I'm starting to get tired of life, tired of everything?

Question

I'm just so fed up. I'm tired of being hurt. I feel so lost and I don't know what to do with myself. I've had many thoughts about suicide since I was 11 and now I'm about to be 20 and I just cant take it anymore. I just got out of a "relationship" and I just find out that the guy just wanted to use me but I cut it off before it got that far. I have a hard time trusting and I feel so betrayed by him. I have noone to lean on. I can't trust anyone, not even family or friends. I'm fed up with life and i just want to end the pain.I want to end it so bad and I don't know why. i've tried counseling and nothing seems to work for me. I jsut want to get away from it all and start over. I hate my life. I'm hating everything about me right now. I feel so worthless and stupid. What's wrong with me?

Answer 1

You sound like me three years ago.

My personal sob story is that I was physically and emotionally abused by my father for years, and was dealing with feelings of depression, inferiority, worthlessness, and self-hate. Yeah, it sucked. But once I started caring about myself and putting an effort into finding out who I really was, things started getting better.

Do you play an instrument? If not, try picking one up. That's what I did, I learned to play violin. Even if you don't learn to play anything, it helps so much to listen to music, especially when you find songs that combine beautiful instrumental parts with lyrics that mirror your feelings, experiences, etc. Music for me has literally saved my life, it's been my main source of comfort for years. The thing about music is that no matter how many people abandon or hurt you, music will always be there and will always be the same. It never hurts, and it never leaves.

Another thing that helped me immensely is to get in touch with nature. Corny as it seems, I've had several experiences that were so perfect that, in all their grand simplicity, they reminded me that things will be alright in the end.

I wish you the best of luck, and am truly sorry that you are feeling this way. Please don't take your life; give things a chance to get better. Though it seems like things will always suck, trust me, they won't. I'm happier now than I've ever been.

If you need anything - support, someone to talk to, anything - feel free to email me. This is a tough place to be in, and I'm willing to help in any way I can. What you're going through is something that no one should have to go through alone.

Answer 2

There is nothing wrong with u.I feel that way sometimes myself.U must be a very unique person.Most people nowadays just run through life trying to be the most or the best not caring on how many heads they have to step in order to get there.If u are a flower in a weed garden why should u feel bad about yourself?U are right start over and give value to the small things.U are about to start the wonderful journey of a young woman,make it a journey worth the lady u obviously are.Lean on the love inside u for that is from God.

Answer 3

I'm not sure if I can give a proper advice but I'll try my best.. Well.. I once also thought about suicide and stuff too. I was really angry with life and got really tired of it. I mean after all I'm some kind of black sheep or something. Anyway, what really hold me together is the fact that suicide would not put the depresion to rest (I feel abit that I'm being a little too selfish too). To end my pain in the fastest way and those who truly cared for me would cry. I think what I really care is that I don't want to see the tears in the eyes of those who truly care for me. I mean there are times where we all will drop down in despair but there are those who want to reach to you and tell you that everything will be alright. They all want to help you as much as they can to bring you back up to your feet. It would be a sad tyhing to make them despair on your death.. So I wouldn't recommend you to do it. Well.. you felt betrayed at the moment so most probably you felt that others might betray you too. I believe time will ease your pain as it did to me. Now, what you really need might be to have time off and do something enjoyable with those you cherish. Being with those you cherish with and enjoying something together could bring the smile back to your face. I hope my advice could really help. Best wishes.

Answer 4

hey you are not worthless and stupid. please dont think that. before you make a dramatic decision i want you to read this. what you need to do is go back in time. now imagine your childhood. was there any particular place you have always wanted to go? spain,bermuda,australia? go.just go. get away from the world you live in and try something new. When you take a plunge from the ordinary, doors open. new people and new places. life sometimes gets monotonous. everyone gets down and depressed. its a part of life that makes it better by fixing it. I would ramble on about how i went through this and how i fixed it but this is about you not me. now, this "man" you are talking about. he seems like a real jack-***. i say we give him a swift kick in the groin? sounds good to me. anyways, he is dirt.scum. now you have a clean floor for new people who will keep it clean. Life has its ups and its downs. its ok. if you need a friend, i am here. we may not know each other but then again we might. but i will be your friend.

Answer 5

This is a normal reaction if all you say is true. You're about to not be a teenager any more. But, you have lots of time ahead of you. Re-focus on something positive. Do something nice for someone you don;t know. Journal. Read a good book. Find a new job. You are at a juncture. Leave the past behind you and head towards a bright future. It's all up to you.

Answer 6

i get the same way and its funny cause everything youve said i can relate to right now, i got out of a bad relationship i think you gotta put the relationships on the side for a while and work your own stuff out and when the time is right someone will comealong and if youve worked out your problems you will know right now you cant see who or what is good for you. i just went and talked to a pastor today and i didnt feel like it helped much at the time but looking back i think it was a good idea. Try talking to someone like that GOd is all about love and it sounds like that is what you need

Answer 7

this is one question I'm not going to be funny on .
just get away and start all over . that's your words now trust your self and do it . pick your dream spot to live and go for it. you got a long life to live and a long time to make it great. for nine years you had suicide on your mind . start over and do something new live for you and only you . a lot fall victim to the need for love and relationships . that great if it work but a lot of the time it does not . so work on loving your self get a good relationship with your self . your next question ask what the best spot to live to start a new life.
good luck

Answer 8

There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you. I've gone through periods of time like that and I'm 18. If you liked reading, I recommend you to read "The Tao of Pooh" and "Life 101." Both amazing and can't-put-down books that I think will help you.

Remember...NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOU. You are amazing the way you are, you just have to figure that out for yourself before you can move forward. Trust me...been there, done that.

I hope this helps.=)

Answer 9

This sounds like serious depression. You need to see a doctor and discuss your symptoms. Here is the national suicide hotline #: [phone]. Remember, life is precious and suicide is a permanent solution to what are usually temporary problems.

Answer 10

please don't end your life... you have great things in your future whether you believe it or not

i had a "relationship" too... she lied to me and pretended to like me for about two years...

i've been through everything you've said you're going through, so i'm someone you can lean on :) i've been there, and i've grown strong from it, so i'll be here to support you whenever you need it ok? just email me whenever you feel like and i'll talk to you about anything... i promise, whatever you've been through, i'm almost certain i can relate to, and if i myself can't i know someone who can... trust me, this dude has been dead before, i'm not kidding at all... i'm pretty sure he can relate to stuff you've been through

don't give up... there's people out there. i'm one of them. God Bless. (and nothing's wrong with you other than you are probably medically depressed, which can be treated if you want it to be)