ecstasy / mood?

Question

my e count is about 15. i haven't dropped for 2 months+
i don't feen for it but sometimes(rarely) i miss it. yet i almost forget how good it feels. i want to be there again when i listen to techno music. i never was gone to the point where i'm unconscious.. i'm always conscious when i took it and i haven't really had a come down at all. the worst is feeling blank..
my personality and opinion has stayed almost the same but i feel different towards a lota stuff. i still feel like myself but feel emotionless and careless sometimes. i used to be those people who cared for every little thing was an alcoholic. was very pessimestic and now i really feel like just whatevers. although i still do care a lot for certain stuff. oh yeah and i'm not an alcoholic like i used to be anymore.


am i just tired/on the downers side or does 15 pills even make a difference for who i am today?

i want to drop again but don't wanna **** up
what should i do with myself
am i just lonely

Answer 1

You should study Emotional Intelligence. That leads you to intuition and spirituality. Intuition connects you to the right brain where all your happiness is and endorphins, morphine. Natural drugs will make you, the others can break you. Part of what keeps you up is not judging, descriptive words, forgiving, you don't hate anyone and love. Funny, I guess we where meant to be on drugs, just not the street kind. The right brain also has the pain killers, nitric oxide. So, see, you just never learned to get on the natural stuff. Look under my profile for some info.