sucide note?

Question

no i m not emo just to get that out of the way
but i have been thinking alot about sucide
this girl i was sorta friends with she was alway a ***** to me and i told her off and told her to get it through her head that i don't like her beause of the way she treated me , i felt like a door mat.
now from my point of view it looks as though she's trying to get everyone to hate me
and stuff at home has bulided on top of this as well , my mother does'nt listen to me she ignores me and sits on her laptop and talks to her internet "boyfriends" it really bugs me and i wanna change schools but she does'nt care , yes i've tryied talking to her about whats happing and she goes" oh well thats life" .
i m not ugly , ive been told i'm heaps pretty
but now i don't even think that anymore ...
any advice you can give
please don't critse me or be mean to me i really don't need it now
thanks
x.

yeah i understand what your saying but i had one of my best friends kill himself last year , i m cool with some people .
the guy i liked and he liked me back hates me now , it sucks
i m myself , i don't care what people think but ghezzz it gets on your nevres after a while
sometime i wonder if i should do it and what would everyone reaction be ?
would they care or not?

just so you know i m a girl who is 15 years old

Answer 1

this will all pass sweetie,, she's a cow by the sounds and she will come un done, they will see past her crap.. and as for ya mum.. well maybe talk to her nicely at a time when she's not on the net....tell her serioulsy over dinner or while she's cooking. ive got a 13 yr old girl and if she approaches me when im concentrating and if she sounds agro im not as responsive , it's a bit hard to tell with u teens these days sometimes... changing schools is a bit drastic... ride it out and be the strong one.. u don't stay young forever so focus on the good points.. there are plenty just look harder.

Answer 2

Being young and beatiful it hard, now that's the reason why you getteting pick on its because you got some thing they don't have. My mother usto said "Don't worry when people talk about you that means you doin fine, worry when they stop talking thats when you doin wrong" Try to find other places and new friends to hang out outside of that place that makes you so sad. Volunteer some place where nobody know you and try to start all over againg, give you self a second chance don't give up. Go at there and realize that not every body on this planet it's not the same. You give your self a chanse. You will see that this and every thing else bad that happen will past. Yes stay in school! you only have to be there part of the day but when you get out after school it's over, find a place were you can make you on. Were you can think only in you and how to make you happy, with people who really care. Don't worry you don't have to look for them good people will come to you. Take walks in the park, go to the beach, church. Voluteer with kids, in a hospital. May be when you see how the other have live your problems won't be so big. You are asking for some body to take you out of that dark place you are take my avice and find and make another world one that will make you proud. School its not everything don't make it your all. There's so much more and you can't leave with out seeing it . Don't give power over you to other people! You can go and get mental health. Its not because you're crazy. Some time we need a place we can call our own, were we can talk with out no worrys. You can get one in any hospital with out your parents consern or anybody else knowing it, even if your parents fint out your doctor can't tell no body what you and him talk about. He can also help you with your problems in school. If any in the source list I will give you some number that can help! Please don't be afraid to ask for help! Good luck to you!!

Answer 3

it sounds like you've got a lot going on. a girl who starts s*** with you and tries to get other people in on it as well, a mom you who doesn't give you attention or listening to what you really have to say and i'm sure you could add a couple of more things as well.... but if you really think about it, although you are not being treated the best, your situation doesn't really sound bad enough to kill yourself at all... being a teenager is hard and is probably one of the most difficult times in life, but there are so many amazing things ahead of you if you just hold on and get through the difficult times. its worth it. till then, try to find some new friends, journal to get out your feelings, maybe go to some counseling, take up a new hobby like painting, drawing, singing, piano, sports anything and start doing things that make you feel good. and as for the people at school that treat you bad...i had a few bully's too... i was kind of the ugly duckling, but you know what i've actually turned into the swan. so hang in there, things will get better.

Answer 4

hi pal
ur problem really touch me& pained me
have patience
i know &understand that u r going through a critical & frustrating phase of ur life
but pleaze remove that SUICIDE word from ur head
i know it ll be depressing 4 u if some1 be mean or critisize u
butread thes mail wiz a cool head & mood
hey till now i really dont know wheather u r a girl OR boy!!
whoever u r
pleaze ignore that friend of urs who is being nasty to u!
if ur other friends are sincere to u they ll never listen to her

moreover have a straight talk wiz ur mom
dont u have a dad??to whom u can talk seriously
according to me ur mom wanna be alittle alone & a bit distant from u
perhaprs she s trying to run away from reality or she wanna make her lie again !!!!!!!
sory dont mind
i ll strongly advice u if (if its of course advantageous to u )
change ur school & the whole atmospher will change
becoze otherwise ull be more depressed & do irrversible things

moreover bear in mind that
depression is like quicksand the more u get entangledd in it the more ull lose hope 4 living

thing little bit of thos helpless &sad people(victims of rape,war,physical disabilities..........................)
burt those people constantly are fighting wiz time & others to lead a respectful & peaceful life
i not being ironical
but think a little bit
i guess u a of the age 16_20?
till now hasnt u done much sacrifices in terms of leisure time hapiness ...........
so do u want that that little life that u ve live be a wastage??
hey try to make new friends & motivate yrself to be hapy ....&do better in studies

be hapy
GOD bless
ANYWAY IF ive deen rude sory
being a girl i can tell u that u & only u ull be a loser if u ll suicide!!!!!!if really problem could be solve by suiciding till now 3/4 of the population would have been in grave
like ever1 i also have problems
& though
im pessimist but have never opted for such ways to lessen my problms

GOD has send u on earth hell show u the right way
don t be in hurry
bye if u wish u can mail me
&gave me feedback or critize me
im here to listen to u
don t worry every thing will go on smoothly.............its just an abrupt turn in ur like
bye take care!!!

Answer 5

HEY!!!!!READ THIS!!!!!First off, good for you for several reasons..#1-you told that ***** off & you are no longer a door mat.That was a very brave thing to do, something I couldn't have done @ your age because I desperately wanted to be liked by everyone, even the ****heads that no one liked.#2-you went to your mom & told her what's up & she seems so self-absorbed that nothing got through.But you tried, which is something I never could do either because my mom was never home & she always made me feel unimportant.I thought about suicide A LOT @ your age.I am now 15 years older than you & I look back all the time & I'm so glad I didn't do it.My life is so great now but @ your age, I never thought that I would be "normal" or happy one day.All I could see was the bleak, sucky, everyday crap in front of me.I wanted to die, I planned it out, I dreamed about it.I even wrote it out as a play of sorts, a very morbid play.And what it all boiled down to is I really just wanted to see who would care enough to be @ my funeral...how pathetic.All those people who crapped on me...I wanted to know if they would feel bad & show up & think, "Man, if I had just been nicer to her, maybe I could've saved her so that the next day, I could go back to treating her like crap again." I think you are stronger than you let on, & I think you are better than all this.You posting this tells me you need to talk to someone who will not just listen but HEAR you, & you have been heard by me.Please do me & the rest of the world a favor & go on to live through your horrible, crappy teenage years(I'm being totally sincere, not sarcastic) so that one day, you may look back & say,"HA!!!Look how far I've come from where I was!"You see but one road in front of you now-a dead end.What you don't realize is just a little farther down, it actually forks & you have choices & decisions, things to get you out of this hell you are in.You are brave & strong & I bet very pretty inside & out.PLEASE don't be another statistic-live to live your amazing life yet to come.I promise you will get through all this..I did & I see some of me in you.Take care & let us know you are still out there...

Answer 6

You've got so much to look forward to. I remember being in High School/Middle School and hating my life. I had reasons (I thought) to hate my family, I thought they were so wierd, my Mom yelled all the time, my sister was the wierd kid at school, my family generally did not "fit in." My friends made fun of me because I didn't have any fashion sense, I was extremely shy, I had bad grades in school, no self esteem, I thought about suicide more than I'd like to admit. But, I just couldn't do it. Now, I'm 26, single, and content. My family still doesn't "fit in" and I love them for it. I'm still awkward in social settings, although I'm not as shy, I'm still a homebody. It's because I've learned to love myself. There really isn't a recipe for it, but if you want it bad enough, it just happens. Then the whole world could hate you and it really wouldn't matter. I know you probably don't want to hear that you shouldn't let other peoples's opinions of you matter, I know how important it is at your age, but if you just keep on going, you'll realize just how unimportant others opinions really are. I don't believe in God or anything, and maybe you do or don't, but either way, your existence, your life is a miracle and you shouldn't extinguish it before it's run it's course.

Liezel.

Answer 7

Sometimes it hurts when we find out that a person we cared about is not the friend we thought they were. On top of that, your mother is being very neglectful.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Your problems will be resolved eventually if you just deal with them for awhile.

I would suggest that you speak with your school counselor about how you are feeling. Explain that your mother will not speak with you, and that you need some moral support right now, because you have been depressed over the lost of your friend. They are trained to deal with the problems of students, and will be able to better help you than this site.

Answer 8

Life does suck sometimes, but please see down the road that it will get better, because it will and you will look back with a smile because you made it thru. Dont let people like that get to you, they thrive on other peoples pain, things will come back around to her eventually. Find something to do, there are girls just like you out there. Volunteer for something, anything, this will pass. You be strong and dont take all this **** so serious, cause it really isnt. Talk to us all you want, e-mail me, you can find strength in the weirdest places. Hang in there sweetie, you will be glad you did. Throw that thought out of your head now. This too shall pass.

Answer 9

suicide is a non forgiven sin!! ur going straight to hell and its definitely worser than what you're going through rite now. You need a new environment! i assume ur still in high school, join a club or two, you'll meet friends are that worth being friends with. Don't let anyone treat you like shiiiit! learn to stand up for yourself....there's more to life! explore.... you'll eventually know the reason of living!!

Answer 10

First off, suicide is the cowards way out and you don't sound like a coward. As long as you live you can change things in your life, once you die you're stuck that way eternally.They may not be easy changes but you are the one who controls them to a degree. Friends are being "s**ts? make new friends. As I say it may be hard but you can do it. And they don't have to be friends in the same school. Mom doesn't listen to you? Go find someone who does. Older friend,aunt,uncle, counselor. Learn to like yourself,as you are, cuz if you don't like you everyone else will find it hard to.There are those who will like you no matter what tho cuz they "see" the inside you.As in "Shallow Hal" Good luck and feel free to write if you feel like it.