a crap adolescents and then University was better, after graduating it got even better, now I'm in my 40's and my life has never been better (knock wood). This too shall pass. Good luck :)

Answer 4

If your family has been there and got you help in the past- they will do it again. You probably need to keep seeing an ongoing counselor or therapist and maybe taking medication for this problem. If you are already taking medication, maybe it needs to be adjusted or changed. Getting the right medication is a task.

If you killed yourself your family would have to suffer for the rest of their lives constantly hurting about your decision. Your brothers would be traumatized forever and you would be gone and unable to see things get better for you.

Good luck to you and i think you should try and talk to your mother about how you are feeling and try and get more or better professional help.

Answer 5

Oh, honey, don't talk like that. You're 15, you say? You have so much to look forward to!! What about driving, being able to legally drink, moving out of your parents' house, seeing the world, EVERYTHING! I think you just need someone to talk to, someone unbiased, who will just listen without judgment to everything you need to say. You sound like a very bright, sensitive, young person, and I would hate for that to all get thrown away.

Answer 6

Help COMES- to those who go out & GET IT. You were a "kid" years ago when you thought your life was "perfect"- NOW you're growing up & you're finding out that things aren't so great- afterall. Welcome to the Real World!!! Feeling sorry for yourself, or blaming everyone (& everyTHING) for your problems- is NOT going to make them go away. TALK to someone; a Teacher; a Clergyperson; a close Relative- WHOEVER, -about your feelings & situation, and KEEP ON doing that- until you find someone who'll LISTEN. We ALL have hard times in our lives; and we ALL have to "tough them out" & get on with it. No one situation- lasts forever. So get out there, find help- and good luck to you. (And don't take "No"- for answer!). :)

Answer 7

Ian, is that you? lol nevermind ian couldn't articulate his speech this well, but it's a perfect description of him tho. except for the scottish part. and theres no mention about the overly bitchy mom either.