I hate my life right now please help?

Question

I hate my life, I have no money and no friends and everyone screams and yells at me and all I want is to be left alone and for them all to get out my life and just let me be. My house is so small I can never be on my own and my mom just walks in and out my room when ever she likes and now her boyfriend has started to do the same. I cant be alone, I cant do anything on my own, I get treat like a little kid and when I don't do something that someone else wants exactly they way they want it I get screamed and yelled at, and even if I do get everything right I still get screamed and yelled yet and treat like I am 5.

My mom goes on about taking medicine and wont listen to a single thing I say, I feel like a freak and she don't even care, all she does is goes on and on and on about stuff I already know, and even why I do take it she still goes on about it and even when I got it she says I didn't get it and wont listen when I say I have so she forces me to take more of it.

I really like Connie and it isn't fair that we cant be together but I know why we cant and I am trying to stay away from her, see I want my mom to be happy and I don't want to wreck things but she don't even care a single tut about me and all she does is go on and on and on and on and doesn't stop.

My room is a mess and look like there has been a bomb in it and I am too depressed to clean it up, I don't see the point because anything I do is always compared to other people and I hate it, it makes me more depressed more sad, more angry, more hurt and no one seems to notice.

I don't go out, I don't have friends and I was forced to go to my uncles today and listen to a load of babbling dribble, all because my mom thought I should (help out), I hate it. All I want is to be left alone, on my own, in my room to listen to my music and play on my computer and I wish everyone would get off my case and let me live my life

Not that I have much of a life – I hate it but I don't know how I can change it, perhaps I would be better off if I could just die and save everyone the trouble.

Its so not fair

Answer 1

Better tell your mother to bring you to the psychologist.
or to any psychopathic hospital for treatment before it will come to worst.
jtm

Answer 2

If it were not for your mom, you would not have any kind of life.
She had to go through much pain and sacrifice of her own resources in order to bring you into the world healthy. According to what you have written, it seems that she is still offering you a place to stay where you can listen to your music and play on your computer. Some people have to buy their own music, their own room, their own food and their own computer, and even earn their own money. Some people have no one to advise them about any of their problems or to yell at them to warn them of personal impending dangers. Some people are entirely, alone in this world. If you are unhappy being in the same living quarters with your mother, you can find a way to prepare yourself to get a job that pays you enough money to move out. Even after you move out there will be things you will have no control over that you may not like and you will not have as much time to be on your computer and to listen to your music. You ,certainly, will not be left alone because the people you may work with or work for will make other kinds of demands on your time. There is something you can do, however. You can devote more of your time being concerned about what services you can offer other people in your community and in your social circle, that will make them appreciate you more, such as keeping your room and your surroundings neat, clean and attractive. You can start participating in activities that will build on your natural talents such as a sport, a mechanical, musical, artistic, culinary or social skill. If you are very depressed or clinically depressed, you can take your medicine without being reminded to do so or you could stop taking it if your doctor tells you that there is nothing wrong with your mental state. You can become the kind of person you would like for yourself to live with because, you are one person you cannot escape from, ever. Until you become that person, being with Connie or any other person will not change anything of whom you really are. You would NOT be better off dead because you would, then no longer be able to hear your music, play on your computer,see the world, eat, breathe or do anything to help anyone else who needs you and there are many people who need you-even if you have not met them yet. Life is not fair but you can make it beautiful and something to look forward to if you change your attitude and take charge of your life. Best wishes.

Answer 3

Sometimes when we live in a mess then we feel like a mess. Try changing your attitude so that you will feel the way you want. If you want positive give positive. Start by cleaning your room. Its not just for your mom(which I'm sure will be happier for it) but for you. If you room is uncluttered it will make you feel like you have accomplished something. It also makes you feel like you can tackle more. Start helping around the house. Take out the garbage. Help with your laundry. These are not hard things to do. Then once your mom sees that your trying maybe she will ease up on you. Just remember start thinking positive. You don't have a life because YOU CHOOSE to be miserable. CHOOSE to do something constructive and you will see more POSITIVE. Good Luck

Answer 4

First of all get out of the house and go for a walk. Just blow everything off and go for a walk. Run if you want just get out for a while. Learn that your mom won't change, and the boy friend wont either. That isn't your problem. You can only take care of you, and that is all you have to care about. After the walk clean up your room. It might be hard, but just do it. Remember one thing ( Don't let the basterds of life get you down). Keep in touch please.

Answer 5

You know, life is never fair...they make us cry, make us hate, make us angry,depressed and irritated but at the end of it all things changes...nobody knows about the future...we assumes that we will live the life we are living now forever and ever but who knows it won't change 5 years down the road?
I used to hate my life and live with regrets but...i don't know...something just "spoof!" and i start to appreciate everything and everyone around me...although i'm not entirely happy with my life, i survived...and i hope you too,can do it...cheer up...
maybe life will take a U turn?

Answer 6

You need to let your mum know that she is damaging and making you feel terrible. I know it won't be nice but you NEED to do it. It should be her responsibility to respect you. Let her know that she isn't the only person in the world. You should also let her know that you are feeling depressed all the time.

Also I think you need to see a psycologist as soon as possible. I was in a VERY similiar situation as you and a psycologist improved my life and well-being HUGELY. He changed the way I veiw things.

You can also learn the art of feng shui in your room, it can actually help you gain supportive people. One of the first lessons in feng shui is that a messy room makes life itself messed up. If you start taking pride in your room you can start to have more pride in yourself.

If your old enough to work(I think the minimal age is 14 in most countries) you could start making a resume and giving copies to all the supermarkets and retail stores you know of. You never know what might happen.

I believe in you. I've been in your situation too.

Answer 7

Make some good friends its not difficult.
Try to speak to your mom about how you feel. May be you can send her an email if not face to face.
When you will have good friends around you life will be more interesting and in that you will find some one just so special. May be Connie
Life is not about losing hopes.
Clean up your room immediatley if your place is clean you will have peace of mind and good health.

Answer 8

You have so much, yet you have nothing! You need someone to talk to in the professional field. Or is there anyone in the family, that you can confide in? Make friends! And start by cleaning your room, At least you have a room of your own to clean!

Answer 9

Take it easy.

A lot of people have been where you are now.

But its not realistic to lock yourself in your room and play computer games all day.

You are going through hard times - so are a lot of people and many in different ways to you. Concentrate on the good things: you have a computer!! Do you know how many people don't have a computer.?? Can you imagine your life without one!!

think of more things like that. It will make you happier and more able to take on problems in life.

Answer 10

Life is lead by you dont ever let your life lead u,i mean to say that u seamed to be hopeless and helpless.dont do like this man.You r a driver of a vhiecle of your life,drive it as u want.There is always hope and way to succeed.Try to make your own way in the road of life.Always think that u have everything to make ur life happier.Try to make friend not to wait to let people come to u yet u r trying to hide urself.

Answer 11

sounds like you are amidst a really rough day / storm. always remember that eventually the sun WILL shine again. your situation sounds bad, but some have worse. Sounds like a lot of this stuff will change . Hang in there. Pray.