is it wrong to feel this way???

Question

If my dad died tomorrow, I wouldn't really care! He's made my life very difficult, he's made it clear, he really doesn't like me, and he's just such a negative person, anytime your around him you feel a very negative vibe. I don't wish he died, I don't think you should wish death on nobody, but if he was to die, I wouldn't really feel bad, is that wrong.

Answer 1

According to the Bible, we're supposed to love everyone and God will help us to do this. I have been a Christian for about 15 years now. I was raised in a very devoted family. My dad's a pastor now, though he wasn't for most of my life. He was a deacon (volunteer, so he worked for Wendy's, often 50 or 60 hours a week or more on top of being a deacon, husband, and father) for much of that time. Anyway, he's a very hard worker and always has been. Because of that, when he got home, he would read books, watch television, or sleep most of the time. He also hated his job, so he would come home irritable. Now he loves his job, but he's still very distant and we aren't real close. I'm not sure how I would feel if he were to die today or tomorrow. I think I probably would feel worse for the rest of the family's sake than I would for missing him. There were times, in my weaker moments as a teenager, that I did want him to die or I wanted to kick the crap out of him. It certainly wasn't good and I'm not proud of that but it doesn't help anything to deny what you feel. God understands that we're fallen creatures. He wants us to depend on Him to love others, including our families. The other thing I've learned about God over the years is that He can make up for the places where my earthly father has failed me and God also helps me forgive my father so I don't live bitter my whole life, and God doesn't have to punish me for not forgiving come judgment day. God is the perfect Father. Life for a Christian still has its trials. Ultimately, we follow Jesus because if we don't we will face God's wrath for our sins (see the 10 Commandments for specific sins). But God does sustain us through the hard times and we always have the hope of heaven. It has to be rough to have a dad like that though. I'll pray for you, at least once (have to be honest; hard to care that much for someone on the internet that I'll never see but I do feel some compassion; God feels more). God bless you.

Answer 2

I feel the same about my mom. She was either abusive or cold to us. I will not miss her.