Will i ever be happy?Could anybody encourage that God still loves me?im depressd n He feels so far away..?

Question

I'm 20 n just graduated in College w/ honors as c.u.m Laude.But i end up working in my aunt's internet cafe.it's now my third month working as a graveyard cashier & d work's fine at first esp. dat i have a good co-worker.It was so fun at the start & i gained new friends frm d regular customers,we have free lodging although my salary is below minimum wage.bt now i feel stuck wd no way of succeeding.I can't get away from my job bec.:
hir,i have a place to hide,my dad's an alcoholic & I dread seeing an uproar again when he comes home drunk;
my aunt(boss) raised me & my dad hu's unemployed & she told me that if i work somewhere else,she won't help us anymore,i'm afraid i might not be able to earn enough for rent,water,n electricity if i work in another.Now i feel such a failure,i am also unhappy bout my lovelife,im jealous dat ol d guys i lyk turn to like my co-worker instead.I also felt so unhappy since i don't get 2 save money & buy wat i want earning so little enough onli 4 food 2 eat

Answer 1

Of course God loves you. He will ALWAYS love you and will NEVER leave you. He might just be putting you through a test, maybe the devil is trying to lower your faith, maybe the lord is trying to tell you something through this. Listen to his signs. Learn lessons from this. He loves you and only wants the best for you. read your bible, especially Job, and find a christian website that has advice. Just think of the phrase WWJD, What Would Jesus Do? Hang on there sweetie. You'll make the right decision. Ask the lord to guide you.
God Bless.

Answer 2

Our relatives have abandoned us entirely. We are so hated and despised for not bowing down and sucking up to anyone. Because we are independent, we are regarded as enemies. I have just my wife and children, very few friends. I like it that way.
Even before I was married I was kicked out the same day I graduated high school and found myself a boat to Alaska. After working there, I joined the army and had a successful career. I am 38 and retired now with benefits.
Still, before I met my wife I wandered America and saw places and worked places that most people will never see or care to see. I've slept in what fields, abandoned vehicles, and forest trails just to get by, working on ranches and farms. I had no friends then and very few now.
But regret my life I do not. I have learned a lot, mostly about human nature and how my wife and children are my life. I desire nothing more than peace.
Find a reason to be happy, even if it's something stupid. You have a long way to go in your life and you can make many differences in the lives of strangers. But don't let anyone use you or make them aware of your weaknesses. People are notorious for preying on weaknesses for a tactical or financial advantage.
When Christmas rolls around, find and angel or wish tree in a mall or Wal-Mart and take the tags off and make those gifts happen. Keep your sense of giving to yourself. It'll make you very happy, knowing that you can help out some child out there with less than you.

Answer 3

Boy do you sound depressed. Maybe you should get some kind of schooling that will help you get a better job. A lot of highschools offer all different types of classes. If you graduated college you should be smart enough to go out there and get a good job. You're young yet. It's time to get a life of your own. No, I'm not putting you down honey, but you can't always depend on someone else. Maybe, you can get a friend to get a place with you and share the responsibility of the bills with. Your aunt sounds like she wants everything for nothing. God is everywhere. Ever hear the phrase, lift a stone and I am there, look in the sky and I am there. Honey, he's all around you, of that you can be sure. But, he wants us to learn on our own. To be able to care for ourselves. It's not that he's not there and doesn't hear you, but look at the world at large and you can see he's awfully busy. He can't answer everything. You have to learn your own way. Be happy and peaceful with your life. Someone will come around one day and you'll be surprised that he wants you and you want him back. Go to the church of your choice and pray for guidance. You might be surprised at how much that helps at times. I hope this helps. God bless,be happy and safe.

Answer 4

If you are a college graduate you could certainly get a better job than working as a graveyard shift cashier! Also, working the graveyard shift has been proven to be a risk factor for depression.

Here's what you should do-see a doctor right away. You may need to get on anti-depressant medication, and most of the drug companies have programs for free or reduced cost medication-ask the doctor about these programs.

Then, you need to find a better job! You should be able to find something that would at least allow you to get an apartment with a roomate. Then start thinking about what you would like for a long term career and begin working on that.

Alcolholics Anonymous would probably be a good thing for you since you grew up with an alcoholic father.

Of course God loves you. He loves us all.

Things will get better. start taking the little steps you can right now to make them better. And it's great you have friends-talk to them about your feelings.

Hope you'll seek out the help you need. Hugs

Someone who cares

Answer 5

You have a number of issues to work through, but basically you feel trapped in a low-paying job and having the responsibility not only for yourself, but for your alcoholic dad. It's kind of your aunt to give you a job and lodging, but it doesn't give you much satisfaction. Two things are in your favor, however. First of all, you have a college degree. Make use of it. Go out and try to find a job that is better suited to your qualifications, and pays better. Secondly, you're getting experience of working with the public, which should further qualify you for a better job. As for your father, you don't need to feel responsible for him. He's an adult, and he'll have to decide to either shape up or continue to ruin his life. Once you start making more money and supporting yourself, you'll have more freedom to do the things you really want to do. And to answer your first question about God, He's always there, and He may not respond in the way in the way you think he should, but he is watching over you every step of the way. You've no doubt heard that He works in mysterious ways, so don't give up. Good luck, my dear....

Answer 6

You will be happy one day and everything your going through now is for a reason so when that day does come you'll be aware of it and you'll be more grateful ~ suddenly everything that's happening to you now will make sense you just have to give it time and trust God wheter he seems far away or not he'll still always be there ~ Live your life and have no regrets and that my friend is true bliss

Make sure your always living and not living undertow of what you should be living
P.S. God will always love you no matter what ~ Never think otherwise

Answer 7

your so busy and stressed out that your missing your life. If you keep going this way, when your 60 your going to look back on your life and regret it. You have to do what makes YOU happy. Listen to your heart. You can only be as happy as you will allow your self to be. I know that some bad things might be happening in your life, but it wont get any better if you dont change it. Stay positive, and read Psychic Diaries by Lysa Mateu.

Remember, your life is in your hands. Dont let it slip away.

Answer 8

you sound stress in many roles in your life!
as hard and redickulous as it sounds try looking at the good side! TAke that educated risk!
Lets say you look for a job! before you tell your aunt go on the intervew you get it!
You need to look at all the doors that are right by you and its' the hardest thing to do when your upset stressed depressed busy!
Your first year with out help is going to be hard but you can do it!

I had to quit school to get a job because my mom need heart pills she got a job to help out at one point but after she got fired she didn't go back to work I was supporting her. with a rate of 7 and hour 20 hours a week if i was lucky! mostly it was just 8 hours a week! but if someone called in sick!
I never had anyone in my family to help us out! well my rent was 4 something at that time and i needed another job to feed us. but the one thing i did was do what i wanted to do! I wanted to be a radio dj hence the short hours i was one for 6 years then i gave it up to make money! i also dj ed at a bar! to bring in money at that time i was working at the bar the job that was giving 20 hours aweek need an employee different department but still in radio! heck i need the job so i applied and got it! a slight raise to 8 bucks an hour. so here was my schedule with still no money left over to save!
m-f 8a-5:30
on SU, MO and Th dj at bar 9pm - 3am lacking of sleep! i was dead to friend the world and everything esle!
but i was doing what i had to do support my mother and me!
no time for love ! but i did score a few dates for good food! :)

my point!
your going to have to do some boaring hard stuff to get where you want to be!
now i have 1 job a mom who helps out and earns some money form me! a live partner and finally Happiness!

Just hang in there and start looking for the good things. ie. making new friends, having someone offer help for you, oh and tell yourself your going to succeed but remember success don't happen over night!
best wishes sweetie it will get better!

Answer 9

Sounds to me like you need a new life. If you're really that smart you can pick up the pieces. Find out what it is that YOU want. Map it out. Steady the course and GO. Do it now.

Answer 10

look for another job when off from ur aunt's cafe-save a little-move--you need to get out of there