Past memories make me feel sad and angry?

Question

when i was a kid i knew things that a 8 year old shouldnt know i knew what sex meant,when i was 11 my sis told me that my father had a another son before he got married to mom (he didnt marry the other women he just had sex),when i was 6 i saw my father and mom fight hit each other,then my mom and sis used to fight my sis used to hit my mom and mom wouldnt hit back because she didnt want to i used see them fight and i cryed but i couldnt do anything,my father was an abusive man i hated him very much but he changed a bit after that but i couldnt think of a way to forgive him whenever i thought of forgiving him i remembered the another child the fights the way he treated my mom and sis mom siad that dad scolded sis for throwing a tennis ball in the neighbours yard that too in front of my whole family my uncles my aunts

this memories keep coming back again and again i stop think about itm helpp me please!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Answer 1

Being a person who was brought up by two functioning alcholics, and an absent mother I know about childhood neglect and abuse. Part of growing past this things is CONFRONTING them. That doesn't mean talking to mom and dad its about finding a healthy way to view what happen. That unfornutely takes time, love, or rather lots, and lots, of compassion and companianship. ANything less then that and I could understand you still hurting about this, it goes deeper then the old its not your fault stuff can ever go. Its about finding purpose in your life and a direction to go, its harder on us to take the tradional religion path because quite frankly we havn't been shelter enough, but we can't be entirly atheist ether becasue lets face it, we have hope. So realize also that alot of your getting thru, has to do with educating yourself, experience as much as the world as you can, and finding as many good people in it you can. Also just talking about it with someone else is a big help to, actually the frist step! So your doing good, keep moving forward, and heck I got another way you can get ahold of me(my account, email) if you just want to vent are relate more about it....