Why Does this guy still hates me after all this time but hurt as will?

Question

This boy name Martin liked me ever since we was 11 and I ask him out when we was 14 then he found the truth I was only taking the fun out of him and he was really hurted I was his very first love and I crush his heart to pits anyway I went out with his friend name chris and we used to stand outside of martin house evertime we finish school to wait for martin so we can hurt him and we used to french kiss to hurt him and we used to do that at school with everone taking the fun out and Nobody believe him I ask him out and evertime he told the truth everbody used to shout at him but before I saw chris, I did had a sex contact with martin I push myself up him by feeling him up the backside and I did push all my dirty parts on to him, I never knew how much he care about me anyway martin confront me about everthing and told me the truth and said he loved me and with everthing what we was doing to him, martin went to start doing bad things to me and chris

in witch the police come on and everthing went to court, Martin was put in cell for few hours and my mom and dad and chris family was trying to hurt martin, and martin family had to leave and the school never believe martin that I ask him out and I told the school a lie. Martin lost 1 year of his school thanks to this school, and they kept me and chris. Martin was going to kill himself till my mom stop him, anyway Martin won the court. and yea the police did catch us standing outside martin house before the court, anyway I haven't seen martin since, then I catch chris was is underwear down looking at nude women on the net and that was over between us two , 7 years later me and martin saw each other and we both was just looking at each other, and I could see abit of tear in his eyes with hurt, but he looked at me in a soft way, why would he still have feelings for me after everthing I done to him, I mean we both was teenages when he had feelings and I think he still loves me

and why would martin try to hurt me I mean if he really loved me why would he also do bad things too, " I have post this question before its just I don't have no one to talk to and more people who talks to me about this I feel alot better

Answer 1

Yea I remember you, wasn't to happy with your classic view of how relationships can't be understood so I left you alone, but since your a glutton for punishment and you want some honesty, well here I'm. Ether way the reason people don't understand love like your (If he loved me why did he hurt me bs) is becuase THAT IS LOVE!!! YES MA'AM. Guess what too? You kissin chris infront of Martins house, THAT WAS LOVE TOO!!! Yes ma'am! Werid huh? Love doesn't mean disney bs, love is an emotion whose job it is to excite (sometimes fearfuly) feelings in our minds, our hearts. The warmer the feeling, the deeper the feelings, doesn't really mean deeper the love, just deeper associations. Ether way your a mean individual yourself so why question him on that? Why ask him out, then go with his friend chris? Your a cold charater really. Also realize that because of the nature of this, because of the nature of love, he could never think about you again, see you at the retirement home, remember who you are and LOVE YOU!!! Its that crazy, because he'll feel for you, he'll remember, and he well feel something, weather its bitter or sweet is up to his perception, because in the end love isn't enough ether way, its what we do with it, and you really shouldn't be handling love, I hope at some point you learned to emphsise better because that was truly a cruel chapter in your story..... love is like fire, people like you I hope get bured! Unfornuntley it would seem only he had a heart big enough to burn, you on the other hand, still act like you don't feel a thing, guess what THATS HATE! Enjoy...... strange how it works right?