suicide...depression..anxiety?

Question

I have been extremely depressed all my life...im only 18....i put on a show for people leading them to think im happy..im not....everyday is a battle for me trying to not commit suicide...i have been on medicine..seen counselors...everything..i go to church regulary...but life is horrible...stress of going to a college that i hate.. my family has lots of problems....and i have had problems with bulimia....it just like when someone puts wieght on your back..tho u may want to keep standing eventually u will collapse against your will...thats how i am now...i cant do it anymore....i dont want there to b a future,,,i dont care if i had all the money in the world....i just want to b normal and happy....please dont suggest praying...i have prayed about this for 8 years yet nothing has gotten better...dont say seek help or meds because that didnt work countless times either...i have alot of problems ..the kind of problems that affect your whole life....opinions?

Answer 1

Mike, it seems like depression is a strange thing. Once you are into it, it is kind of addictive. I have had some depression in my lifetime and it was a strange thing, it tried to keep me in that mode. It is something that you have to just pull yourself up and look for better things.

Now, better times and things will not come looking for you. You will have to go looking and searching for them. When you find the right situation, you will wonder how in the world you let yourself stay depressed so long.

This may be hard, but you will have to forget your family and the problems they had. Then forget the problems you have had. Today is a brand new day and it is wide open for YOU not just everybody else.....today is for YOU and so are all the days to follow.

Today you can be a brand new person. You can make new friends and not the depressed ones either. What do you like to do? Think about it and when you figure out what you want or would like to do......DO IT !! Is it the stress of college that is pulling you down? Get out!! It isn't worth destroying your life over. You don't have to have a college education to make it in this wonderful world. The earth is covered up with "blue collar" workers that are working, doing good, and keeping the highly educatedd "idiot's " butts covered.

Whatever is bothering you get away from it. My thoughts are this: "IF I can't fix it, IF I can't change it......I get away from it." It has always worked well for me.

Stay away from people that are down in the sludge paddling around. Get close to people that are looking forward and not backward like you are doing now.

YOU are an individual, like everybody else. It is up to you to make a life for yourself, do good and be content, happy with what you are and what you are doing.

To make a long story short, YOU are the only on that can solve your problem...........so forget the words "I can't" and think "I CAN", "I CAN" "I CAN"...................... Good luck, Pops

Answer 2

I too have suffered from severe depression and contemplated suicide. I have health issues, struggled with obesity, been abused, lost a baby and many other things. I often thought about ending it all because it seemed too much. I sought counseling and medication and prayed but it too seemed to know avail. I got to the point where I decided I had only two choices and they were 1) was I going to be controlled by life or 2) was life going to be controlled by me. I chose the later. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem but I know better than anyone that they don't seem so temporary especially when it seems like the same thing over and over. You have to reach down deep inside and pull the strength from within. You do have it whether you believe it or not and you can overcome all the stress and negativity, you have to want to though. You can do it I know you can, I did and thought I never could. I wish you all the best!! DON"T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!

Answer 3

What I read from your statements is that you feel you are not in control of your own life as though everybody else is controlling your life. (family problems, college, etc)

Then the obvious solution is to take control of your life, and be in charge.

You are 18 now. Don't say ONLY 18. At 18, you are semi-adult. That is a milestone age. You can make your own decisions. You don't need your parent's approval for anything. Heck, your parents are not requried to keep you at home either.

If the situation is so bad that you'll try anything, then leave school and find work. Save enough money and move out of your home. One caution.... don't leave school until you find work. Don't leave home until you have enough money and plan to sustain yourself. Your goal is to make your life better, not swap one problem for another.

Yes, education is important, but it's not any more important than your sanity and life. You can always go back to school (although it can be difficult) but you could never take back life itself.

Good luck.

P.S. Your problem is not unique. Just about everybody goes though it at one level or another. The real difference is, some take charge and chagne it, and some don't.

Answer 4

The thing with depression is that it takes over your whole life. It makes you believe that the whole world is against you and that there is no way out. I know this sounds simple and silly, but find someone you can really go to for anything, not a counselor, or w/e, but a true friend. Someone you can do things with, someone you can vent to, someone you can rely on. I don't know how old you are but if you can drive drive, I find that If i just get out for a few days with my friends I do really well. Or I just go to a movie alone, anything i want. If you need someone to talk to email me ok? I have a few friends who had the same problem.. they said I am really good at this.. lol plus I am not afraid to yell at you if need be. =p

Answer 5

Yes, I understand. I am 64 years old and when I was 18 I had a major depression. At that time I did not seek treatment.

Medication with counseling is the best way to go.
Also, I have found that a good doctor can best tell which medication to prescribe and also either provide counseling or set up an appointment with a counseler.

I am not going to tell you to pray or to have a stiff upper lip. It does not help. You need support for you to know you are a good person and the world needs good people.

Please remember that killing yourself is permanent but depression doesn't have to be. I am living proof of that. If you want to write to me please feel free.

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Answer 6

I honestly can't offer any advice but I can say that I've been through a lot of the same things as you. I'm 15 and my depression started when I was around 10 or 11. Then I developed at 12 and still have it. Nothing has helped-not medication, going in-patient on a psych ward, therapy, long term programs, nothing. So I don't have anything to tell you but I can tell you that I'm here for you. If you need to talk to someone you can contact me.

Answer 7

I am so happy, it was only a 35 minute drive ( 70 minutes total) but absolutely no sign of anxiety or panic i shopped till I dropped - brilliant! I will now go for the next stage DUAL CARRIAGE way, probably at the weekend, with my husband accompanying me first then the solo drive, if successful the final stage of driving on motorway

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Answer 8

For years I've suffered with depression myself. I finally got away from people and took along look at what was all going on in my life and yes I did pray allot. Finally God started showing me that it had allot to do with who I was mostly around. My family had allot to do with it because of their negative attitude torge things. I myself didn't want to be like that. So I started looking for things that truly made me happy and I backed off on going around my family members that were so negative. You have to look deap inside of yourself and figure out what truly makes you happy and go after it. NEVER give up. Suicide isn't the answer and it hurts the ones that mean the most to you. I know- my father-in-law done it, we miss him everyday! So please think about all the people that love you and that you love.

Answer 9

you're so young and you got so many years in front of you...it's something that you must convince yourself before going through all this help that you refuse in meds and praying...think that in one point you might probably make a difference or leave something behind you...don't rush! Suiciding is the most coward gesture one can do. Figure ways of making your life more beautiful, go out there and see people who are really in trouble, who suffer, who have diseases but yet fight for their lives and are grateful for every second more they're living...

Answer 10

You need to call 911 immediately. This is a life threatening situation! You say that you have not found anything that works- but that doesn't mean you have tried everything. Keep trying to find the right meds and the right cousellor. Talk to your pastor. Don't give up! It WILL GET BETTER!!!