feelings q?

Question

this girl asked:last night i had a dream that i was going out with my crush...and that he loved me...does this mean anything.
I've had many about my crush. Was it because it's what I wanted? Only what I wanted, and he never cared? The feelings were way way way way way way too deep to not be true, right? I mean he asked me out but I don't know.
I know I shouldn't be insecure. But I can't help it. He was not a popular, but had a lot of skater friends. I sorta knew them.
I knew what they thought of me. I doubt they hated me, I'm a pretty nice girl, too nice. But I'm different then them.
I'm basically different then most people. Not normal different, I mean different. It's been hard for me.
If I ever get to talk him, how do I talk to him about my guilt. I had felt so guilty, for years, for months I was haunted by the worst nightmare possible.
It was stuck in my head. What about the sadness? And lately the hate for him? Thinking I gave me whole heart to him. I would have done anything for him.
Or almost anything, and to me, it can be a scary thing. The hate, if he never cared at all.
The pain and guilt and sadness. And thinking he left because of me. Thinking I was stupid, blind, dumb. Thinking he never cared at all. I'm a lover not a fighter, I can't say it.
This is my head, being smart, Analyzing. I think he's a good guy, and probably loved me, I hope he did anyways.
He had a gf for a few months. In mid July, they broke up. I'm sure he knows how I feel. If we do talk, end up together.
I'm a little worried, that relationship was important to him. I know he's allowed, I want him to be happy.
But the insecurity in me feels like I'm second to her. He and I have history though. I'm worried if people find out, especially her.
I don't want to look bad. I can't help how I feel though.
For me, there

Answer 1

Relax!!!! Your putting way to much of your self-worth on this guys descions which is a hard thing not to do, but a big relationship no, no. Espacially with the relationship you have with him, which is more romantic love, and less real love. Because lovin isn't enough its about your ability to use that to better strength the relationship and it would seem you've been slackin on talking with this guy about the way you feel. Which now your in a catch-22, were you feel so much stuff you want to talk to him about, but can't. Which would drive anyone crazy, but this happens alot when we love a stranger. Doesn't feel like there a stranger, but we relate to them like they are, because were so scared what they might do or say, when we should know! Thats why we get with them. So your in the classic relationship catch-22 hunnie, sorry, but its our social structure that really keeps deep and geniune relationships for occuring, but still keeps us loving like they are.... your only way thru this is a choice, ether you let this go and "move on" (ouch, hard!) or you talk to this boy eye 2 eye, heart 2 heart, about the state of your feelings. Just realize that there is NO WRONG way to talk from the heart, theres just not saying anything at all...... so go! salvage this relationship!