What's wrong with me? Why am I so messed up?

Question

I'm 19 and I'm a girl. I feel very confused. I've gone through periods of time when I was attracted to both women and men. Then times when it was only men. I also go through days when I feel very feminine and others when I feel masculine. But most days, I feel neither extremely feminine nor masculine...just in between. I'm very self conscious of how I walk and talk...I try to appear as feminine as I can but it's hard sometimes.

What's wrong with me? Why am I like this?

I'm also attracted to gay guys.

It makes me sick to be described as a "woman" although I dont completely hate being female

Answer 1

you are young, and finding yourself.... dont make any rash decisions, and ride it out.......dont judge yourself too harshly, or allow others judgment to affect you.....we are human and unique, and as long as you arent hurting anyone.....well.... hope this helps.........

Answer 2

It's okay to be confused about things as long as you know you're not harming anyone else with your actions. It doesn't matter if you're feminine or masculine, it's great to be a bit of both. People who are excessively feminine or masculine usually end up quite annoying. It's tough being self conscious and paranoid, try to analyse things as objectively and calmly as possible, mostly other people are as confused and obsessive about themselves and not really noticing all the little things about other people, it's how society doesn't fall apart. Hope you work things out.

Answer 3

There could be several things going on. The feeling masculine/feeling feminine thing COULD mean you're genderqueer, or it could just depend on your monthly cycle and the different hormone levels.

Now, here's a thought: you could be a transgender drag queen. In other words, you could be a gay man in a woman's body who is interested in cross dressing. I've heard of it in very rare instances.

But really, you don't need a label for yourself. Be who you are. If you really hate being physically female, you could wait it out a bit and if you STILL hate it get hormone injections.

Good luck!

Answer 4

umm......
when you boil it all down,
men and women are the same,
the GOOD LORD
has put restrictions on what you can do...
being attracted to both men and women is not wrong,
(though thinking till you get wet is the same as doing in HIS eyes),

HE
gave
you
a
skin
freewill
choices
read
the
BOOKS compiled in the BIBLE
they
address
this
issue in great detail, though spread amongst the books,
in
this
day
and
age
those lines ('tween men and women)
are
being
extremely blurred by the deciever
so
as
to
make
you
more
subceptable
to
his
devieces
Recieving CHRIST as your LORD and SAVIOR will cement you in HIS will and HE will make you perfect the way HE wants
HE
HAS
RISEN

Answer 5

You don't have to identify your self in one catagory, everyone is a mix between two entities. Just roll with it, nothing's wrong with you. I suggest reading a few biographys of sexually adjusted people to feel comfortable with yourself

Answer 6

ok i get EXACTLY the same thing. right for one you sound very bisexual and two bigendered (the masculine and femine thing) OMG you sound like my twin i have these feeling too!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bisexual

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Genderqueer

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bigendered

Answer 7

you just aren't comfortable in your own skin yet. don't worry so much, just try to be happy!

Answer 8

Consult someone, anyone!