Why don't I feel black?

Question

Im 18 and have obviously been black my whole life. But from a very young age I always felt weird that I was black. I remeber looking at myself and thinking "wow, so i'm black?" I have always gone to primarily white schools and most of my friends are white. I get called 'oreo' and 'white girl'. Its so strange but when people tell me "your black" or describe me as 'a black girl' it feels so strange and foreign. And truthfully uncomfortable. Even when black people describe me as that it feels so wrong. I can't explain it, im not ashamed of my race, I like the way i look, listen to 'black' music, and like 'black guys'. but I dont feel like I'm supposed to be black..was I white in a past life or something...uhhh I hate feeling so out of place and shunned by my race HELP MEEE

I MEAN I DONT FEEL LIKE IM SUPPOSES TO BE BLACK...EVEN BEFORE I EVER WENT TO SCHOOL...LIKE WHEN I WAS FOUR..I REMEMBER THINKING "i was white though?"

Answer 1

Why aren't you proud of who you are?

Answer 2

What you mean is that you feel like an American and it seems strange to you that Americans are divided into white and black. When people talk about American culture, they mean white culture. Blacks and other races are considered minorities because they represent a small segment of the population, so their "own" culture is not considered the real American culture. However, if you're black raised in a "white" culture, they still call you black because you represent black culture in general. That's the way they think.

Answer 3

Hi, just some thoughts I had on your question..it sounds quite normal for a young person to question their identity 'who am i?' is a great question to ask yourself 'who do i want to be?' these are good character forming questions and if you have a good think about the real you and all your strengths and goals and potential it will serve you well to keep you grounded in the challenges you face ahead with study and college and guys oh yeah you need to have your head screwed on to deal with guys!This is the real you, the internal you, and the person you believe you are is the person you will project to others.So, think about all you have to offer and your worth and believe in it!So, no matter what anyone says or thinks you will always have your own strong internal foundation to keep you balanced.Remember that you dont need to be anyone but yourself .If you need to make some adjustments to your thinking patterns or behaviour on the way thats good 'cos that means you are learning and maturing.Good luck with growing into a young woman, you sound like a bright girl.

Answer 4

it seems like you have some sort idea of what you "think a black person" is suppose to be. Like said above, black is just a skin color. And african americans come in all kinds of forms. I'm african american and have been told that I "talk white", I listen to rock music and heavy metal "So apparently I act white" (whatever all that means) I suggest you get in touch with your culture. African-americans as a whole are known for a lot of bad things and a lot bad images are portrayed of them. But there are some magnificent things our race can be credited for. Research and find out what they are and be proud of who you are. LOVE LIFE AND LOVE YOURSELF! for everything you are.

Answer 5

What do you associate "black" as being. Is it because you are surrounded by whites you find it strange that you aren't also white?

Don't know what to say. You can research skin bleaching to the outside matches how you feel on the inside or you can realize that you are black and its okay and its like anyother race, colour, whatever and get on with life.

Answer 6

I think you've reached and enlightened state that every person should strive for...you see yourself as a HUMAN, not a black human, or a female human. You're just you. There's nothing wrong with that.
I have had a similar experience in my life...my own relatives even made snide comments about my immediate family and I "talking white" (whatever that means!). I don't understand why everything has to be sorted, separated and categorized.
You don't have to "feel black". Just be yourself and know that *true* friends don't have to label you.
:-)

Answer 7

I totally understand where your coming from, it has a lot to do with where you were raised. I'm biracial my mom's turkish and my dad's black but I never really felt anything but black growing up ( I was raised in long beach Ca & Inglewood) I used to look at myself and be like "Wow, I'm mixed, my mom's turkish how wierd" But in the end Black, white whatever are just colors not who u are!!

Answer 8

First of all, don't worry about your skin color, there is nothing wrong with being black and there is nothing you can do about it.

The best thing about America is that we ALL come from somewhere else. Even the American Indian tribes traveled to North America from Asia.

You are an American, first and foremost. Be proud of that.

Just try to ignore all the racist and ignorant cr@p you hear from others.

Answer 9

Why would your race shun you if you look black? Maybe you are a lighter skinned African American person. You need to fit in where you feel comfortable. If they are shunning you they are racists and nobody needs that nonsense.

Answer 10

their is no such thing as being black, its just a skin color..move on already stop thinking so much about it..u just probably think of the sterotype black when u think of 'black' in general and u just dont feel like ur associated with it


*ur problem is just that u dont have a good perception of black people

Answer 11

It sounds as if you have no connection to your native culture. Black people in America were stripped of their language and culture but managed to create a new language and culture that is embraced around the globe. Be proud of your native culture, but don't change who YOU are or how YOU talk for anyone but yourself.