I Feel So Miserable?

Question

I can tell my friends don't like hanging out with me or are put off by me. I would say it is cos I can become distanced, but I TRY to laugh and joke with them, but they don't respond well, and that puts me off and makes me quiet, because I am to afraid to speak to them after they constantly turn me away. These are the only friends I've ever had. They've always described me as funny and lively. suddenly, they just don't seem to think I'm worth even really talking to. I feel excluded and unwanted by everyone! I keep breaking down and I usually escape with some lame excuse and drive somewhere and cry and go home once I look like I haven't been crying and my nose isn't red anymore. I can't communicate with anyone- I am afraid to be seen crying or vulnerable. I feel like the people I know will turn it against me somehow and I don't want to be seen as whiney. There is no one I can talk to at all. I want to move somewhere where no one knows me. It hurts to be hated by people you once loved

Is there a way to see a therapist without actually, physically seeing one...not one online that I'd have to tell anyone about. I just hate when people think I am feeling bad because they may either a) baby me and treat me differently as to not "hurt" me or b) care only to "look" like they're sensitive and do nothing to help me and make me feel worse cos they don't want to help me or c) simply and honestly not care at all...which would break my heart. I just hate to be disliked by people I love. it's so painful.

Answer 1

They don't hate you.

It sounds as if you might be suffering from depression. You need to talk to someone, a counselor. Please get help, don't put it off. Why feels so miserable if you don't have to?

Good luck.

Answer 2

I understand your position. You need not talk to anyone. Just simply listen what they say. Many people will come and have friendship with you. Many people want to tell so many things to someone, but they don't get anyone.

Moreover, do good things to someone whom you do not know, they become friends to you. Those people will feel good about you and they want to talk to you more often without haste.