If I come out the closet !!! ( I feel sick) I hate ebing gay !!?

Question

I won't have any friends ..

People may say well .. they wern't your real friends in the first place ......... So what am I suppose to be a lonerrrr lol...

My family Is homophobic and annoying and my mom will look overllly stupid about always bragging about my "girlfriends" and stuff

I just can't but I feel I have to because Im becoming sick in the inside !! I can't take it anymore I can't live hiding this secret but I can't live exsposing it I have 10 aunts and uncles 70 cousins .. 12-15 closeeee frineds that I chill with on the regular .. It's just to many people to confess I'm gay to I just cant but It's making me sick in the inside .. I've been drinking alot lately and. It seems to make my problems worse. I really don't want to live anymore .. I want to kill myself I seem perfectly fine on the outside but Im hurting in the inside .. I pray and pray .. but nothing works there no one I can turn to my own mother made a comment when she thought a friend of mine was gay she said ..

Your friends seems gay a couple of your friends do I hope you aint gay and If you are . I don't wanan know and keep it a secret cuz no one needs to know its like shes in denialll.... I love my friends I cant lose em I love my family 2. People can say well they wont your real friends or your real family etc.. so say they arent wtf am I to do when I have no one because eveyrone is gonna diss me.

I'm not that crazzy to kill myself or cut myself but I don't want to live life is to hard .. I wish I could drift off in my sleep tonight !

Answer 1

First! let me relate an experience!
in my daughters realm of best friends since kindergarten was a child names Joseph.
Joseph was not like the other boys, it was quite plain to me.
I added Joseph to the sleep over list of all my daughters girlfriends, and parties.
She and Joseph and two other female friends went to senior prom together as a group years later. Joseph was the prettiest, believe me!
One day about a YEAR AFTER GRADUATION Joseph came over about dinner time, so I set a plate and Joseph sat down. He was silent for a long time...Then he said," mom, dad, I need to tell you something!" We all waited for something earth shattering..."Mom,Dad, I need to COME OUT OF THE CLOSET!"
Now I know this was not a great reaction, but we LAUGHED for TEN MINUTES really.
What that poor kid never realized is HE WAS NEVER " IN " THE CLOSET!!!!!!!!!!
I never stopped loving him for himself! My daughter's friend, one of the gang! BUT...
Perhaps, what I am trying to say is, maybe you are not as IN the CLOSET as you think. Maybe people would be more comfortable with the admission of TRUTH than playing the game, is he isn't he, is he isn't he!
Probably doesn't help,but It is my experience, and I can only speak for me!

Answer 2

First of all, let me say my thoughts and prayers are with you. It's not easy coming out when you don't have the support of those that you love and care about. Everyone wants to be accepted for who he/she is, especially those who mean something to him/her.

You have a path in front of you that is not easy to walk; however, it is not impossible. Many have gone before you with this similar situation and survived. Be encouraged, blkboy. There's hope.

I'm not sure how old you are, but if you're a teenager, there are places you can look into that are safe for you. Where I live, there is a group for teens who come together for socializing and being around other glbt youth. You can find this information at your glbt community center (if your town/city has one). Some schools have a Gay/Straight Alliance for students.

As far as your mother is concerned, she may very well know that you're gay. She may be in denial about it, but I believe she knows. Mothers know their children. lol! She feels the need to brag about your "girlfriends" and she's letting you know in her own way that if you're gay, you need to keep it to yourself. She's probably afraid to hear those three little words: "Mom, I'm gay." She may be genuinely concerned for you. She probably doesn't want to see you, her child, go through changes because of who you are. She knows more than you think she knows.

Heck, some of your friends that you hang out with may be going through the same thing! They might be concerned that you'll stop being their friend for being who they are! Have you ever thought of that? You're going around being stressed and they might be going around being stressed-- and for what? You're afraid of being rejected. Do you and your friends ever talk about sexuality? If the subject ever comes up, listen closely and get an idea of what your friends think about it. Through out a couple of hints. Who knows? It could be what someone else in your group was waiting for to come out. God bless and godspeed, my friend. Peace!!!

Answer 3

ok ok i went through the same thing. if you don't come out and you really need to you will be living a lie and all your friends will be a lie. 2ndly who will you date? a woman? so you will sleep with women and while you do fantasise and wish it were a man? 3rdly if your family and friends don't accept you..well oh well it's your life and there is a whole world out there...and a whole loader gay people in it too! 4thly don't do anything stupid, you are not wrong and we are all LGBT and here for you!

Answer 4

Talk about a bad situation.
I think if I were in that situation, I would slowly show signs to everyone that I was gay, but take it slow, and give them time to adjust. It may take a while, but its better than just all of a sudden coming out and making them have to deal with it so suddenly.

Answer 5

i came all the way out once and had some bad experiences, got my heart broken too. then i had the "brilliant" idea of marrying a guy who doesn't mind. it's painful and i've wished for years to come back out all the way, but i can't. how's that for not wanting to live anymore? but i do, i do love life.... maybe what you and i need to do is be truthful and accepting.

Answer 6

Check out The Gay Youth Corner at: http://www.thegyc.com/

coming out as a young person: http://www.freetobeme.com/iti_gay.htm

Answer 7

I definitely agree with Yaiyo, start slowly making it obvious that you are gay, and don't go over the top. Just relax and do what you feel is enough to show that you "could be gay" and eventually, show you are "Gay, so what?"

Answer 8

Wait until you're 18 and on your own if you're family's like that, trust me. You may wanna tell some of your friends who you know will support you.

Just wait. But if you do decide to tell your parents, throw the lack of unconditional love card at them and see what they do.

Also, don't tell relatives beyond your immediate family.

Answer 9

awww =( wow im so sorry to hear that but im guessing if you and your friends are really close they proble already have an idea and so does your parents thats just my opinion b/c after most gay people do come out people already thought they were. So try not to worry about it to much and just tell them you are proble just worrying way to much and stressing your self out =( thats not good and please dont kill your self its not worth it everything will proble work out good. Good Luck.

Answer 10

Tear your hair out, stamp your feet, you'll still be gay.
Just a gay boy that'll be more tired and depressed.

You can fight being gay, repress it, lie to yourself and die of the guilt of denying yourself an authentic life or you can just relax and admit being gay and live a fulfilling life.