Why do I feel this way about him? What's with me?

Question

I'm a woman with self-respect, independent, picky on who i'm interested in and i'm very honest and decisive with my feelings. If I don't feel it, I know it's not worth it and i can easily say "no" but if there's that "something", i'll go for it.

Typical story: we've been close friends for about 3 years; i was always the girl that "opened him up" - he felt comfortable w. me and could easily tell me things compared to other people where they would question him about things. He's a "shy" type with girls and keeps to himself with his own personal matters but open and outgoing with others. Since we've met he's always adored/respected me. Earlier this year, i realized i felt the same way and he did, so we kinda "got together" (kisses/cuddles) and I was his first kiss (we're in our 20's). But after this, we decided not to rush and become friends. About a month later, he lost his friend and everything went downhill with out relatiionship. He's been acting so strange and it's hard to be patient and understanding with his behavior. I'll go through ups and downs and some days i'll "hate" him but i really can't "hate" him, i'll just love him no matter what...

This is the first time i haven't "talked" to him for this long in 3 years - i don't want a relationship now or anytime soon but I'VE REALIZED WHAT A BLESSING HE IS to my life and i just plain miss him. I think i'm going crazy but i feel that what we had was real - our relationship as friends AND beyond was the most precious and special gift God has given me. I never realized that he was THAT important and that i need him - he was ALWAYS there, he accepted and loved me for what i was, never let me down, very loyal and trustworthy, someone i can talk to and who can understand every piece of me.

Technically, he wasn't my first kiss but with him, i've felt like he was the one that gave me first one because it was soo real and i've NEVER been kissed like that. He's not good at expressing himself but his little actions show me how much he cares...


Why do i feel this way about him?

it's not "i love you, i love you too"...it's "you're an amazing person and i feel like you're an amazing blessing from God...i...you're just amazing..."

after all the tough times we've been through and that we're going through, it sucks but i still love him...i never make excuses for guys but i know he means well and it's not his fault he's inexperienced...he's learning but it doesn't excuse him...but i still love him...:(

Answer 1

i think love is actually very simple and straightforward.... (only by thinking too much about it people make it complicated)..

there is only one reason: you love him!!! thats explains everyting...

i donno how he feels about you whether as a just good friend or anything else..

donot complicate things..just accept the fact that you love him and tell him so.. i guess then many things will be clear then and you will get the answer you want........

Answer 2

you are in love with him yet no matter what any says it shows from your question , my honest thoughts .??/

Answer 3

holy crap! aint nobody gonna read through all that!