tired of living i want to die?

Question

i am 19 years old i have been kicked out so i live on my own i can't pay my bills and i just feel truely hopeless i can't see how this is going to get better hell i didn't even get to go to college bc i was kicked out beforehand and i couldn't get the money to go because of this what is the point of livin i can't see it anymore i simply dont want to be here

Answer 1

Go to your GP and tell him how you feel, he will refer you to support groups etc. Goodluck.

Answer 2

Let me start by saying, look at others. I saw a woman on Oprah who went out for a walk....when she got back home her exdh had shot every one of her (5?) kids and then himself, right in her house.

No one can be sadder or madder or more hopeless than her. I think of her often. She went on. She remarried and has a new baby and guess what? She has many happy moments. Moments that made living on worthwhile.

You know, I promise you, you WILL have moments to live for. Tons of them. Think of the little things, make a list of reasons to live! Favorite smells, like grass after mowing, the beach, bacon frying, colonge. Favorite things to see in the future...the ocean, your baby's first smile while looking into your eyes with unreserved true love...these moments ARE ahead. Nothing stands in the way of tons of these moments, they will happen. Some will happen to day or tomorrow. Perhaps you will read a book that charms you. See a news story that pulls your heartstrings. View the sunset or laugh at a joke or be loved by a pet.

Death is forever. It's eternal. And whether you believe it or not, God says that killing yourself is unforgivable. The ultimate sin.

Now, what can you do? Well, you are 19, get out of whatever you are into that brings you down. Move. Join the peace corps or the military..see the world. Grab a backpack and just GO. Travel, do odd jobs. Visit friends and family.

You can get a job, a better one. If you have one that you hate, go in and QUIT. You are already in debt, but listen....who isnt'? I mean it's the American way. Being in debt.

Okay, what can you do about the debt? File bankruptcy. Get a loan. Cut up credit cards and vow to never use one that isn't attached to your atm only. Lifelong, this will bring you peace. Ask family to help you out. You can't get more depressed right? So a few 'nos' won't bug you!

Think outside the box. What CAN you do to make your life better? Travel. Go to the library and plan a trip..or a future...or just read novels! Write poems or songs.. the best ones were written when pain was bad...so real and raw...write!!!

Go to church. If you do already and don't feel MOVED or LOVED there, church hop! Go to two a Sunday! I grew up in a church where my family had always gone and never knew the real fun and unbridled love and acceptance of other churches till I tried a few! And believe me, God wants to hear from you. He's waiting, day and night, 365. Just talk to Him, tell Him that you are at the end of your rope. Have faith, God does promise that He will NEVER give you more than you can handle. How does this help you right now? Because girlfriend, you are much stronger than you know. And everything happens for a reason...there is something great out there for you. Hang on. Be proactive. Debt sucks, we all feel that. ALL of us. But stay away from rich and famous (the shows, the stars, 4H1, alllllllllllll of it) because it brings out the worst in the average viewer. Most folks are like you...in debt.

But there is sooooooooooooo much to live for. Get a cat. See a movie. Write the next Harry Potter. Drive all day and see someplace you never have. Make positive lists. Positive chages. Fix what you can, destress over everything you can't.

God bless you.

Answer 3

Guess what? SInce your parents no longer support you, you qualify for lots of financial aid! Don't give up! Go to the college and ask what kind of help you can receive. There is lots available! You may have to work your way through college but in the end it will be more of an accomplishment than if your parents paid your way! I wen through something like you are going through when I was 19. It does get better! I did it and so can you!
Go to your local social services department and see about getting some assistance with food and such so you don't go hungry. I know it's embarrassing to do, but you have to survive and once you are out of college and making a good living, you can give back!

You can do it! Good Luck!

Answer 4

Don't end everything so soon.
Your young, you have everything to live for.
Try saving up? Or ask your parents?
Try and do carboots? Sell your old things for money.
Try selling on eBay? Sell things that you don't need for money over the Internet.
Try doing Internet surveys? Ok this might sound stupid, but its totally not. Some sites are desperate to know what you think of there product or website and will pay you to do a survey.
There are alot of ways you could raise money for yourself... all you need is the time to do it.
Don't hurt yourself.
If you do feel suicidal then its always better if you talk to someone about it first.
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Answer 5

Don't give up that easy. Make some flyers and try to find a roommate. That way you can split the bills. Just check their references first. Start applying for grants to pay for college. Try getting a job as a waitress in a nice restaurant. You will make alot in tips. You could go to college during the day and work part time during the evenings. Apply for government assistance. Heck that is what it is for and I had rather see someone like yourself get it than someone who is just freeloading. At least you want to go to college and came on here for advice. That tells me you are trying. Hang in there. Things will get better!

Answer 6

my father passed away when i was 19, i got the chance to study at university of Cambridge but i can't, im the oldest sister, i got to give up everything and find job to support my family, i got to pay all the debts, my bros and sister was so young, they are only 16,13 and 11, my mum can't work, she's weak, i went aboard to another country by my own, and found my job, nobody's there for me at that time, im totally alone, i told myself i can't fall down, i got a big resposibility to bear, even after i was married, i don't get a good life like i was expected, i live in hell, you know how much hardest i been through, i survived by my own, althought i got lots of friends, but i didn't ask for help, coz they have their own life too, i dont want to bother them.
i dont know how deep your problem was, but i believe that if u don't give up, hold up the faith that u can do it, then you will, and always tell yourself this is just a test from your life, when you go through it, you can life better and better, and don't hope the money will fall from the sky, u must work on something to get it, by proper way.

Answer 7

I know things may seem tough but don't say that. I was terribly depressed about four years ago. It was after I graduated from college. I was in debt from student loans and the only job I could get in my field paid a little over minimum wage. I was crying all the time. It was so bad when I think back I lost two years of my life. Things will get better.

Answer 8

Amanda-I know how you feel. I feel the same way right now. I am thinking the same thing. And I have a cabinet full of pills. I don't really want to be here because being here is so painful. But I was in this place before, and it did get better. That's what I'm trying to tell myself right now.

My situation is different, but the pain of failure is the same. I feel like a complete failure. I have problems that I don't think I can solve on my own, and my family is fed up with me. And I really need their support right now.

But I'm not going to do it. I have to hold on. I don't know how it is going to get better, but I'm going to try. I am going to get a good attitude and hit life head on. I can't control other people. But I do have control over myself.

I will be praying for you. And please pray for me. I have two children, and I just can't leave them. It wouldn't be right. I know that you have people who love you too. Give one of them a call and talk. Let them know how you feel. I know that when I talk to my sister I feel better even though nothing has changed.

I don't believe your question was an accident. I was going to post the same question. Maybe that's God talking to me, telling me he cares and I'm not alone.

You take care, and e-mail me if you don't have anyone else to talk to, OK?

Answer 9

I can see how things must feel right now, but you need to hold it together. You never know what tomorrow will bring.

When things are getting you down take a look at people who have even less than you do then you'll see that things aren't as bad as they could be.

You don't know what the world has planned for you but you know its going to be better than it has been so far.

There is always hope don't give up

Answer 10

I can relate! I was kicked out at 17 and my parents not only didn't encourage me to go to college, but insulted me and discouraged me when I finally decided to put myself through.
I got a job in a restaurant full-time and paid for my own expenses. There were times that I also felt like I wanted to end it all, but I never did. You're going to have to get a job wherever you can find one. I wasn't able to go to college until I was 25; you're only 19. And I got students loans and had to pay them back. Try to find a relative or friend that will take you in until you get on your feet.

Answer 11

I am 27 years old. My fiance died last year, I was laid off of my high paying job and I am having a really hard time finding another one. My roommate is kicking me out because she wants her husband to move back in. I know about problems. It is hard to cope with problems in this world. But we live in America with many great opprotunities that other countries do not have. I keep myself alive thinking about the blessings that I do have. It really is about waking up every day and trying to find a way to make this day betterthan yesterday. It is also very good to have supporting friends that could help you try to change things in your life.