Why cant I let go?

Question

History is in the making for my life. But I can never seem to forget about my past. To much memories of pain and hurt. Every time i think of my past, a tear drop rolls down my cheek. But then when i think about what the world holds in store for me, a smile is thrusted apon my face. "Why can't I let go?" I ask myself everyday, and never seem to find an answer. Was it because all the beatings I took, will make me see how much more i have. Or to remind myself of who I really am, and to show the person behind the mask. Looking back is painful, but it also is to forward. Would I be judged wrong because I would forget those who have nutured me from birth? Would I be looked at differently? I WANT to let go, but i cant. I seem to hold a grudge agianst everyone. To all those who made me feel worthless, and uneeded.

Why can't I let go????

Answer 1

You can let go and you have let go, you said you see the future and then you smile. See there is a big difference in letting go and forgetting. The pain and hurt of the past is 'NEVER" forgotten, we just store it away and hope that the cobwebs of time will engulf them. If we were to forget our pain and past woes, we would have nothing to fear. No that we should fear anything, but to know pain, lets one know that that is something that they never want to feel again, so while the pain experienced, in the past, when you were young, you had no control over, now you are older, you know what you want and will be bothered with as opposed to knowing what you don't want and won't be bothered with. So let the memories sit in that part of your mind with the cobwebs and you go to the now part of your mind and make new, more pleasant memories for the future. Time does heal all wounds but many wounds leave scars and the scars are there to remind us of the pain and what was and what could be. Future pain hasn't been felt yet so there is no recollection or anyway to comprehend it, so we don't dwell on it and we continue forward. The past is just that, the past, and each and every day is new with multiple possibilities, dwell in each new day and rejoice in it. God Bless.

Answer 2

well theres nothing that anyone can say that will help you change yourself of this situation. I felt the same way before but over love. I couldnt let go of my first love. it was all too difficult. But i realized that if i didnt, i would keep crying, keep hurting inside. I couldnt do that to myself. You cant do this to yourself either. Theres a reason why its called your past. You learn from it and change to make your future better. Holding grudges is really high school drama. Ignore and avoid the people that make you negative or who are negative and be around positive people it'll make a big difference. Sometimes people hold onto the past becuase thats the only thing that doesnt change in life. You might be scared to move forward. Go above and beyond. you can do it.

Answer 3

Maybe it's a memory your mind won't want to forget. It want's you to remember it. I've known from experiance. When i was 6, a man got shot in front of me. A very horror picture when your right next to the guy, but anyway that might be PTSD which means:

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is the term used to describe a severe and on-going emotional reaction that results from exposure to extreme stress and / or trauma.[1] Clinically, such events involve actual or threatened death, serious physical injury, or a threat to physical and/or psychological integrity, to a degree that usual psychological defenses are incapable of coping with the impact. It is occasionally called post-traumatic stress reaction to emphasize that it is a result of traumatic experience rather than a manifestation of a pre-existing psychological condition. The presence of a PTSD response is influenced by the intensity of the experience, its duration, and the individual person involved. - Wikipedia

By the way, not really anything but, you sound alot like when i remember horrible memories.

Answer 4

we remeber pain so we learn from it your life happenings will make you a better person in the future , look to the future dont dwell on your pass in time you will 4get some of it