So we finally finished high school! I'm pretty sure I will never see him again, but he says he will call me one day to go out to eat or just to hang around. I fell in love with this boy. I want him, I covet him everyday, everyday I saw him at school! Soon I’ll be leaving for college and I know I'll find someone out there, but I fear it'll be hard getting over him!! This guy was perfect…perfect for me!! He has everything I’m looking for in a guy!!!! We never did anything and I’m going crazy for him!! My head keeps giving me false hope that he might just be gay, but I have this ugly feeling he is not!! I just found out he has some girlfriend! Does that truly mean anything? Does it? I never told him how I felt about him, never told him one of his friends was gay-me! I feared he would mock me, would ridicule me, would degrade me, would hurt me. But he already has hurt me by teasing me in so many ways!! His gay remarks and actions towards me, only me, make me believe he is gay. He touches me, tells me he wants to have sex with me, tells me to touch him, to hold his penis (but I have never held it, but have touched his butt) !! Would it be a bad idea to meet with him again in the future or during the summer? Would it? I don't know if he is gay...I sure do hope he is and pray he is! I'll I’m asking if for help. Help in forgetting about him, help in moving on, help in finding myself! Help me…please help me! Help me get over him! I’m lost and it’s fu**ing terrifying!
p.s. be serious with this matter
2007-06-22
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