When I go around my family, my sperm donor side I'm quiet and that's not me, I grew up around them, my grand mom raised me up until I was 12 and then I was really on my own after that back and forth to different relatives house, I come alive when I'm around friends and associates, my boyfriend ask me why I act like that when I go around them and I say I don't know b/c I don't and I don't do it on purpose, my mom and dad lives the street life and jail is there first home, my mom gave birth to 5 of us and never raised us just gave us away, well she gave me to my dad s family and the others was gave to my moms dad, he was a great grandfather and he is the only 1 I feel really cared about us and what happens to us but he died and the next year my big brother got killed at 16 out on the streets trying to make a living b/c when didn't have no 1, our mom was very unfit and we had to live the street life, oops I got carried away!!
2007-09-02 05:51:14 · 4 answers · asked by Ms.Beauty 2 in Family & Relationships ➔ Other - Family & Relationships
Thank u all! tears came to my eyes as I read , I have tried to move on I even planned to have a baby at the age of 15 b/c I knew my baby would always love me and wouldn't toss me aside like trash, but how can I let go of the past when it wont let me go? I'm young and I need sum 1, my kids cant give me a mothers love its hard and lonesome and sometimes get jelouse of my children father b/c of the relationship he has with his mom, she is always there and I dont have any 1
2007-09-02 07:27:55 · update #1
Its like the older I get the more I shut people out of my life, and it seems like I only care about my kids and there father(boyfriend) I have siblings but its like I don't and I want to be a good sister but I'm not ready to be around them
2007-09-02 07:32:36 · update #2
Well it is because you love them but you do not trust them with your innermost feelings. So you shut yourself down so that you do not have to share that part of yourself with them. Since you could not rely on them to be there when you needed them the most, you prefer them to not really be there at all. This really is normal for someone in your situation.
2007-09-02 05:58:40 · answer #1 · answered by firemouse23 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hello Ms. Beauty,,,It sounds like to me that you have no respect for them and never will and I can really see why so I think that it's time to put it behind you and move on...If you live in the past then you cannot enjoy the future...I do know how ya feel though and it's not pleasant at all so forget it IT NEVER HAPPENED AT ALL and enjoy your life now..OK...Bob.
2007-09-02 13:00:45 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
sounds like you need to find someone to talk to but from what i think is cause you dont feel really safe or loved when your around them. i can understand that as i dont go around family . i only see my mom. but when your with your friends you feel safe and cared about for who you are. God Bless beleive in yourself to. remember you are not your mom or dad.
2007-09-02 12:59:46 · answer #3 · answered by tweettreat 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Maybe to many bad memories.
2007-09-02 12:57:04 · answer #4 · answered by Wild Bill 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋