How do I get rid of my affliction?

Question

recurrent intrusive memories and snapshots in my head of my father....who o'd 2 and a half yrs ago.
please help I am really suffering.

i am turning to alcohol but i am afraid i am becoming an alcoholic and addiction is obviously in my bloodline

he was a heroin addict my whole childhood he suffered a lot. It was a devastating reality to face when the above happened, though. I also feel ashamed to be alive because of this, and frequently.

I am in counseling but I can't show my feelings because they make me feel vulnerable, so instead I get mad all the time.

HE'S DEAD JAYMES HE'S DEAD
CAN'T TALK TO HIM

Answer 1

I suggest you get counseling, in all seriousness.

Answer 2

And so this is all your fault? I guess that is as good as an excuse to mess your life up as any. I mean, that is what you want to do isn't it? Stay trapped in this equilibrium of self abuse and laziness where you can feel good at not going through the discomfort of the behavior that abstains from this? I deal with heroin addicts and this sounds like an argument given when one knows it is way past the time to quit and keeps putting it off. I know another who inherited lots of money and says shy wants to invest it and make good with it but in the end it is all a front to buy more dope and waste is all so in the end she can say it wasn't her fault it all got spent... it is the people who most care for her who are at fault and when she spends it all she will be exactly where her unconscious mind wants to be... sad and in rehab and back on the say to being a bag woman. Why go so far to kid yourself. Go ahead and admit it. You want to be like this or you would change it yourself.

Answer 3

First; i'm 10 yrs.clean and i still can't feel totally accepted by most people, but I do know; "Guilt Kills," everybody else is dead, but me (and my hiv) have been rollin along, doing everything wrong-never no meds, nothing, for over 30 yrs now:)?
You need to talk to you dad, Honesty!! tell him BE HARD ON HIM, cry with him. Split open your heart and spew the truth about how you fell...and watch...suddenly a cloud of resovle and compassion will desend... cuss him out !! and ...~watch.~ LIGHT TO YOU

Answer 4

You seem to want help, so stop doing the passive agressive, I want help, but I don't want help dance with the counselor. Allow yourself a chance to open to what they are suggesting.

Emotional pain is horrible, life stopping and time wasting. Start to tell yourself that this will resolve and that you will be more active in your own process of being helped.

You are the only one who can save you. And you can do it! I know you can. You are saying it right here.

Take Care and Good Luck!

Answer 5

Open up to your group, be venerable let your heart speak it will release the pain in there and it will help not only you but everyone that hears you.get some good pictures of good times and look at them before bed smiling or good times or another person you can relate something good to. Go to you Doc. you may get som sleeping pills to help you over the edge.STOP DRINKING NOW.NO MORE BOOZE IT SCREWS UP YOUR HEAD. CHURCH IS GOOD TOO AND GO TO AN A.A.MEETING THEY LOVE YOU AND HELP YOU.DO IT NOW.

Answer 6

You need to break that cycle. Know the difference between right and wrong. Drinking don't help the problem. You need to step up and be the better person and stop using excuses to have a drink. I wish you well.

Answer 7

There is a really good book called "The Courage to Heal" and it has an accompanying workbook that is really really really good. I highly recommend getting them and working your way through both books. Best wishes.