So tired.................of my broken life and family what to do?

Question

I don't love anything anymore not even myself I hate everything I feel like crawling up and dieing at time's I live in my own world not in reality I lie like this because I hate my life and how horrible it is my mom won't take me fuc*ing seriously when I say I'm depressed she doesn't believe me she doesn't know it but there's time's when I lock myself in my room and bawl my eyes out there's noone to confide in noone I trust my bff is myself am I wrong???????????????

I have tried to make a list of everything I like about myelf turned into one of what I didn't like. I have gotten hurt emotionally by a boy I loved my friend that sucked he wants to be just frined never dated or anything my whole fathers side of the family doesn't have anything to do with me since my parents divorced when I was 6 I'm so tired of everything I could stay in bed all day.

im so unhappy i dont need volunteer **** dont even pull that nothing works i really feel like lieing down and dieing

ive tried going to church i was raised in church i was baptized and saved beofre i went into depression i know im in the deepest stages

cheering was something i loved to do but i gave it up even though i lived it so much i dont have money basically dirt poor im a sad person im dreary i know i dont hang with my friends any more im basically alone in this world my mom dumps all her worries on me even though i tell her not to it seems like the world would be better off with without me my dad doesnt have anything to do with me

i have to paint a smile on my face everyday so people wont see and since my mother doesnt take me serikously idk what to do im so tired i keep crying right now my tears keep rolling down my face could i be having a nervous breakdown?

i have gave up on dreams on everything on love on everything in life if it was an option i would stay in bed all the time

i dont trust anyone in life i never have any money im not 16 im tired of everything in life everyone i always trusted even my mom skrewed me into the ground i always got money and mom would borrow it she hasnt paid me back either she owes me over $500 i was gonna save that money if i could keep money then maybe things would be better for me but always can i ''borrow'' it and i promise to pay you back when i get my check never happens she ''borrowed'' my b-d money never got it back never did i get it was also the christmas money i had gotten i have a lockbox but she had a key when i was younger she ''borrowed'' it never gave it back always lets my brother take sh*t thats mine i end up having to help pay for his food too becuase he wont get a job i have 5 years and 3 months and 2 days until i become a legal adult

im fat and ugly i didnt have a child hood had to grow up fast and have to act like im 20 right now dropped 2 sizes in 2 weeks dont sleep good

i have had a serious talk and she doesn take ay action i tell her im depressed and then all she says is i am too and then i talk aboutt he oney sit where i never have any and neither doesn anyone else and i know sweetie what else and i tell her and its oh i see what this is about its because of i dont have a bf its not that really i get shi**ed on by everyone and taken for granted

i just tried telling her and shes all what are you sooooooooooooo depressed about see she doesn believe me

boy lover delte your answer it has no reference to this!

how can i ''jumo'' ahead i have nothing to ever look forward to in life?

my mom gets all dramatic im tired of a lot of things

Answer 1

sweetheart!we have all felt like that and one time or another!!
now what you have to do is take one problem at a time and try to solve it!!
can't solve it?then go to the next one!one of those problems can be solved!!i just know it!!

take your mother aside and have a serious talk with her!!make her see how you feel!

Answer 2

I hate to say it but welcome to life. You sound like your about 15. I know what it's like. You hate school, you feel like your not cool and you hate what you see in the mirror. You feel like no boy is ever going to love you and this is the end of the world. You have no idea how many people can relate. Adults too. If you are not sleeping and loosing weight then I would say you are depressed and may need meds. Don't start relying on medication at such a young age unless you absolutely have to. When I was your age my father split and I had a raging alcoholic for a mother. My sister got into trouble and drugs and is paying for it now. She is still messed in the head. I found better things like my church and cheering. You need to find your good thing and try not to worry about all the bull crap. You'll have plenty of that to deal with that when you get older. Find someone to talk to that you can trust. If not your mom, maybe someone else's mom or a teacher. Stay away from negative people. They will only bring you farther down.

Answer 3

If someone said 'go ahead, do away with yourself' you would probably say 'GET LOST', so why listen to yourself saying the same thing.


Depression is a terrible disease and it is a shame that noone in your immediate family is taking you seriously.

There are many things you can do to improve your life and the way you feel about yourself. However all of these things involve YOU doing something. Life will not come along ''fix' things for you.

The person above who said you are focusing too much on yourself is right in many respects. Try to start looking outside of yourself. (At the moment you are not helping yourself by wallowing in self pity).

Physical exercise (get outside in the fresh air, and move your body - this is a great help in depression)

Improve your diet (remove simple carbohydrate and replace with complex carbohydrates. Add Vitamins B, C and Zinc as suppliments to improve brain chemical balance)

Talk to a councellor or older friend, or contact one of the helplines (Lifeline in Australia) and get someone else to help you look at the problems in your life and find the things you can change and the things you need to learn to accept.


Life is a thrilling adventure, jump in the water is fine!! Good luck and remember to reach out to others instead of only listening to yourself.

Answer 4

U need GOD n ur life. He is the only 1 that can help u to come out of this depressing that u r going through. I have been there & done that. All I wanted to do was sleep and not be bother with anyone, not even my daughter. I had an bf but it was as if I was by myself. Then I start to seek God for myself and I came out of it.U 1st have to learn to love urself and find out what it is that u like & dislike. Once u learn 2 love urself then life will become much easier to u. God is the only somebody that can give u that peace in ur life when all else fail seek God, u can not go wrong with him.

Answer 5

No, you are definitely NOT wrong. I've had depression myself, and it certainly sounds like you're exhibiting symptoms of depression. If you're in school, definitely talk to your school counselor about it ASAP. He/she can talk to your parents on your behalf. If you are still living in your parents' house, and you're dependent on a parent for your income, they are legally required to take you seriously, or otherwise they can be charged with neglect.

If you're above age 18, you're considered an adult, and your parents don't have to take you seriously. If that's the case, then go to your local low-income clinic, and explain your situation to them. They will help you get the treatment you need.

The first thing you need to do though, is talk to someone about your feelings. Tell a friend or family member you trust what is going on in your life. You'll feel much better after you do.

Answer 6

You definitely need to talk to someone.
See a counselor, they can help you tons.
Call your county health department and ask them for one. They want to help you.
My daughter was depressed and I called the insurance and got her to a counselor, she was in the adolescent psych ward and they did wonders for her in a week. She learned how to stand up to the bullies at school.
Get an adult to help you if nothing else. Go to a church and talk to a minister or whatever religion you want to go to. That is what they are for and they want to help people.
There are people who will help you, they want to help you. Most of them know what you are going through.

Answer 7

Take all that pain and anger and decide to release it through writing or a sport or whatever. When you can't change a situation you have to change your attitude about the situation and even though it's hard it'll bring about amazing change.

Answer 8

You are focusing WAY too much on yourself. Even when you try to focus on the good things...it's still focusing on yourself. When you are so self absorbed, that is un natural, and your psyche goes in the pooper!

Focus on helping others. Volunteer in your community- just try it, you might just see that when you put your energy into something more worthy than yourself, you become worthy!!